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Date: February 29, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
9:01pm
Stuck in my head:
Let's Ride by Choclair
In the cd player:
Les Miz
Song lyric of the moment:
On my own, pretending he's beside me
all alone, i walk with him til morning
without him the trees are full of starlight
i reallydon't know the words...i'll just stop...it's Les miz
Book : The Brethen (now its all making sense)
On the tube:
Dharma & Greg
Random Quote:
"and oh yeah, i ran into God backstage and he says thank you" -- Rosie on the Grammy's
Anxiously Anticipating:
i want my columbia house cds, i'm in a fun randolph mood, i want big projects for school to be finished, MARCH BREAK and being in D.C., i need to get my license, NYC very soon
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Fido (but a cell phone)
Journal End Time:
9:43pm

show me the meaning of being lonely.

wow, don't i sound so full of woe? but i'm not. no woe here have a nice day. it's a woe free zone. i'm a nut. but not a woeful nut.

fuck me. i HATE HATE HATE missing lea's class. if there is one thing that i hate is missing lea's class. it's just that she teaches one class a week and if i miss it, then it means that i'm a lea free chica for sooooo long. i don't like it. maybe i AM full of woe. i'm woe-ing over lea. she is just so sweet. let us have a moment for miss creswell.

OMG let's have a moment for my homie G... The ARINATOR. yay ari. everyone go to her site it rocks my feathers. hehe rocks my feathers...not just any feathers, my tail feathers. and those are the best feathers, so miss arinator should feel honoured.

wow my journal is So full of shit. but that is alright. OMG who listens to Kiss92 in the mornings with Mad Dog?? who the FUCK is this sugar baby chic who does the horoschopes? she pisses me off to no end. she sounds like she is six. and i hate that her name is Sugar Baby. all you americans go listen tomorrow at like 7:10ish at here. you too can experience the joy that is Kiss. and now Billie Holliday is on with Mad Dog in the mornings. that thrills me. i LOVE Billie. but i do miss Darryn. let us take a moment for Darryn. i'm joking. it distrubs me that these girls get SOOOOO obsessed over radio people that they can't even SEE. grrrrrr.

OMG i have Madonna cosmic bonding vibes. i can feel when she is on the radio. and yesterday i was home sick and i turned on Much and wham bham...there was her video. then about an hour later i wanted to see the video again and it was on MuchMoreMusic(the BEST station). but yes i can sense madonna...who is now british..what up with that? and i'm in the middle of a D'Angelo obsession. has anyone seen his naked video? he is one fine specimen of man. i'm obsessed with finding fine and even perfect specimen of men...it is a fun game. everyday i discover many more. but yes everyone watch D'Angelo's naked video..it's on BET like every two seconds.

lorilee wasn't surprised that i'd be the What's For Dinner? addict...i'm not surprised that she thought that :-) but it is SUCH a good show. i think it might be on now...but i'm too lazy to get up. my other favourite cooking show is Ready...Set....COOK. with SIssy Biggers...or something like that. they have 20 minutes to cook up a kcik ass meal with random grocerie purchases and the basics that can be found in the pantry. it is so high stress. and they have the tomato team and the green peppers..and the audience votes. pure televison genius. if ready set cook were a man...it would be a fine specimen of man.

ummmm what else??on Kiss this morning...actually this afternoon because it was Tarzan Dan. well anyhoo he said that one persons most memorable event is their first kiss. and that some people go out and seek them out years later. how weirdo is that??? or maybe i just wouldn't understand...because i've never been kissed. wow. that is some random sharing with everyone. yeah...so never ever ever. i'm a lot more prudish and boring than people like to believe...it's amusing. half my drama class thinks that by day i'm a gap dressed preppy...but at night i'm a hooker. it makes me laugh. but yes, tonya is a prude...and proud of it.

oh it's a hot one. like seven inches from the midday sun.

okay. so no one mentioned if i had ever written about my business idea...but here it is...AN ESCORT SERVICE. i was inspired by Ling. but it will be SUCH a good one...and interactive. i'll have a wide range of girls with different interests to make the experience more fun. so if a guy needs a girl to take to a company picnic where they will play baseball..he can go to the site and find a girl who likes baseball. it will be like a catalogue of girls. and if that works then i will start a catalogue of men..yummm...hehe i can collect boys. there will always be a demand for escort services...because there are always lonely and horny men who need women to accompany them...and then there all the gay guys in the closet who have to pretend to be straight who need to rent women. i already have recruited soem girls...i'm so proud of myself.

i'm in SUCH a Les Miz mood. on my owwwwwwwwwwnnn...

OMG funny story. so i have a friend..we'll call her Lola. well Lola is obsessed witha teacher...we'll call him Mr. Pee. well Lola and our other friend were in class being foolish and writing notes about him (yes we do live in Saved By The Bell). so after...Lola wanted to show me the note and couldn't find it...and it had her name and his name all over it. so of course Lola is flipping out and she MAKES me go with her back to her clas and look thruthe garbage. then as she's searching the garbage her law teachers comes nad is like 'lola i didn't realize that you were a garbage collector'. i was peeing because i thoguth she was going to say that she found something of hers. but it was a BIG oy.

what else do i have to talk about??? hey dirtay baby i got your money don't you worry i said hey...

OMG OMG OMG OMG. ALLY WAS SO FUNNY LAST NIGHT. tina turner was on. and ally entered a dancing contest. and she danced and i was pissing. today i could NOT stop doing the dance. people thought i was crazy. if you see me, ask me to do the dance. my drama group thinks i'm nuts because i will just be talking and i'll absolutely bust out into it. i say bust out a lot all of a sudden. i need to take a REAL siona class. i'm in a siona talking to mood. i want to find out when her b-day is...because i think it is in march...and i thnk siona is deserving of flowers...or something like that. awwww i'm in a julian mood...i want him to pick me up. i don't understand how he is so strong. i weigh like a thousand and one pounds...and he can pick me up. i joke. i'm like 130-5lbs. but that is SO besides the point.

i'm off. i'm bonding with emery over soaps :-)

tonya :-)

 


Date: February 27, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
11:35pm
Stuck in my head:
Feelin' So Good by Miss Lopez (baby got back...)
In the cd player:
nothing
Song lyric of the moment:
music hits me so hard makes me say oh my lord thank you for blessing me with a mind to rhyme and two light feet it feels good when you know you're down super dope homeboy from the oaktown and you know it isn't too much and this is a beat you can't touch
-- MC Hammer (there is some nostalgia for us all)

Book :
The Brethen (now its all making sense)
On the tube:
the news
Random Quote:
"and oh yeah, i ran into God backstage and he says thank you" -- Rosie on the Grammy's
Anxiously Anticipating:
i want my columbia house cds, i'm in a fun randolph mood, i want big projects for school to be finished, MARCH BREAK and being in D.C., i need to get my license, NYC very soon
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Fido (but a cell phone)
Journal End Time:
12:12am

OMG today i was so compelled to write an entry. i was reading thru journals and there were sooooo many issues that i just HAD to address. so let me get down to business.

okay Lorilee had me PEEING in her entry. she talked about What's For Dinner. i was sooooo amused. i am supremely OBSESSED with that show (me obsessed...never). i used to watch it from the beginning. i would honestly watch that show like 2 times everyday. ken and maryjo (who is also a singer AND an author..but you didn't know that lorilee) are just soooo funny. they bitch at each other all the time and are just so hilarious. mary jo is so witty :-) and someone told me that ken is MARRIED. he is so NOT married...he has GAY written all over his face (and believe me, i have some good gaydar going on). he is so little and cute and always talks about his mommy. and mary jo is or was pregnant...i haven't been able to tune in too much recently, but i plan on catching up very soon. so we are loving lorilee because she is also obsessed. i want to be the letter of the day on that show. i'm plotting...believe me, i'm plotting.

then there is jennpease, who never ceases to amuse me. she had this whole story about highschool musicals that was just SO accurate. i waspissing my pants. i suggest everyone go read it. i love jennpeases journal. so much fun. but smart fun. actually...it's not always too smart, she always has some crazy ass story about drunken bowling or skipping class in hopes of getting the millionaire phone call. i think she needs to make a trip to the T dot O dot (if you are down with the hip hop lingo). so yay jennpease.

next we talk about Andrea from New Jersey who i found out reads my journal. i'm loving her journal (when she updates). i would link her but i don't know if i'm allowed to. but she is such a good american who can answer my various questions. so yay andrea.

oops i didn't give a yay lorilee. so yay lorilee.

i should be working on my Boston project. it's due on wednesday. i haven't started. i'm not screwed yet though. i love geographi projects, because they are so easy to do well on. but everyone still has to say a little prayer for me.

hmmmmm i'm OBSESSED with universities all of a sudden. i spent a large part of saturday pouring over my huge Fiske Guide to Colleges. oh yah, americans call them "colleges". there are about 300 essays on schools..its ridiculous. so i was going over them and folding pages of schools that sound interesting. i think my list is at around 30 schools right now. i have schools on my list that i had never even heard of, but that sound interesting. basically i would like an urban school, but i'm willing to go to a suburban school if it is VERY close and accessible to a big fun city. i'm all about the East Coast, but i do have a few choices in Georgia and Illonois. i used to have D.C. ruled out, but now the option is reopened. The prospect of an all girls school is sounding VERY interesting. i had never considered it before, but most of the schools sound like SUCH good learning environments. i don't want a TINY school, but other than that size doesn't matter (hehe). i have nothing against a HUGE school, but i like the schools that have class sizes that are around 25. a closed campus seems cool, opposed to a sprawled out school like NYU, but my heart is still at NYU...so who knows. and yes i do have another year and a half before i have to decide, but i like to get started early. then today i bookmarked all the sites for these schools...so i'll have fun not doing homework on the net by looking at schools :-) and i'm filling out my option sheet for next year and i'm taking Calculus, Al/Geo, Mod West Civ (in french), Writers Craft, Law and if i have to i'll take either families or philosophy. ifi can get away with taking 5 courses i'd be happy. so we shall see.

can someone shoot me next time that i decide to go to retardo sunday class?? it was SOOOO painful today. i hadn't been in MONTHS, but today i was like i could use the work. so i went. painful i tell you, painful. siona was there, which i wasn't expecting because i thought she was injured, but now she's all better. everything just moves so slowy in that class. we did the same across the floor like a gazillion times because people weren't catching on. and we learned the combo so slowly, and i was just uber frustrated. but such is life.

hey i saw thom allison today. my mom and i were walking underground to get to Indigo bookstore and there was this black guy with blond hair that i thought looked familiar walking by. and my mom thought so too, so we accidentally kind of stopped and stared and just looked at each other and were like "is that..."., it was funny. my mom thinks that thom is THE cutest thing alive, and she LOVES his hair. damn me for taking her to see Songs :-) i bought the new InStyle at Indigo (yah for Julianna Power) and i got The Testament and Where the Heart Is. i LOVE buying books, its my new obsession.

i hate weird people. they just frustrate me.

OMG. so i was flipping thru this weeks NOW magazine and i saw a pic of my school. my school is ALWAYS on things so i wasn't shocked. but then i read the article and it was SO sad. it was about this guy Jaime Cartain who transferred to Jarvis this year who was in my homeform and who was also VERY gay. it talked about his experience of being a gay kid and teenager at SIlverthorn and all his experiences. this guy had ISSUES. i never really talked to him or anything but i saw him around enough because he was also on the paper with me. and you'd never know what was going on in his life just by looking at him. it was interesting. i also found out that chris rock is in town filming a movie with eugene levy (father of elvira's good friend). i love me some chris rock.

okay what else do i have to talk about?? Angie Stone and D'Angelo are a couple and have a kid. i'm sure that means NOTHING to so many of you out there (coughlauracough). two weeks until march break. four weeks until i'm in new york. my mom seems to think that i'm going ot Jamaica with her and my sister in may. i think she thinks wrong. i DO NOT want to go at all. i told her that i'll object at the wedding w hen they ask the question. mwah ha ha. how EVIL would that be?? anyone want to rent a fun, smart teenage girl for a week in may? your fantasies played out in reality. ROTFLMAO. sorry i had to.

have i ever written about my businee idea???? someone tell me if i have or haven't so that i can save my self the trouble.

i was on TV. did i forget to tell you all? good, i meant to :-) it was for that Rick the Temp thing. it was cute. we didn't give miss renaldo the answers she wanted (bitch) so mwah ha ha. its not our faults that we don't worship much music veejays.

OMG another reason why i love andrea's journal. she's ALWAYS watching the REal World. that is ALL that i watch when i'm in the States. iwish we had MTV here. that would make life way too good.

time to go and learn about Boston.
tonya :-)

 


Date: February 26, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
8:52am
Stuck in my head:
boyfriend/girlfriend by Blackstreet feat. Janet Jackson
In the cd player:
MuchDance 2000 (all of you shut up) soon to be Erykah Badu
Song lyric of the moment:
there's no hiding place when someone has hurt,
you its written on your face, anyways
broken spirit lost and confused empty scared used and abused, a fool
and its funny how the way you feel shows on your face
and the smile you used to wear seems a little bit out of place
so hold on in time its gets a little better
my sunshine had come and i'm all cried out and theres no more rain in this cloud

Book :
The Brethen (now its all making sense)
On the tube:
Today Show
Random Quote:
"and oh yeah, i ran into God backstage and he says thank you" -- Rosie on the Grammy's
Anxiously Anticipating:
i want to take a siona class and i want my columbia house cds to come
Link Me Baby One More Time:
www.gap.com
Journal End Time:
10:14am

hello everyone,

yes i'm back, baby i'm back. it has fully been a week since i've last updated...how psychotic is that? i've just been busy enough that i don't have time to get updating done. but now i'm here and that is the important part, n'est pas? hmmmm maybe i should update by each day that i've missed. we'll see what inspiration hits me.

saturday - FINALLY it was the night of our final performance for Sears. can we say i was shitting my pants?? i spent the WHOLE day doing homework then it was off to school. so i'm sitting in the balcony getting all my stage manager stuff in order, and max and lindsay walk in. so yes intermissions were very fun. at one point we were litterally RUNNING around my school trying to get max on the sky walk because frankly he is just a bit obsessed with it. but our efforts were fruitless because the doors leading to the doors before the skywalk were all locked. but we are still formulating a master plan so no worries. the show was okay. the first show was still the best. whoa a screw just fell out of my chair, that can't be too good. anyhoo the rest of the plays had me falling asleep, but that is probably because i have the attention span of the squirrel when there is something that i would rather be doing. the adjudicator who also happend to be max's former acting teacher, loved our piece so that was good. but during the adjudication, josh was tickling me, so by the end of the whole shabang i was practically on the floor...it was NOT very fun. then i came home and watched me some SNL but not too much because i wasn't in a ben affleck mood.

Sunday - wow now THAT was a boring day. i spent the day watching the Laurence Olivier version of King Lear because i hadn't read the book. yes i realize that i'm not only A reject, but Queen Reject. i HATE lear. i think my teacher killed it for me, because normally i love shakespeare...but this time i'm totally reject about it. but c'est la vie. the movie was SO boring, i kept on finding other things to do, like baking a pie or something. i'm a horrid little girl.

okay so you all know how i wasn't too happy with Madonna's version of American Pie?? well now, i'm ALL about that song. i need to download the mp3. that is the ultimate sign of love...downloading the mp3. i need to see who else is on the cd before i buy it. but yes the song is SUCH a good song to just jam to. and it has the psycho melodies and stuff. it makes me very happy. good work madonna.

monday - OY. kristin and i did our presentation on king lear. did i mention that neither one of us had read the book?? kristin hadn't even watched the movie. it was hilarious. we did get 4.5/5 though so i'm a happy girl. what was even funnier was that nadeen and marcela knew that we hadn't read the book, so they kept on feeding us comments and stuff. our teacher obviously didn't catch on, so i was a happy chica. monday night was the LONGEST night in history. i had to write my english ISU so i was up forever. it ended up not being a horrid essay, but i'm not sure if its what he wants because i came up with my new thesis totally last minute. hopefully i did okay on it. our ISU is worth 20% of our whole mark...or of our term mark. so i can't afford to do badly. but on the plus side, i wrote a fake essay from him...something i would have totally written in grade 9 and submitted it as my rough draft and i got 62%. which was A LOT higher than i had thought..i was looking for a 50%. i just needed something to hand in because i was havin severe writer's block. so with this essay i should get AT LEAST a 70% because it is actually a real essay...watch me get like 60% again. Ally McBeal was amusing. it was all about ally dumping coffee on this guy who ends up being a judge..and la la la comedy ensues. ally has sure changed. it is SO sexually driven now. like a month ago i would have LOVED it, but as i told laura yesterday, i'm SO over 'sex talk' and all that related stuff. but that is an idea for a nother day.

say my name say my name you actin kind of shady and callin me baby why the sudden change when no one is around you say baby i love you if no one is around

Tuesday- OMG i LOVED tuesday. now THAT was fun at its best. i took lea's class and didn't even have to babysit after. first of all my freaking bank card didn't work because it was damaged, but sou-jin was nice enough to put me down for a card of ten and said that i could pay later..so score for sou-jin for rocking. it was nice to see lea again eventho i had only missed liketwo of her classes. ryan and julian were there..but no little ryan or chad the hot opera singer. max was there but came late and there was no sign of rachael. OMG lea played Turn Your Lights Down Low which was followed by Bring it All to Me which was followed by WHAT A GIRL WANTS. you know that song that i have been OBSESSED with but haven't downloaded the mp3...well i shat because iwas so happy. and she got this new mix cd with soooo much fun music on it. i think lea and i have the same music loves...well if the music that she plays in class is what she listens to at home then we do. i wonder if she is down with Macy...so she did a rip-off siona combo that i must say was VERY enjoyable. i was totally feeling the combo. so go lea. after class i learned that poor siona was injured :-( the company was rehearsing and she was fooling around and next thing her foot was all weird. lea thinks that she pulled a tendon in her foot or something. so that sucks some serious ass. and sou-jin is in korea visiting her mom who is very sick for TWO weeks. it was an amusing sou-jin day. first she thought that max and i were going out, which led to me explaining to her why i don't have a boyfriend (i'm selfish, busy, and have a dwindling attention span). and we found out that sou-jin doesn't have aboyfriend, but she does have many gentlemen callers but she can't chose one. it was an i love sou-jin day. AND i was brilliant enough to ask her how old lea is and she told us so now the mystery is solved. and lea is NOT that old. i think that was all for my eventful tuesday.

turn your lights down low/ and open your window curtain/ oh let the moon come shining in/ into our life again/ ooo its been a long long time/ to get this message for you girl/ but it seem i was never on time/ but still i want to get thru to you girlie/ on time on time/ i want to give you some love/ i want to give you some good good loving/ oh i oh i oh i/ i want to give you some good lovin

wow, this is getting to be a long entry. i think i will condense it. grammy's were interesting. good performances. did anyone notice that the sound system was sucky? i want a grammy. OMG did you SEE my jenny lopez???? her nanas were hanging out...geez girl. hehe i called boobs nanas. she lookced GOOD though...but still she is my homegirl #1 and NOT allowed to dress like that. and christina aguliera is REALLY ugly i think. i thought Rosie was a horrid host. actually, its more that i didn't like her humour..it was too fiery and bitchy. and i do NOT appreciate the puffy jokes (not that i have puffy love, but still). i guess she had to use stuff that was appropraite for a prime time broadcast opposed to her normal takl show stuff...but still, its ROSIE. umm what else? Macy Gray looks like a drag queen. she is still uber cool...but she looks like a drag queen. she is HUGE. why is will smith still allowed to rap?? OMG OMG OMG THE ROOTS ONE. and more importantly thanked our Jill Scott. i was PISSING. they one for best rap singler for the "you got me song" and Jill Scott (formerly of Canadian rent) wrote the hook that Erykah Badu sang. so they gave Jill props. i was hoping that she would have been at the Grammy's but no :-( i was amused. do we all ermember how cool jill was? and how on friday after my mom saw the thursday show jill yelled at her from a taxi. okay ranomd vancouver memory. my mom was walking the streets of vancouver down by the water, and this black lady yells at her from a taxi and says hi. so my mom comes to me and was like random black lady said hi to me from a taxi. so were like the only people we know in vancouver are rent people so we figured that it was karen or something...but my mom didn't htink it was. somehow we figured out that it was jill scott and we were right. what made it funny was that jill had only seen my mom once, and randomly decided to be friendly on the streets. she was probably just happy to see people of colour in vancouver :-) lets take a moment for jill.

ER was soooo disappointing. we won't even talk about it. friends has been making me piss my pants. i baked cookies with the children yesterday. and i'm going now cause this is psycho entry.
love ya,

tonya :-)


Date: February 19, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
10:31pm
Stuck in my head:
the new Dr. Dre/Eminem song (i don't even listen to dre)
In the cd player:
Kelis
Song lyric of the moment:
nowdays everybody want to talk like they got something to saybut nothing comes out when they're moving their lips, just a bunch of gibberish na na na na forgot about dre
that songs i mentioned before

Book :
The Brethen (enjoyable)
On the tube:
Today Show
Random Quote:
"eww penis flavour is not something i'll be asking for at the icecream shop"
-- hannah to me during a discussion about blow jobs, and flavoured condoms (don't worry, not from experience)

Anxiously Anticipating:
getting the play over with, smelling some old spice and sleep
Link Me Baby One More Time:
www.gap.com
Journal End Time:
11:20pm

i don't even know where to start. there is sooooo much to talk about and so little time. actually i lie, there is always time for my journal-o-fun. okay we'll start with thursday.

so we had the second performance of our school show on thursday. once again it went extremely well and was well received by the school, so go us. then the actors got presented roses on stage which was very nice of Burak and Joanna. then when the actors came up to the balcony to watch the rest of the show Josh gave me his rose (awww). and we all know how obsesssd i am with flowers. but then i got ANOTHER flower because it turned out that they did have flowers for the crew as well. i was a happy little girl.

then it was ER night. let me just start by saying OY FUCKING VEY. okay how much was i crying when lucy died??? i'm not even a crier and i was crying. ER has been very good at doing that to me, like last week when the two little kids ended up being orphans. now THAT was heartbreaking. okay so last night. we all know that carter and lucy got stabbed by psycho patient while there was this party in the ER for valentines and the music was turned up so no one could hear the screams. so carrie walks in and finds them lying there and the episode just gets way too fucking emotional from there. to make a long story short carter lives and lucy dies and they don't get to talk before she dies. and eventho i knew she was going to die i got all excited when it seemed like she might live for a second. and the last words she heard were from Romano when he said that they spent too much money on her training to let her go. in this episode you just got to see everyone react so strongly, it was freaky. Benton was soooooooo intent on saving Carter. think about their history. back in the day carter was his student and benton just spent so much time with him and bonding and giving him shit...because he loved him. and to see him hurting so much that he wanted to save carter was just such a big AWWWW. and romano being a non-asshole. now he is one that gave lucy endless shit, but in the end just go so sad. like when they were about to cal lher death and he overturned the tray. then at the end when he was sewing her up. poor carrie was just shellshocked the whole episode. it was just one freaky episode. too many moments to talk about. if you want to have convo about this contact me :-)

have i ever expressed my love for the nurses and admin staff on ER? well they rock. i don't even just mean carol, because her name is at the beginning so she doesn't count. i'm talking about Lydia, Haleh, Wendy and Connie...and of course Yosh because he just rocks too. so lets take a moment for the nurses. oh wait i forgot Randy...now she is coolness. so everyone take a moment for the super coolio nurses of ER.

random christine bandelow on thursday. okay. so our french class was cancelled so Nadeeen wanted to go to McDonalds. initially she was going to go the one at College but i said NO and said we HAVE to go to the one up the street at Charles because the College one is the bum McDonalds. so we go and i have ice cream and on our way back to school as we walk by Kilo nadeen's friend that she hadn't seen in a year was there and called us inside. so we are standing up talking and i look over, like RIGHT next to me and who is there? if you said CB then you are right. so i decide to ignore her and talk to nadeens friend and out of the corner of my eye i see her bobbing around. so finallly we make eye contact and it was one of those mutual "what are you doing HERE" kind of moments. first of all i was confused because i thought that i remembered hearing that she was on tour..so making THE hugest ass of myself i was like "aren't you not supposed to be here? like shouldn't you be on tour or something?" but that was all cleared up. and she asked if i go to Randolph, then i was about to ask her if she went to Randolph but then i was like she is 30..so probably not. but i quickly phrased my question to ask if sh teaches there or something. turns out that she IS going to start taking night classes at randolph but she isn't sure what yet, but tap is high on her list because she doesn't tap at all. yes so that was the randomness that was my thursday.

i'm SO behind in school work. i'm gong to have to kill myself this weekend with homework. it wil lnto be fun. and i have the play on saturday, so that just adds to the insanity. i can't even think about it without turning into a big ball of stress.

took siona's class today. insanity at its best. we are doing this hyped up swing combo. super fast. super cool. super rockin. i'm loving it. it requires some thinking but its best to just let everything go and not think too much. i have no clue when i'm going back...hopefully tuesday. my card of ten is all done and i have NO money and i haven't gotten my money yet...so i'm slightly bitter. i have to go on tuesday...i'm needing the lea vibe. i hear thru the grapevine that she stole siona's styles...whichis fine with me because i love me some siona styles :-)

oy today i went on a quest for king lear stuff. first i was in the library praying for coles notes. they didn't have any. then it was off to indigo who doesn't carry coles notes but do have barrons, but didn't have any for king lear. then i had to sell my soul and go to Crapters (yuki). they had two versions of coles notes, neither of which i particularly wanted, but i needed SOMETHING so i bought the question and answer thing. then i went to blockbuster to find the video and they didn't have it. but now its on hold at st. clair so its all under control. i was supposed to have it read 2 weeks ago..but it just never happend so now i'm paying the price. and fuckit i need some apple juice. i think i'm dehydrated. i've been home for 2 hours and i've had 5 glasses of juice. that might explain my stomachache ... right? anyway, when i bought the coles notes i felt like THE biggest loser whore. i was buying coles notes for a shakespeare play..oy. but its all under control...that is why they carry the books..right?

what else to talk about? i persuaded my media teacher to let me write the test as a take home. score for me. i didn't do my french homework and got bitched at by my teacher IN FRENCH. we did NOTHING in bio...but we do have a HUGE test on monday.

bought the Kelis cd today. she is enjoyable. funky. not really hip hop. more of a souly, jazzy, funky, hiphopish thing happening. its good thinking music. i'm just passively listening which is what i usually like to do when i'm working. so go kelis. and yay for tallguy FINALLY discovering the kickassness that IS macy gray. everyone needs to listen to her cd and fall in love. what station do they play her on? mix99?? but i'm loving her vibe as is rosie. and where is my rosie newsletter for the upcoming week??

okay that is all.
night night.
tonya :-)


Date: February 17, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
8:12am
Stuck in my head:
all things elvis
In the cd player:
Erykah Badu
Song lyric of the moment:
i may appear to be free
but i'm just a prisoner, of your love
i may seem alright and smile when you leave
but my smiles are just a front
-- Macy Gray

Book :
The Brethen
On the tube:
Today Show
Random Quote:
"eww penis flavour is not something i'll be asking for at the icecream shop"
-- hannah to me during a discussion about blow jobs, and flavoured condoms (don't worry, not from experience)

Anxiously Anticipating:
getting the play over with, smelling some old spice and sleep
Link Me Baby One More Time:
www.gap.com
Journal End Time:
8:45am

oy fucking vey. the commotion oh the commotion. i love web journals let me tell you just how much. everyone has something to say abot everything. the current topic of heated discussion is the whole laura isn't going to new york thing. okay a little background on the whole situation: laura, lisa, mary and brandi have been planning a trip to nyc for the past few months. they've been talking about it and planning and decided what shows to see, etc. and basically, everyone was depending on each other to go and split costs and all that stuff. now it's less than one month before they are supposed to be coming back and they started booking hotel rooms and were about to book airplanes..i think they actually had tickets on hold. then a few hours before she leaves on a week-long cruise, laura sends the 3 of them an e-mail saying that she can't go mainly because of money issues. the lisa writes an entry (a very honest entry) about the whole thing and next thing you know there is commotion everywhere. wow i'm feel very inarticulate at the moment..let me take a second. okay laura not going to nyc at all i don't think is the big issue. it's when and how she let everyone know that is the problem. if you are going to back out of a trip you don't do it when things are being booked, and you should at least discuss it with them. as far as i know everyone understands why she can't go and no one is penalizing her for it, if you don't have money, you don't have money. however, there is a certain amount tact that should be used in these situations...and the way she did it was seriously lacking in tact. so that is where i stand on the whole situation. then there is everyone who wrote sticking up for laura, which was very nice of everyone...but sticking up to what? this?:
Okay, that's totally cool if she can't go; I totally understand... IF SHE HAD TOLD US A MONTH AGO! Her situation has been the same since the beginning! She could have told us this a month ago! It's now less than a month until we're supposed to go!!! She KNOWS/KNEW that we were all depending on each other.
Honestly, if Laura had told me and the two crazy Americans that she didn't want/couldn't go a month ago, it would have been fine. I wouldn't have been mad AT ALL. But to tell us NOW! Less than a month before...
This was supposed to be *our* trip.

i keep on reading this, trying to figure out what the problem is, but honestly what she wrote isn't that mean. the points that she is making are valid. it feels like the responses to that are more out of personal vendettas than based on anything more solid. but that is what life is about most of the time isn't it? bottling up feelings and expressing them out of context when something comes up. so this situation has kept me amused for the past 48 hours....but now it's time for it to come to an end.

can someone please explain all my throwing up? i threw up last monday and i spent last night iwth a HORRID stomachache and ended up throwing up vast quantities of food for a long time. i'm NOT a happy camper. i'm taking first perido off this morning to get a bit of rest. espcially since we have the show this afternoon. we had our play yesterday and it went VERY well. the audience LOVED it, and the tech went beautifully. i'm a happy girl.

hey, has anyone noticed that ricky hasn't been online recently, but that his journal gets updated? well i know i did. and in one of his entries he even said that he's always online. so one day i was on one of my "other" screenames and badabing, badaboom ricky was online. i was amused. turned out we're all blocked from his list. can we spell harsh much?

ummmm i feeling so inspired rightnow. i'm off.
tonya


Date: February 15, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
9:12pm
Stuck in my head:
Notorious
In the cd player:
Macy Gray
Song lyric of the moment:
i may appear to be free
but i'm just a prisoner, of your love
i may seem alright and smile when you leave
but my smiles are just a front
-- Macy Gray

Book :
The Brethen
On the tube:
someting on ABC
Random Quote:
"eww penis flavour is not something i'll be asking for at the icecream shop"
-- hannah to me during a discussion about blow jobs, and flavoured condoms (don't worry, not from experience)

Anxiously Anticipating:
getting the play over with, smelling some old spice and sleep
Link Me Baby One More Time:
www.gap.com
Journal End Time:
9:31pm

some days are just plain insane. this was one of them. it was one of those days when nothing normal happens. it was enjoyable but fun.

so went to economics and we did group work, which we never do. that was bizarre. then i get to english and my friend was like we HAVE to talk. so us and another girl go to the washroom and talk and end up not going back to english eventhough all our stuff was there. it was actually pretty funny. i've NEVER done that...the teacher didn't even care because we are the good kids in class so it wasn't a big deal. it's so sad. her boyfriend told her that he doesn't love her anymore but they haven't really broken up. and their relationship was really intense...and la la la. not a good thing. this goes back to my boys suck theory. well they don't really suck...they are just immature (for the most part). but not in a i'm a manhater way...

so then i got to leave french early to go do the Rick the Temp thing. it was insanity. we were supposed to be there at 11:45 but they weren't ready, so we had to wait around. then at about 12:20 our principal told us that we could pop out our lunches and eat. mind you this was on the second floor and we aren't allowed to eat there...only on the first floor. we were also in front of all the offices. so all these teachers would walk by and be like you aren't allowed to eat here...go somewhere else. then we'd have to tell them that the PRINCIPAL said we could. i swear it happend like 4 times. then the vice principal comes...and by this time i'm PISSING my pants laughing because HE stops us and tells us to go somewhere else, and i'm trying to explain to him that miss mckenzie said we could eat...but i'm laughing SOOOO hard that it looks like i'm lying. needless to say the VP thought i was a lying nut. okay so rick the temp....basically Sandy Renaldo was doing a biography on him and she needed us to ask him questions. rick the temp is SUPER cool. i'm loving him. and i didn't realize that he was soooo hot. i'm turning into a rick head. we all had fun just sittin around and joking..it was really non-threatning. then we took a group picture with him, and he put his arm around me <<swoon>>. okay we've been thru this before, i don't actually say <<swoon>> i just think that it is fun to type.

then we had play rehearsal. but we didn't start at 3:30 instead we started at 5 which meant that the master plan was once again foiled and i couldn't go to miss creswell's class (lea). i was pissy. nadeen and i did take a nice walk so that kept me amused. i'm going to miss rehearsals in a weird little way. they just keep on getting more insane and more fun. josh and i just have such a fun time. i make him wear old spice just for me. i'm sorry but old spice is THE sexiest smell. i'd do anythnig for a boy in old spice (well ALMOST anything). so i make josh put old spice on and then he comes and sits next to me and makes me happy. and today's discovery in the play was that i'm ticklish. so yah, i'm getting harassed about that...espcially since i squeak when i get tickled. i know i'm a loser. a ticklish loser. i'm a wiggler and a squeaker...i make for HOURS of amusement for the cast. what other insanity is happenign with the play? when josh gives me his pager he puts it on vibrator for my extra pleasure. i'm joking...but he DOES put it on vibrator and sicne we both have chemical imbalances it turns into a joke. okay no more play talk.

hmmmm what else?

nadeen and i have been having bonding day, because i keep on making my random declarations. we were discussing how i'm not ACTUALLY a perv at all...i'm little, sweet and innocent. then we had a chat about all that shitty romantic stuff that makes us happy...you know...flowers, chocolate and old spice. okay so maybe the old spice is just me...but still. i'm making my fiancee wear old spice on our wedding day. it is just such a manly smell. just the thought of old spice makes me happy. sorry i'll stop with the old spice...i just love it soooo much.

tomorrow i'm going to wear my overalls and my 3/4 length shirt. it looks really slick i think. actually i've never worn the two..we shall try it. on saturday for the play i'll wear my mavis and my dragon shirt. i like the lines that it gives me. it makes me look taller and sleeker than normal. and if i wear my platforms i will radiate vast quantities of sex. i'm joking. i just really had an urge to type that.

lisa cow is obsesed with law and order. it frightens me slightly. now she is turning me on to law and order. god help us all. i'm soooooo freaking excited for ER this week...i shit in anticipation.

okay i think that should be enough. have a good day people...and remember that i love you all. mwah ha ha.

tonya :-)


Date: February 14, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
11:49pm
Stuck in my head:
that pontiac grand am commercial
In the cd player:
Macy Gray
Song lyric of the moment:
i may appear to be free
but i'm just a prisoner, of your love
i may seem alright and smile when you leave
but my smiles are just a front
-- Macy Gray

Book :
The Brethen
On the tube:
CNN
Random Quote:
"eww penis flavour is not something i'll be asking for at the icecream shop"
-- hannah to me during a discussion about blow jobs, and flavoured condoms (don't worry, not from experience)

Anxiously Anticipating:
Rick the Temp tomorrow and maybe taking a part of miss creswell's class
Link Me Baby One More Time:
www.gap.com
Journal End Time:
12:16am

hello suckers :-)

first of all Happy Valentine's day. yah...like i mean that :-) i think i'm hormonal because i'm noticing everyone else's valentine's day festivities alot more than my (non existant) ones. for instance, i noticed all the girls with roses and oragami flowers. and this one guy came from Harbord to surprise his girlfriend during physics with flowers and other valentine's day goodies. then on the way home all these people had balloons and boxes of chocolate and stuff. not that i'm bitter or anything. i think i've just been doing too much thinking and stuff. either that or i'm really in the mood to be wooed (insert cheesy music here) with flowers and chocolate. i watch too many meg ryan movies. now THAT is the root to all my problems. and yay for little teeth. yes so happy valentine's day to all.

macy gray is making me groove so i'm happy. and can someone please explain to me my mom's TLC thing. i come home and i turn on my cd player expecting to find macy or something in there at some normal volume, but no...it's TLC at like FULL BLAST. it is actually kind of amusing. i didn't realize that my mom had a TLC thing going on. it is a very good cd if you ask me...but c'mon, it's my mom. but whatever makes her happy right?

oy vey. so i'm in drama and paul comes out and is like Ms. McKenzie (our principal) wants to see you, me and runako in her office during period C. so of course i'm spazzing because i had NO clue what was happening. so we go to the office and chimere, tezeta and elvira are there as well waiting for this mysterious mission thing. and it was really funny because all the office staff were waiting for us and checking our nams off on some list. it turned out that our ex-media teacher, mr. reed had reccomended us for this thing with Rick the Temp from Much and Sandy Renaldo from CTV. tomorrow they will be at our school and doing some videotaping and we get to go and ask questions. it will be interesting i'm sure. i NEVER get called to the office so i was sooo thrilled. i always wait for the phone call to be for me and it never is...well, except for today.

i went dancing today after rehearsal. it wasn't anything special. siona didn't give me any corrections today, which couldmean one of two things: either that i'm perfect and need no help at all. OR that i'm way beyond repair and she doesn't want to waste her time. she was giving Anne and Julian sooooo many corrections today..i was feeling left out :-( not really....remember it's just the hormones. actually...i'm not supposed to get my period for like another two weeks i think. siona was being a bit nutty today...she started eating chocolate in the middle of the class and told us that she couldn't bend over or do the splits because she was afraid that her pants were going to split down the ass. it was amusing. yah...so she is still doing the fucking lyrical combo which is SO not good to do when you are whipped with tiredness as i was. i haven't "spoken" to siona in sooooo long...it's because i don't go on sunday's hardly anymore so i don't have time to stay and chat. i think i need a stay and chat with siona day...i want to find out more about her mysterious dance company. mwah ha ha.

i have to reply to some serious e-mail. my inbox is so freaking backed up. i hate that. i feel like queen reject. i have e-mails from the middle of january to answer. how much does THAT suck. i know, oh so much.

what else is up in this neck of the woods you wonder? nothing really. josh from the play filled us in on grade 11 gossip which was rather entertaining. i babysat. i flossed my teeth so now i feel soooo damn clean. there was somethign i wanted to talk about...but now the momentum is lost. OMG i was in the bathroom and someone had written on the walls (quelle shock) and for some reason i could NOT stop laughing. it said: "life is like a dick. when it gets hard, fuck it." i cannot even BEGIN to tell you why i found this sooo funny, but it was.

oh no. charles schultz died. he's the guy who drew peanuts. that is not fun. everyone take a moment for mr. schultz.

what should i wear to school tomorrow? i'll wear my Mavis and... i need a classy, yet urban and funky shirt. we shall decide tomorrow morning. i think i'll bring my camera to school tomorrow because i have no pics of school people. it will be an adventure. you just wait and see.

oy this entry is just getting lame now.
i'm out.
tonya :-)


Date: February 13, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
1:22pm
Stuck in my head:
Scrubs by TLC
In the cd player:
Austin Powers2
Song lyric of the moment:
i looked into your eyes and my world came tumbling down
you're the devil in disguise that's why i'm singing this song
to know you is to love you
you're everywhere i go and everybody knows
to love you is to be proud of you
i wait for you with tears and swallowed all my pride
beautiful stranger
beautiful stranger
-- Beautiful Stranger by Madonna

Book :
The Brethen
On the tube:
i dunno
Random Quote:
"you can't deprive men of all that sexual energy"
-- max on why i could never be a lesbian

Anxiously Anticipating:
talking to miss cowgirl
Link Me Baby One More Time:
www.gap.com
Journal End Time:
1:46pm

hello guys and gals,

i did find something to do last night so go me. i ended up at lisa's house for an evening of fun filled entertainment. the three of us (incl. max) played one rousing came of trivial pursuit. see normally that game is just fun filled and innocent, but after like 5 minutes it turned into some sort of kink fest. it was actually pretty hilarious. ("oh i think i'll have to get back on top of him now" "yeah, where you belong"). i'm sure there was much more scandal and merriment and mirth but we will refrain from that. then we watched the movie Clue which was SO hilarious and entertaining. i'm loving that movie so much. then once the movie was over we turned off the vcr and it was a big julianna margulies head on the screen. quelle shock. she was hosting SNL so we watched a bit of that and it was partially hilarious and partially retarded. the BEST was the skit with theparents spitting food into their kids mouths. julianna absolutely lost it. i was pissing my pants. then we ended up playing some card came and it was late and by that time i was just delirious and was probably not making much sense. finally after missing not one but TWO exits and coming close to ending up in barrie i made it home after 2. so it was quite the evening.

laura is stuck at the airport. how much does that suck?> she was supposed to be out of there by 6am but now she isn't scheduled to leave until 3pm. if you all didn't know she is on her way to a week long caribbean cruise. can we spell lucky bitch?

tomorrow is valentine's day. have a expressed my disgust for this holiday? well now would be a good time. first of all it's a FAKE holiday. love day. love day my ass. first of all the stores are all HORRIBLY decorated in red and pink. come on people, red and pink...they CLASH. they look terrible together. yet the whole city is in red and pink. it's so NOT special to celebrate valentine's day..you are supposed to show love all year round and not just whip out the candles because hallmark tells you to. and isnt' it gross to know that the whole city is probably having sex at the same time tomorrow? ugh. and why is chocolate so romantic? who started that one? chocolate looks like shit. and flowers...geez flowers. floweres die...fast. so everyone gets together has an expensive meal gorges on shit resembling chocolate, exchanges flowers that will die tomorrow and have sex and i'm sure a few thousand accidental pregnancies result...so happy valentine's day to all. mwah ha ha. i just reread that and i sound REALLY bitter. i'm SOOOOO not. i LOVE chocolate and flowers. i just think valentine's day is a non-holiday to make february interesting. but i would like to send out a pre-valentine's day shout out to my valentine for 2 years running...you know who you are;-)

i'm supposed to go babysitting soon. i need to do homework. i'm SUCH a reject. i have been slacking off way too much. i need to smarten up a bit.

awwwww max told me that lea says hi and that she misses me. SCORE :-) love me some ms. creswell. hopefully the master plan will work this week and i'll end up at pre-jazz for an hour on tuesday. i hear creswell is doing a kick ass siona-esque combo.

i just read hannah's journal and i'm PISSING my pants. its not her latest entry...its from a few days ago. its about her and oral sex and how the whole thing makes her a wee bit "squemish". i'm pissing. the best is the part about receiving and being kissed by the same mouth that had been "down there". but i suppose if you are caught up in the whole moment then it wouldn't matter...but who knows. let's just say i'm happy being a (straight) girl. the whole idea of going down on a girl freaks me out. ewww the imagery. it just seems so unclean or something. and hannah....can you actually do the lollipop thing? i didn't realize that people did them with the "wrapping" on. you learn something new everyday.

my school play is this saturday. i know there are some of you out there with nothing to do next saturday evening who would just LOVE to come to jarvis for afine evening of theatre. i'm not joking folks. come on out. it's cheap...$5 i think and it will be soooo much fun. and you can see me do my thing in my headset and i'll even dreess prettily for you all. so send me a comment in my comment box if you are interested. 3 schools are presenting my school...jarvis, lakeshore and earl haig. so come on down people. it will be a party...

okay i'm out.
ciao
tonya


Date: February 12, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
12:11pm
Stuck in my head:
that montell jordan song
In the cd player:
TLC
Song lyric of the moment:
only take them thugged out slightly bugged out fuck with his tongue out
know the job ain't getting done til the body's getting drugged out
hot boy keep me right play your part and i'll keep you tight
where else you gon' be in the middle of the night then up in the sheets with me aight?
gangster true to the game street master
you the one i need with this beat street blast up
ain't afraid to stop a cat plus pop a cap
sold your cash money, rule the world whos topping now?
as for 30 keep me on my toes
put a tingle down my spine which spot only he knows
he's a hot boy missy sing it out and i'm gon' spit it
rough ryder scream ing loud daddy is you wit it?
if your team can't handle my bitchin' then we gon' ride
break out stallion keep thugs open wide
eve stay commited and if he ain't the riddler i ain't wit it wit it

-- eve from missy's hot boyz
Book :
The Book of Ruth(i haven't picked that up in ages)
On the tube:
Soul Train
Random Quote:"
i want alan cumming in my hands and in my face right now"
Anxiously Anticipating:
sleep and march break
Link Me Baby One More Time:
www.gap.com
Journal End Time:
1:23pm

i FINALLY heard the new Madonna song. she redid 'American Pie'. it's not bad, but the problem is that the original version is SO classic that it feels like she completely butchered the song. if i'd never heard the original version i would SO be loving the vibe..but such is life. she added her new beats...you know that techno/electronica-ish sound and its fun fun fun. so go madonna.

okay so on thursday i went to my semi and i had my mom tape ER and Friends for me. can someone please tell me what is up with ER??? does EVERYONE on the show have to die. do they ever let patients live?? i'm SOOOOOO disturbed. and the poor little kids from the car accident whose parents died? how freaking sad and horrific was that? oy. and Carter ignoring Lucy and her psycho patient and then the psycho patient stabbing both of them. ergh. and the fucking music in the ER being too loud because of the party so they couldn't hear Carter scream. oy freaking vey is all i'm saying about that. i mean we all know that lucy was supposed to leave...but not now. i actually LIKED her. she was my GAP clothing homey. and Carter can't die because that would just be blasphemous. ugh. i'm frustrated.

and friends has been reamusing. i used to love that show sooooo much but then i lose interest but stil watched it. all of a sudden i think it's the funniest thing since sliced bread. i love when joey gets his mack on and says "hey, how you doin'?" i piss my pants laughing. and all of a sudden i'm lovin courtney cox. she is being very funny. the best was last weekend when she had a cold and she was trying to trick chandler into having sex with her. oh friends.

okay lets talk about something else. i need to open a new browser to see where i left off last time. do you all think i'm going senial? i always have to see where i left off. but tis okay because i rock.

OMG i'm SO conflicted right now. i have NO clue what courses to take next year. there are sooooo many i want to take and i was planning on making it a light year next year. then i went to the subject fair day at my school where you talk to the teachers about the courses and now there is sooo much i'm interested in. like i'm not sure if i should take co-op. is it really worth it? taking co-op just complicates things because that is two periods i need for that. then i don't know if i need to take 2 maths or just one. i need to figure out what the universities need as prereqs for business. i would rather NOT take al/geo AND calculus. but if i need it what can i do. i for sure have to take a french course because i just need one for my bilingual certificate. then there are all these electives i'm interested in. okay these ones are oacs: law, philosophy, writers craft, english litterature, families, al/geo, calculus, and histoire. then there are american history and world religions which are grade 12 courses. i hate course selection. i need to go to guidance and let ms. fricker decide what i should take...that would solve my problems. i was really hoping that i could take 5 courses instead of the 8 or 9 that i normally take...but i guess i could survive on taking 6. grrr. why is this all so complicated? is it wrong to take a course that i'm not really interested in just because i know i can get a kick ass mark? its not that i'm NOT interested, i've just never really thought about it. grrr i hate option sheet time.

the upside to subject fair day is that you get to meet and talk to all these teachers that you don't normally get to talk to. Ms. Roti (who teaches OAC law) and who is also my economics teacher's best friend is also extremely cool and fun. elvira has her this year for law and loves her soo much. then there is mr. lazare who teaches philosophy and who IS jerry seinfeld. he looks and talks like him. it is absolutely frightening. who else did we talk to....ms. schindler who taught us tennis in grade 9 and who teaches the eng. lit course. she was very cute and fun. the highlight was talking to ms. beaudry who teaches world religions and who is so beyond cute and fun. elvira and i had nothing to do so we were in our economics room waiting for the fair to end and class to start and ms. beaudry just randomly starts talking to us...not even trying to sell us her course. yes so those are the teachers in my school, and i'm sure that you all are so BEYOND interested :-)

oh yes...the semi. it was SO nothing special. i didn't hate it or anything... i had fun, but it is NOT as exciting as everyone says. you just go and dance to music and watch the teachers gawk at the sluttly girls and see all you drunken school mates then you go home. and the dj barely played any new music. it was good music, just old. didn't play q-tip, missy, eve...mariah...it was kind of strange actually. so that was my semi with no interesting stories. all my friends were there so taht was fun. then i slept at elviras and we didn't go to sleep until 3:30am..BIG oy.

so eventhough we had a pd day on friday (they were doing new curriculum stuff), GAC had to go to school to wrap hershey kisses and we were there from 11 until 3. yah it was fun. so we're sitting there in the gym and ms. misko comes in (female gym teacher and our staff sponsor) and she is accompanied by a man. me, being blind couldnt tell who it was. so after some squinting and tilting my head i discovered that it was hot gym teacher. yes, so THAT was enjoyable. and he was up there wrapping hersheys with us for about an hour and being really fun and stuff. and we talked and gossiped about the semi and snooped around and read peoples messsages and laughed our asses off.

ugh i'm so frustrated by er.

i went to siona's class. it was fun, eventhough we didn't do a combo thanks to blond figure skater chic aka anne. it was a BIG learning day, and she basically guided us on how to carry our bodies more and use our abs. it was great, i'm glad i went. and i used my new dance clothes that made me look REALLY skinny and svelte, and dancer like. it was actually pretty shocking. i hadnt 'danced in sooooo long (about a week and a bit) so it was good to get up and use my muscles. i saw abbas. i hadn't seen abbas in soooooo long because i kind of stopped taking my sunday class...but there he was on friday. and we were talking and sou-jin yells from down the hall "she's such a wonderful girl". can we get a collective awwwwwww. love me some randolph administration. so then after class i called laura and had to hang around randolph to wait for us to talk to dani about plans, so i sat around and watched a hiphop class for like 20 minutes. i'm NEVER taking hiphop...it is just WAY too crazy, espcially with shawn teaching.

then i went to HMV where i discovered that there are a gazillion cds that i need RIGHT NOW, but of course i literally have NO money at all. then it was off to indigo to kill more time while i waited for the girls to come. then we all went down to shopsey's to talk to phil. then we were all intellectual and went to chapters to buy a book for laura. dani decided that she had a craving for chocolate cake so it was down to the devil and they changed their menu (exclamation mark). they didn't used to have hamburgers, did they?? it was muy yummy. and laura is in a fight with me, so if she says anything that sounds a bit strange about me she is lying to get back at me. just because i told dani a wee little story about laura and what she does in her spare time :-) mwah ha ha. i amuse my self every once in a while.

maria mariaaaaaaa she reminds me of a west side story.

now that brings us to today and i have NOTHING to do which is slightly sad. i ALWAYS have something to do. and here i am doing nothing. i'm such a loser, i really should be catching up on homework. i have been supreme slacker and have barely done anything all week. for instance, for our biology isu we have to learn a whole unit and then had a test on thursday morning. ask me when i started studying? wednesday on the BUS to and from school. then i dind't even get home until 9 that night. then i HAD to watch law and order (eventhough i NEVER watch that show) and by that time gosh darnit i was so tired i went to bed. so ya, tonya didn't really learn the ecology unit. luckily a lot if it was stuff from grade 10 science, except for the element cycles which i didn't even BOTHER to try and learn. so the highest i think i could have gotten was a 65%. which doesn't matter too much because if i got 50% my mark would still be an 84%...so i'm not beating myself up too much over that.

this entry is so NOT witty and amusing. i'm so sorry guys. i need to go now.
tata

tonya :-)

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Date: February 12, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
12:11pm
Stuck in my head:
that montell jordan song
In the cd player:
TLC
Song lyric of the moment:
only take them thugged out slightly bugged out fuck with his tongue out
know the job ain't getting done til the body's getting drugged out
hot boy keep me right play your part and i'll keep you tight
where else you gon' be in the middle of the night then up in the sheets with me aight?
gangster true to the game street master
you the one i need with this beat street blast up
ain't afraid to stop a cat plus pop a cap
sold your cash money, rule the world whos topping now?
as for 30 keep me on my toes
put a tingle down my spine which spot only he knows
he's a hot boy missy sing it out and i'm gon' spit it
rough ryder scream ing loud daddy is you wit it?
if your team can't handle my bitchin' then we gon' ride
break out stallion keep thugs open wide
eve stay commited and if he ain't the riddler i ain't wit it wit it

-- eve from missy's hot boyz
Book :
The Book of Ruth(i haven't picked that up in ages)
On the tube:
Soul Train
Random Quote:"
i want alan cumming in my hands and in my face right now"
Anxiously Anticipating:
sleep and march break
Link Me Baby One More Time:
www.gap.com
Journal End Time:
1:23pm

i FINALLY heard the new Madonna song. she redid 'American Pie'. it's not bad, but the problem is that the original version is SO classic that it feels like she completely butchered the song. if i'd never heard the original version i would SO be loving the vibe..but such is life. she added her new beats...you know that techno/electronica-ish sound and its fun fun fun. so go madonna.

okay so on thursday i went to my semi and i had my mom tape ER and Friends for me. can someone please tell me what is up with ER??? does EVERYONE on the show have to die. do they ever let patients live?? i'm SOOOOOO disturbed. and the poor little kids from the car accident whose parents died? how freaking sad and horrific was that? oy. and Carter ignoring Lucy and her psycho patient and then the psycho patient stabbing both of them. ergh. and the fucking music in the ER being too loud because of the party so they couldn't hear Carter scream. oy freaking vey is all i'm saying about that. i mean we all know that lucy was supposed to leave...but not now. i actually LIKED her. she was my GAP clothing homey. and Carter can't die because that would just be blasphemous. ugh. i'm frustrated.

and friends has been reamusing. i used to love that show sooooo much but then i lose interest but stil watched it. all of a sudden i think it's the funniest thing since sliced bread. i love when joey gets his mack on and says "hey, how you doin'?" i piss my pants laughing. and all of a sudden i'm lovin courtney cox. she is being very funny. the best was last weekend when she had a cold and she was trying to trick chandler into having sex with her. oh friends.

okay lets talk about something else. i need to open a new browser to see where i left off last time. do you all think i'm going senial? i always have to see where i left off. but tis okay because i rock.

OMG i'm SO conflicted right now. i have NO clue what courses to take next year. there are sooooo many i want to take and i was planning on making it a light year next year. then i went to the subject fair day at my school where you talk to the teachers about the courses and now there is sooo much i'm interested in. like i'm not sure if i should take co-op. is it really worth it? taking co-op just complicates things because that is two periods i need for that. then i don't know if i need to take 2 maths or just one. i need to figure out what the universities need as prereqs for business. i would rather NOT take al/geo AND calculus. but if i need it what can i do. i for sure have to take a french course because i just need one for my bilingual certificate. then there are all these electives i'm interested in. okay these ones are oacs: law, philosophy, writers craft, english litterature, families, al/geo, calculus, and histoire. then there are american history and world religions which are grade 12 courses. i hate course selection. i need to go to guidance and let ms. fricker decide what i should take...that would solve my problems. i was really hoping that i could take 5 courses instead of the 8 or 9 that i normally take...but i guess i could survive on taking 6. grrr. why is this all so complicated? is it wrong to take a course that i'm not really interested in just because i know i can get a kick ass mark? its not that i'm NOT interested, i've just never really thought about it. grrr i hate option sheet time.

the upside to subject fair day is that you get to meet and talk to all these teachers that you don't normally get to talk to. Ms. Roti (who teaches OAC law) and who is also my economics teacher's best friend is also extremely cool and fun. elvira has her this year for law and loves her soo much. then there is mr. lazare who teaches philosophy and who IS jerry seinfeld. he looks and talks like him. it is absolutely frightening. who else did we talk to....ms. schindler who taught us tennis in grade 9 and who teaches the eng. lit course. she was very cute and fun. the highlight was talking to ms. beaudry who teaches world religions and who is so beyond cute and fun. elvira and i had nothing to do so we were in our economics room waiting for the fair to end and class to start and ms. beaudry just randomly starts talking to us...not even trying to sell us her course. yes so those are the teachers in my school, and i'm sure that you all are so BEYOND interested :-)

oh yes...the semi. it was SO nothing special. i didn't hate it or anything... i had fun, but it is NOT as exciting as everyone says. you just go and dance to music and watch the teachers gawk at the sluttly girls and see all you drunken school mates then you go home. and the dj barely played any new music. it was good music, just old. didn't play q-tip, missy, eve...mariah...it was kind of strange actually. so that was my semi with no interesting stories. all my friends were there so taht was fun. then i slept at elviras and we didn't go to sleep until 3:30am..BIG oy.

so eventhough we had a pd day on friday (they were doing new curriculum stuff), GAC had to go to school to wrap hershey kisses and we were there from 11 until 3. yah it was fun. so we're sitting there in the gym and ms. misko comes in (female gym teacher and our staff sponsor) and she is accompanied by a man. me, being blind couldnt tell who it was. so after some squinting and tilting my head i discovered that it was hot gym teacher. yes, so THAT was enjoyable. and he was up there wrapping hersheys with us for about an hour and being really fun and stuff. and we talked and gossiped about the semi and snooped around and read peoples messsages and laughed our asses off.

ugh i'm so frustrated by er.

i went to siona's class. it was fun, eventhough we didn't do a combo thanks to blond figure skater chic aka anne. it was a BIG learning day, and she basically guided us on how to carry our bodies more and use our abs. it was great, i'm glad i went. and i used my new dance clothes that made me look REALLY skinny and svelte, and dancer like. it was actually pretty shocking. i hadnt 'danced in sooooo long (about a week and a bit) so it was good to get up and use my muscles. i saw abbas. i hadn't seen abbas in soooooo long because i kind of stopped taking my sunday class...but there he was on friday. and we were talking and sou-jin yells from down the hall "she's such a wonderful girl". can we get a collective awwwwwww. love me some randolph administration. so then after class i called laura and had to hang around randolph to wait for us to talk to dani about plans, so i sat around and watched a hiphop class for like 20 minutes. i'm NEVER taking hiphop...it is just WAY too crazy, espcially with shawn teaching.

then i went to HMV where i discovered that there are a gazillion cds that i need RIGHT NOW, but of course i literally have NO money at all. then it was off to indigo to kill more time while i waited for the girls to come. then we all went down to shopsey's to talk to phil. then we were all intellectual and went to chapters to buy a book for laura. dani decided that she had a craving for chocolate cake so it was down to the devil and they changed their menu (exclamation mark). they didn't used to have hamburgers, did they?? it was muy yummy. and laura is in a fight with me, so if she says anything that sounds a bit strange about me she is lying to get back at me. just because i told dani a wee little story about laura and what she does in her spare time :-) mwah ha ha. i amuse my self every once in a while.

maria mariaaaaaaa she reminds me of a west side story.

now that brings us to today and i have NOTHING to do which is slightly sad. i ALWAYS have something to do. and here i am doing nothing. i'm such a loser, i really should be catching up on homework. i have been supreme slacker and have barely done anything all week. for instance, for our biology isu we have to learn a whole unit and then had a test on thursday morning. ask me when i started studying? wednesday on the BUS to and from school. then i dind't even get home until 9 that night. then i HAD to watch law and order (eventhough i NEVER watch that show) and by that time gosh darnit i was so tired i went to bed. so ya, tonya didn't really learn the ecology unit. luckily a lot if it was stuff from grade 10 science, except for the element cycles which i didn't even BOTHER to try and learn. so the highest i think i could have gotten was a 65%. which doesn't matter too much because if i got 50% my mark would still be an 84%...so i'm not beating myself up too much over that.

this entry is so NOT witty and amusing. i'm so sorry guys. i need to go now.
tata

tonya :-)


Date: February 8, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
10:01pm
Stuck in my head:
austin powers 2
In the cd player:
YAGMCB
Song lyric of the moment:
spring has come and winter's gone my love
but don't look around for me child, i'll be gone
not afraid because the season has changed
i'm gonna count my blessing and just follow the sun
- Angie Stone (sooooo cool)
Book :
The Book of Ruth(i haven't picked that up in ages)
On the tube:
Judgin' Amy
Random Quote:"
i want alan cumming in my hands and in my face right now"
Anxiously Anticipating:
i want ISUs to be over and done with
Link Me Baby One More Time:
www.hell.com ( i don't know if that is a real site)
Journal End Time:
10:39pm

how tragic was my journal disappearing? i for one was shocked and stuneed. it was not fun. i sat there writing an entry for an entire day because i was so gosh darn bored. but i won't put that up because frankly it's a wee bit stupid and meesed up.

awww what a girl wants is on the radio. i'm loving that vibe.

okay my life...

so sunday night i went to see Scream3 in tha boonies with miss laura eventhough i had an entire economics isu to get done the next day that i had barely started. it was entertaining. i'm a scream whore so i was happy. it's not as scary as the first two...and there is less blood. the freaking movie is rated AA so there were 8 year olds there. it was funny. laura and i are THE most retarded people in the world. we both kept on doing retarded things so i made us run out as soon as the movie was over because i didn't want anyone to see our faces :-) it was entertaining..worth seeing just for the Scream factor and Neve's kick ass hair/clothes. i love me some Scream. the best is the opening scene from the first movie. i need to own that movie just for that.

yah...so i went home stayed up until 2:30 doing work then went to bed. in the middle of the night i started to feel yuki and cold and tingling and just knew that iw as getting sick. so i went to school and at about 11am i said fuck it and went to the GAC office and slept from 11 until 3 because i was all gross. then i went to rehearsal where i looked "like death" and threw up. it was fun stuff. then i took a taxi home and watched bits and pieces of the lion king press conference and watched some of the new Mary and Rhoda show.

OMG i used to be sooooooooooooo obessed with Mary and Rhoda. i would watch them everyday and i wanted to BE Rhoda. and mary was cool too because she could turn the world on with her smile..and who doesn't want to be like mary tyler moore? so when i found out they were doing a new show together i shat in my pants and had to clean it all up by myself, because frankly no one wants to clean up my shit. the show was decent. nothing to squawk about. i was just happy to see them together again and looking sooooooooo good. i was so gross and sick yesterday that i BURST out crying during a commerical for the show because iw as so happy that they were together again. can we spell retarded??

OMG funny moment today. we all know of my friend leesa kwong who reads my journal and former jarvis student that i haven't seen since rent was here. well today i saw her in wellesley station and spazzed a bit and iw as with nadeen. so leesa is like "is this nadeen??". it was hilarious. nadeen got all paranoid and wondered how the fuck this random girl knew who she was. it was just one of those moments. but i love me some leesa kwong.

hmmmm what else has happened? i was voted perviest person involved with the school play. it was actually pretty funny. i even beat out JOSH for the title and he is a dirty teenaged boy. go me. don't i make y'all proud. actually i think the title was perviest and kinkiest. but i'm disputing the kinkiness part because i do not practice the art of kink.

i got a surprise in the mail today...the new john grisham book. apparently my sister pre-ordered it for me from amazon and it came yesterday. i'm thrilled and a half but won't read it until i'm finished all the major stuff that i should be working on.

today my master plan was to take lea's class for an hour during dinner break. but fucking burak made dinner break from 5-6 instead of 6-7 so my master plan didn't work. so i got all sexed up for nothing. it was SUCH i waste of sex i tell you...SUCH a waste. i'm not a happy girl. maybe i'll get my mojo working on wednesday and friday. actually...for sure on friday and possibly on wednesday. i need motivation for wednesday. the good thing about going on wednesday is that i get to talk to miss jackson...and it's not a retardo class so that helps a bit as well. oh we shall see.

why doesn't my phone ring? can't people call me. i'm feel so dry right now people. pick up the phone and call me. e-mail me if you don'[t have my number :-) i don't even care if you are crazy...heck you don't even have to be yourself...you could be some random creep off the street or a 40 year old women with identity issues...i really don't care.

cause it feels like heaven/ when i'm with you/ please come back to me/ cause these tears in my eyes/ i can't disguise/ please come back to me

i don't even know what song that is but it's on the radio so that means that it is legit.

okoay what else to talk abouy? the creativity isn't flowing at all. i know why...its the sports bra. sports bras stifle creativity because they smush the boobs and contrary to popular belief, the boobs are the center of creativity. so the bra is coming off. there we go, now i can think freer. i'm so not used to going "au naturel". i wear a bra from when i wake up til when i go to bed. i need to not wear one one day and see what happens. that could be uncomfortable. it will be titled "tonya and her braless adventures".

hmmmm what else do y'all want to know about?? does anyone want to come to my school play? it takes place next saturday at my school. i won't be offended if you say no. that is alright. no bitterness here. but i will remember forever and scorn you.

OMG new obesession. the drama student teacher. she is very sweet. what's her name?? hmmm. christine ganier. yeah. something like that. she is one cool chica. today her and i did some set painting together, and she bought me water yesterday. but don't worry she in no way, shape, or form replaces the hot gym teacher who is lorilee's age :-) i need to get a picture of this boyman and scan it for the masses to see.

okay i'm tired. this chica is going to do homework and then off to bed it is.

actually. alan cumming was so fucking hilarious on SNL. i give that boy props for having the last name "cumming". i amused myself with that for a good 20minutes. the dog show skit had me pissing because it was about A DRUNKEN DOG. and anyone who knows me knows that my ultimate dream is get a dog drunk because i want to see what a dog would do. and i have no friends who would like to get their dog drunk...so i have to wait until i'm big and buy a dog and spike their kibbles and bits with an extra "bit" of sumpin' sumpin'. mwah ha ha.

ciao ciao
tonya


Date: February 5, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
3:21pm
Stuck in my head:
S Club 7
In the cd player:
Mariah Carey
Song lyric of the moment:
Billy Ray was the preachers son
and when his daddy would visit he'd come along
something something they started talking
that's when billy would take me walking
thru the backyard we'd go walking
then he'd look into my eyes
lord knows to my surprise
the only one could ever reach me
was the son of a preacher man
the only boy that could ever teach me
was the son of a preacher man
yes he was, he was ohhhhhh yes he was
- son of a preacher man by Dusty Springfield
Book :
The Book of Ruth(yeah i'm really reading that)
On the tube:
the proactin informercial
Random Quote:
"TOOOOONNNNNYYYYYAAAA do you still have ISUs coming out of your ass?"
-- quinn yelling at me from down the hall

Anxiously Anticipating:
i'm REALLY excited about finishing my scarf
Link Me Baby One More Time:
no link
Journal End Time:
3:39pm

i am having SUCH a good clothes week it is not even funny. i'm all sexed up. lol. i had to say that. it's such a funny expression..all sexed up. no, but really i've been looking good. i resurected my dark dark bootleg jeans and i've been wearing my platformy shoes, and 3/4 length shirts...i've been quite the style maven. and yesterday i wore my dragon shirt from le chateau (that i've never worn to school) and everyone was muy muy impressed. and i haven't been doing the sweater with a shirt underneath thing in a while so everyone thinks that i look so skinny now...it's actually pretty funny. i've been wearing wee little shirts...and i don't know why i'm writing all this...it's part of me losing my mind.

today i went shopping with my mom to buy more ubertrendy wear to make me all sexed up. lol. i had to use that again..sorry. so i had to buy jeans. i wanted dark dark flared ones (which GAP doesn't make) so i had to go to "other" stores. i ended up buying Mavi's which look sooooooo good on me (if i do say so myself). i also bought the cutest little sweater from Jacob...it's really furry and tight and 3/4 length. i'm in love :-) then i went to South Pacific and bought 2 black 3/4 length shirts and black fun joggingish pants. its part of the "new and improved dancing tonya". yes you heard me right. i'm wearing my outfit right now and it's looking classy. i'm in such a whorey clothes mood. i need to find my tank top and dance in that. every once in a while i get these urges to change my look...so bear with me. anyhoo everyone come watch me dance in my new clothes. OMG i feel like Bette midler. you know how she sings that song "i look good"? well that is running thru my head right now.

i'm going to my semi. yes i know, i caved in. but not without pissing EVERYONE at school off. it was amusing. kristin and i are talking but not really talking. we walked to the ref together and didn't say a single word. i was amused. but last night i talked to miss elvira for 2 hours and it was fun. then today from the mall i called her from the jacob changing room and was like harassing her. i kept on telling her random stuff..that i was at the mall and buying a shirt and finally she was like OMG are you coming to the semi? yah so i am. gonna get some action. i'm joking. ther is no action to be had at school functions. and i'll take pictures of lil' ole me all sexed up. rotfl. i crack myself up. i have got to stop.

wow this is a really egotistical update. i hope you all don't mind.

oh yah...so that night i ended up going to bed at 3:30am. it was fun fun fun. then i woke up at 7am. i was wired. but grumpy by the last period of the day. in the middle of the night i got this HORRIBLE muscle spasm in my leg. i thought i was dying. it was awful.

ain't no party like an S-Club party.

oh you just wait and see, i will be in S Club. i'm SUCH a loser. those guys are just so fun. i even know their names. theres Bradley, Jon, Hannah, Rachel, Jo...and some other guy. i know i know i'm cool. you all want to be me. mwah ha ha.

i spent 4.5 hours at the hair salon the other day. yah, that made me happy. i LOVE wasting that much of my time. i mean what would i have done with those 4.5 hours. yah so i was a bit pissy thursday night. and kelly martin ROCKS because her character is SUCH a Gap girl. go kelly go kelly.

hey i have voice messages. laura called and so did max. hello jellos. fucking hell. i should call back but i have to go babysitting in like 15 minutes. grrrrr. damn me and my fast paced life.

i would like to say HEY to aislinn and tall guy who sent me comments in my comment box. that it what it is there for. comments. so send them my way. and why did i stop getting propositions? i think i'm feeling slightly hurt. haha wait until you all see the new revamped and sexed up (that term will never stop amusing me) tonya. mwah ha ha.

mwah ha ha. mwah ha ha. Mwah ha ha. MWah ha ha. MWAh ha ha. MWAH ha ha. MWAH Ha ha. MWAH HA ha. MWAH HA Ha. MWAH HA HA.

that was to piss off laura :-)

okay i'm going guys and dolls.
ciao
tonya -- all sexed up (hehe)


Date: February 3, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
1:53am
Stuck in my head:
all things macy gray
In the cd player:
macy gray
Song lyric of the moment:
Billy Ray was the preachers son
and when his daddy would visit he'd come along
something something they started talking
that's when billy would take me walking
thru the backyard we'd go walking
then he'd look into my eyes
lord knows to my surprise
the only one could ever reach me
was the son of a preacher man
the only boy that could ever teach me
was the son of a preacher man
yes he was, he was ohhhhhh yes he was
- son of a preacher man by Dusty Springfield
Book :
The Book of Ruth(yeah i'm really reading that)
On the tube:
most likely some sort of infomercial
Random Quote:
"TOOOOONNNNNYYYYYAAAA do you still have ISUs coming out of your ass?"
-- quinn yelling at me from down the hall

Anxiously Anticipating:
i'm REALLY excited about finishing my scarf
Link Me Baby One More Time:
no link
Journal End Time:
2:16am

why am i updating at 1:53am you all might be wondering. well it is because i'm the biggest retard on the face of this planet. well maybe not THE biggest one..but definitely in the top ten. i have the rough draft of my stupid english ISU due tomorrow that i didn't start until 9pm. i have it mostly done now but it sucks my ass crack...it is the most HORRIBLE piece of writing to ever come out of my computer, and frankly that frustrates me. my ideas are just not flowing at all so it is just one big heap of shit. yes a HEAP of shit. argh. then i have this freaking french timeline to get done and a play review. i can get an extension on the review, no problem..but the timeline has to get done. seeing as it is almost 2am now and that i would have to wake up at 7am to go to school i'm thinking that i might as well just SKIP sleeping. we'll see how tonya runs on zero sleep. i'll probably get overtired...i'm dangerous when i'm over tired because i get REALLY giddy and frisky. mwah ha ha. so yes i am the queen retard.

i'm obsessed with tallguy. i would like to marry this tallguy. i get comments in my comment box from tallguy. he is rocking my world. thank you sooooo much :-) he also likes GAP and Chantal Kreviazuk so he is tops in my book. hehe tops is such a funny word no matter what context you use it in.

why is it so fucking cold? why are my pinky fingers SIGNIFICANTLY colder than my other fingers? all my other fingers are nice and toasty, but my pinkies feel like they came out of a fricking ice box.

i always mean to tell this story about my ultimate retardation. i'm a bath girl. i do NOT shower. i like being in a tub full of water and having bubbles. it is sooo much more relaxing. but recently i have started showering to wash my hair. so one day i go into this magical shower and i'm showering and i have this weird sensation on the lower part of my body (get your minds out of the gutter). turns out i went into the shower with my underwear on. so here i am standing in my shower wearing underwear..i wasn't sure what the heck to do. and let me tell you, wet underwear is NOT fun to wear at all. i felt like the biggest moron. eventually i couldn'ttake the weirdness of the situation and took off the underwear and hung them up to dry. and yah....that story was a lot funnier INSIDE my head.

i danced on tuesday. yay randolph.

why am i writing a fucking journal enry when i should be writing an ISU? is it because i'm the queen of retards? i think so.

i should archive, but i'm not going to. do you wonder why? well it's my journal and i can do whatever i want with it. mwah ha ha ha.

i got an e-mail from leesa kwong. she made me one happy chica.

why is my life sooooo uninteresting?? i go to school, have play rehearsal, go to randolph, babysit and then come home and do homework. why oh why are things this way. did i already tell y'all about my realization that i no longer do things for myself? i will see one of these days and enlighten the masses.

my sister got inspired and is gong to try to be on Millionaire. Regis' plea for "black folk" the other night inspired her so i have her the number and now we have to see if she qualifies. if she gets on i get to be her "friend" to phone. how thrilling would that be??? i'm good at general knowledge shit like the stuff that they have on that show. it's from all my years of being OBSESSED with magazines. i would rather be her guest to NYC but such is life.

i'm going to the bloody hairdresser tomorrow. there goes some valuable time sucked out of my life. i'm in desperate need of a touch up because i'm all roots right about now. haha i bet none of you understand what i'm talking about. i love people who pretend to understand the woes of black hair. that is kristin for you. she thinks she knows it all because she went to oakwood for a year. well she doesn't so mwah ha ha ha. that is my new thing mwah ha ha ha. hehe evil laugh.

can you pay my automobills?

this is one jacked up and disjointed journal entry. i apologize. it's too damn late for me to be coherent. and i would like to say that i sure do love me some jennpease and i'm very sad that she doesn't get to be on millionaire. i almost bought the millionaire computer game but my mom called me a freak so i didn't buy it. i am however knitting a loverly scarf. am i dancing on friday? i will have to see pee pee.

i wish i had a television in my room...then i could be watching mad about you. oh how i love those Buchmans.

this guy in my group from drama got banned from our school library for the month of february because they got him looking at porn on the internet. haha but they didn't catch him PRINTING the porn. i thought that that was the funniest story ever.

it is time for me to go now.
ciao ciao
tonya -- the horseless wonder