Nedstat Counter

Bitch and Moan

If you want to read journals from November till February click here and for march thru may click here. And for May until the middle of august click here. for august until mid-september click here.

e-mail me at: tonya@myna.com

October 1, 1999

oy so much to write and so little time. hehe i say that now but watch; in about 10 minutes i'll have absolutely nothing to say. i'm trying to figure out how to go about this journal...i guess i'll see what had happened last time i wrote and work from there...coolio? coolio.

okay lets say that nothing interesting happened on wednesday and hippity hop on to thursday.

so thursday was my first time EVER going to randolph on a thursday. first i was worried that it would be in shitty studio (C) but it was in kick ass studio (B). and sooooo many regulars were there it was crazy. geri, mark, cassandra, julian, blond figure skater and even ISABELLE was there.

oops before i forget. Isabelle who we all know and love is on a TV SHOW on TFO. its called histoire max i think or something like that and she's on it regularly i think and is very happy. she offered me gum and i took it. i know you are all jealous. for all of you that don't know isabelle is this random chic i bunch of us met backstage at chicago one night and was EXACTLY like jenifer aubry...it was frigtening.

so anyhoo i wore my new dance wear PLUS i basketball jersey and i also really enjoyed that look. kind of sporty kind of slinky..it was very nice. i'm having way too much fun finding dance clothes these days. oh yeah so we did the *fuck me x-mas combo* as it has been renamed. i'm SOOO in love with that dance its all about attitude and sex. oy before we started dancing siona said that she wanted us to dance the words SENSUAL and some other really funny words. but we all looked so good doing the dance except a few retardos that looked completely akward. i'm so happy i have a real good grasp on this dance which makes it so much easier to make it look good. so yay me.

thursday was also lets go watch siona dance at 11pm on a school night night. so whatever max and i get there at around ten to and catch the last part of this BIZARRO cracked up play i gues it was. i don't even know what it was but it was soooo weird. anyhoo. it turned out that siona's thing was part of this amateur night that second city has every monday-thursday night. so there were A LOT of acts before siona's thang...they were actually the last act. some highlights of the other acts were: the guy and girl who did this thing called greatest musicals never written. they'd ask someone in the audience to name one. the one they used was the life of my wagon or something. so then guy and girl make up a situation from it and turn it into a shop stopping ballad. the ballad they made up was about a dead horse. it was HILARIOUS i was so close to ROTFLMAO...it was SUCH a clever concept. then there was this lady dressed up as an old lady and who danced and sang to *like a virgin*. oh yeah Jen Cohen (musical theatre chic at randolph) did this REALLY cute number to Hot Honey Rag from chicago with this other chickie..it was cool cool. okay siona's thing deserves a whole separate paragraph.

okay so for siona's act the four of them didn't even have names. they wre introduced as cabaret singers named: lusty, dirty, raunchy and greedy. max and i decided that siona was proabably raunchy. so they danced to Money from Cabaret. the whole thing was FRIGTENING and BIZARRE. i sat there watching with my mouth wide open trying to fiugre out what the hell it was that i was watching. it was VERY cool but i swear we got to see the side of siona that i've always joked about existing (ya know the sex ravenged dance teacher side). it was VERY good. there was much bumping and grinding and general kinkiness. siona was wearing nylons cut into capris and a black skirt and a tight t-shirt that said rock star. i can't describe the dance just cause its really hard to do..but at the end siona started groping the MCs of the evening. then as max and i were leaving, siona's michael jackson warm up song was playing in the lobby...oddness at its best. i got home at about 12:30am which wasn't TOO bad.

okay lets talk about school. i'm obsessed with economics. its THE funnest class and its all because of my teacher ms. gotsis. she just ROCKS. she's a real wise ass..no matter waht anyone says she has a comeback. she's muy cool she jokes around about everything and makes you want to learn without really thinking that you are learning..its good...that is what teaching should be about. she has a really good relationship for all her students i think. no one wants to get her mad because she is so cool and could be one of those people that EXPLODES when she's mad. so everything is just cool in class. i swear every class she reminds us not to take drugs in the morning (makes you all confused when you do attendence). its one of those classes where you spend some time talking about total shit like what was on tv the night before and talk about school gossip then you get down to work for a while then you talk some more and then she kicks you out of the class early. gotta love me some economics.

GAC is going well. i think we are going to be selling fleece vests so that should bring in some money which is a good thing. i don't know why i'm talking about GAC. that was damn random of me.

i'm so happy its almost thanksgiving gotta love a long weekend. AND the friday before the long weekend its a half day for us because of commencement.

babysat tonight. picked christine and laura up. christing fell in the park and proceeded to hi me and yell. i sent her to her room where i swear she was having a fit for about 20 minutes. it was pretty funny. so i decided to be all powerful and i kept on yelling at her. i like NEVER yell at them but today christin was being such an ASS. i can't type what i yelled because you would't be able to tell all the articulations and shit so lets just skeip it. THEN since jan and her friends were going to a party at rachael's house thy all brought their kids over and we had pizza and chicken wings. then rachaels sister ella came to cause she was bored at her house. there must have been about 7 kids there. but 5 of them weree ovre the age of 9 so it was all good.

i'm having serious ghetto vibes at the moment. i'm listening to Jay-Z singing *can i get a...* i got it from BMG cause i always have the urge to hear that song and hard knock life. i also got Eminem which i haven 't listened to at all yet. i'm not feeling that ghettoa t the moment.

i'm so damn tired i'm going to bed.

ciao caio

tonya

 

 

Journal Start Time: 11:54pm

Stuck in my head: hard knock life (ghetto anthem)

In the cd player: Jay-Z vol. 2

On KISS92: weird ass techno beats

Strewn on the couch: The Shipping News (should i just abandon it?)

On the tube: Law and Order (?)

Random Quote: i'm sure there was something really funny that we said at second city about siona playing a whore..but i don't remember you all can fill in the blanks.

Anxiously Anticipating: buying a new book, finishing my homework, dance on sunday...i should just give up on the joely thig :-(

Craving: chicken wings

Random Discovery: a.) danielle lee greaves likes kernels double double butter popcorn b.) siona can convincingly play a whore

Link Me Baby One More Time: i just can't get enough

Days until Lisa Press' birthday(october 8):7

Days until Alice's birthday (october 14): 13

Days until my birthday (september 13):348

Mail me for my birthday:

Tonya Facey
365 Westmount Ave. #1B
Toronto, ON
M6E 3N3

Days until Laura's Birthday (dec. 3): 63

Journal end time:12:26am

September 29, 1999

today is the fully abridged journal. its early and i have to be hauling ass to school eventhough its a late start because i'm meeting someone to work on biology because my bio teacher is an ass. he's one of those teachers who refuses to answer questions...muy frustrating.

okay so last night was dance. i tried the new outfit...LOVED IT. its soooo comfortable. but i feel like *such* a conformist in the clothes..but eh i'll just have to suck it up and deal. lea was in one of her moods...she was *so* weird last night. in the middle of our stretching siona made a guest appearance in our class to salsa dance to our music. now if george clooney could just hurry up and get his tight ass on ER that would be loverly. siona is having a show on thrusday at 11pm at Second City. i'm allowed to go so WOOHOO. eventhough its late AND a school night i'm going to go. i'mso excited to FINALLY see siona dance...well i mean *really* dance. she said that she's doing a number from Cabaret (money). very very good.

hehe on monday when i babysat jan was sayind that she'll pay me a steady salary of $100 EVERY WEEK and i'll *supposedly* work about 12-14 hours but there will be weeks when i work less or whatever but that doesn't effect the $100. BUT with that said that means that i won't be applying for part time jobs. how hilarious is that. right now i make about $45/ week babysitting...thats quite the raise isn't it :-) so i dunno what to do. siona says any money is good money (yeah like she's my big advisor i think she's kind of sketchy)...so i'm thinking if i don't get the job at Indigo then i do the thing with Jan for the school year and get a real job during the summer. but i REALLY dont know i'm waiting to see what the sis says.

monday night babysitting was the night from hell. christine REFUSED to fall asleep and laura kept on crying. i've never wanted to strangle them before. so the mother gets home and i'm all excited about leaving..but then she's like why don't you look after christine and i look after laura. then we did that and then switched. it was one big oy.

sorry i think this is all for now i'm feeling kind of dry at the moment. no stories to tell today :-( i'll just bow my head in misery and trot off into the sunset...or sunrise since its 7 in the morning :-)

ciao ciao

tonya

Journal Start Time: 7:24am

Stuck in my head: Heatbreaker

In the cd player: All Saints

On KISS92: i dunno

Strewn on the couch: The Shipping News (will i ever finish it??)

On the tube: the Today Show :-)

Random Quote: "at some point someone must have loved her maureen...i mean they sent her to b'way..but now they sent her ass back home" (me to max about the tamara situation)

Anxiously Anticipating: siona's dance show, jargon meeting, who's joely fisher??

Craving: tacos

Random Discovery: danielle lee greaves reads the benny boards

Link Me Baby One More Time: i'm so wishing Danielle Greaves had webpage...

Days until Lisa Press' birthday(october 8):9

Days until Alice's birthday (october 14): 15

Days until my birthday (september 13):350

Mail me for my birthday:

Tonya Facey
365 Westmount Ave. #1B
Toronto, ON
M6E 3N3

Days until Laura's Birthday (dec. 3): 65

Journal end time:7:56am

 

September 27, 1999

sorry i just have to start off this journal with a little piece of nastiness. did anyone notice that on the day of my most recent *penis entry* the countdown to laura's birthday was 69? how absolutely naughty was that?? i swear it was NOT intentional in any way, shape, or form. but quelle coincidence.

oy i'm still totally riding thr Britney Spears wave. i cannot stop listening to her cd. i feel like SUCh an 11 year old teeny bopper retard that shops at La Senza girl. i really can't help listening to miss spears...i think its a disease. her songs are just so much fun to sing and dance to. you all can't tell but right now i'm singing my heart out and gyrating in syncopation to Crazy (or something like that..).

ohhh something is at the post office for me. i HOPE that it is cds. i REALLY hope that it isn't some random reader sending me porn. how distressing would it be if i go to the post office with my mom to pic up one HUGE envelope filled with porn. or it could just be cut outs of penises from around the world. i didn't even think of this as a possibility before..but now i'm scared. maybe i should tell m y mom that i'll go to the post office by myself just in case its porn. hehe porn is such a funny word it looks like corn but with a *P*. i'm sure its my BMG cds tho...unless BMG starts sending me porn...but that would be a story for a whole other journal.

ohhhhh i got a response to the penis questions. only one response. i know there is more then one male reader out there. off the top of my head i can think of maybe 3 or 4 guys that read. i want more answers.

hmmmmm i have been babbling like a fool..i should find my focus.

baby i'm so into you/ you've got that something what can i do?/ baby you spin me around/ the earth is moving, but i can't feel the ground/ everytime you look at me, my heart is jumping its easy to see/ loving you means so much more, more than anything i've ever felt before/ you drive me crazy, i just can't sleep/ i'm so excited i'm in too deep/ crazy an but it feels alright/ baby thinking of you keeps me up all night/

i think that musical interludes a la Lorilee featuring miss spears should have a whole other name... Spearuludes. it doesn't even have to be called a musical spearulude because..come on britney embodies music ;-) gotta love me some spears.

danielle lee greaves is now on b'way. i wrote her a goodbye poem on the benny boards. i'm sure this whole statement is a lot funnier to me than it is to you. i'm chuckling to myself wholeheartedly.

ohhhh sometimes is on now. wow this is reallygetting to the emotional side of miss spears.

has anyone noticed how i haven't talked about my life yet. well let me get a started :-) um today we had the GAC rummage sale and we wre selling old school uniforms for 3 pieces for $1. i bought 2$ worth of stuff...i'm not stocked up with Jarvis gear for dancing in. speaking of dance i bought hot new conformist dancewear. remember when i first started i used to diss the people that would come all dressed up in black? well now i'm one of those people. i bought black leggings and i'm pairing it with a black tank top over a white one. and let me just tell you all now..watch out cause i'm HAWT :-) but seriously i look good..i really enjoy my body (oy that sounds so wrong i don't *enjoy* my body with a wink wink at the end i just mean i'm comfortable with it). and its really good for moving around in and you can see lines and stuff better which is REALLY helpful for during the warm up.

yesterday after my WONDERFUl dance class...it wasn't really wonderful i just felt like typing wonderful... i went shopping. OH WAIT. guess who was at dance yesterday...no not Neve Campbell or Ryan/Divastar... SIONA'S BOYFRIEND. yes it was a happy happy day at randolph. he isn't all that let me tell you. he isn't hot nor is he ugly which is a good thing. he's pretty average. i didn't get to see the interaction between him and siona tho..but i'm assuming they are pretty close because her boyfriend brought a large chunk of his family with him to the class to watch. so that is that. anyhoo after i went shopping with my mom because she owed me another b-day present. so it was off to GAP where i got two shirts that i've wanted for while. and that was that. then i came home and worked my skanky little ass off.

now i have to be off to babysitting. i'm stealing another lorilee and writing the time i finished typing the journal.

ciao ciao

tonya :-)

Journal Start Time: 5:21pm

Stuck in my head: anything and all things Spears

In the cd player: that spears girl

On KISS92: that new remix of genie in a bottle by christina aguliera

Strewn on the couch: The Shipping News (will i ever finish it??)

On the tube: the remnants of young and the restless

Random Quote: call me alrighty. well don't call me alrighty. just call me, alrighty? (this one took so much effort ot remember that it is staying on for another entry)

Anxiously Anticipating: cabarey leaves oct. 16 i think... i HAVE to meet joely fisher before then... really in a dancing mood tomorrow... buying Tis by Frank McCourt and the first Jargon meeting of the year

Craving:hmmmm

Random Discovery: i have heard thru the grapevine that guys really DO masturbate everyday (oy the imagery...)

Link Me Baby One More Time: randolph now has a website

Days until Lisa Press' birthday(october 8):11

Days until my birthday (september 13):352

Mail me for my birthday:

Tonya Facey
365 Westmount Ave. #1B
Toronto, ON
M6E 3N3

Days until Laura's Birthday (dec. 3): 67

Journal end time: 5:52pm

September 25, 1999

hello hey and hi :-) tha queen is back in tha building. well its been quite the uneventful time for the past few days. i was on the phone last night with Press and Laura and we had a long talk about penises and i learned new stuff :-) so it will be another penis entry but not until after i talk about real stuff.

so i was an independent chickie and i went to jazz 1 last night. it was AMAZING. its so good to be in a class where people can actually dance. siona went at things faster and everything was just a bit trickier... but i still found jazz 1 to be a little too easy for me. i need a challenge and i don't think randolph has jazz2 anymore. actually they do at 7:30 on tuesday...but i do lea's class on tuesday so that won't work. anyhoo... siona started this new combo and MAX its the CHRISTMAS COMBO. you don't understand maz and i are obsessed with dance. we've watched her teach it to her jazz3 sooooo many times and wished we could learn it..now she's teaching it to us. its sooooo damn sexy its not even funny. the whole combo just radiates sex. its slow and like sensual and it just rocks. so that is that.

oy i got so *involved* in dance last night. so class is from 5:30 until 7. tonya has to babysit at 7:30. i didn't leave class until about 7:15 so i ended up taxing to babysitting...how fucked is that? but i made it so it was all good but it cost me 8$. i barely even made more than that..it SO wasn't worht it. its so funny i discovered christine's memory game so now i MAKE her play it with me. like i'll say we can't do waht she wants to do unless we play a certain number of rounds of memory :) last night we played 4 rounds and we each one 2.

when i got home after babyistting the doorknob fell of the bedroom so i couldn't go in and get bed clothes, pillows OR go on the computer. it was frustrating. finally we got someone to fix it but it was very traumatising. then i called laura who was on the other line with cow and press and somehoe we arranged it so that we would ALL be talking. it was interesting stuff. three way is always odd...weird thingscome out..but always enjoyable.

so anyhoo we started talking about penises (quelle surprise). miss laura raised an interesting question do i want to see one as in on a model or something oorrrrr does it have to be a real person and do i want to play with it. now i've never thought *that* far ahead about it. but i think i'm for the second option. and did you know that with blow jobs you don't just keep it in there you move it around? it never occured to me before but thats what happens. because my whole question was that how does *it* fit in a mouth... i means mouths are little. so now the whole moving it around thing makes sense. but i *still* think it sounds icky...aren't people afraid of chocking on the *stuff*..icky. i don't know what kind of guys laura knows but she said that any guy would jump at the opportunity to have someone * with them. i laughed very hard. i had questions for boys that i want answers to dammit. e-mail me from a fake e-mail addy if you want.

re-reading this journal i sound like *such* a hooker...but i'm not really.

anyhoo: 1.) what is up with the whole masturbation thing do you all really do it everyday and sometimes more than once?? can you not control yourselves? 2.) do guys *really* think with their penises? 3.) are guys really only out there to fool around all the time? 4.) half the worlds population is male...why haven't i seen a penis? 5.) any out there that want to share?

oy i'm amusing myself so much. its the cheap crack i'm sure. i'm sucking on milkfuls by the bucket they are so fucking delicious. i had the funniest thought. i wonder who reads my journal... i mean what if there are people out there that shouldnt be reading it. well lets hope not. and if you are someone who shouldn't be reading it then disregard everything above...but for the rest of you..you know the truth.

in honor of tallguy who has the same math teacher as i used to have: i philosophy/ possibly speak tongues/ beat drum, abyssinian, street baptist/ rap this infine linen/ from the beginning/ my practice extending across the atlas/ i begat this/ flippin in the ghetto on a dirty matress/ you can't match this rapper/actress / more powerful than two cleopatras/ bomb graffiti on the tomb of nefertiti/ mcs ain't ready to take it to the serengeti/ my rhymes is heavy like the mind of sister betty/ l. boogie spars with stars and constellations/ then came down for a little conversation/ adjacent to the king, fear no human being/ roll with cherubims to nassau coliseum/ now hear this mixture/ where hip hop meets scripture/ develop a negative into a positive picture/ hehe its the lauryn hill rap from everything is everything :-)

do i have anything else to blab about? not really..but will i continue blabbing? undecided. i hear my hubby aka george clooney not to be confused with my *lover* cary shields, is going to be in a movie. i'm exicted i MUST see it.

i'm off

tonya

 

Time: 10:04am

Stuck in my head: anything and all things Spears

In the cd player: that spears girl

On KISS92: heartbreaker by mariah and jay-z

Strewn on the couch: The Shipping News (will i ever finish it??)

On the tube:golf but by accident

Random Quote: call me alrighty. well don't call me alrighty. just call me, alrighty?

Anxiously Anticipating:
i want to meet fucking joely fisher already..loving siona's new/old combo

Craving:Milkfuls (i think i'll pop one in)

Random Discovery: you don't keep it in there it moves around (interpret as you wish)

Link Me Baby One More Time: randolph now has a website

Days until my birthday (september 13):354

Mail me for my birthday:

Tonya Facey
365 Westmount Ave. #1B
Toronto, ON
M6E 3N3

Days until Laura's Birthday (dec. 3): 69

September 22, 1999

wow two updates in two days...it feels like christmas doesn't it? wow i just noticed that i always start my journal with my either apologizing or praising for my lack of or new update. i should stop taht shouldn't i?

OMG tallguy. i dont' have your e-mail addy so i couldn't send you mail to ask you...i had a math teacher last year named Ms. Odintsova. young blond thing with a HEAVY almost indecipherable polish (?) accent...would this be your same Ms. Odintsova?? if she is tell her that Tonya from Jarvis says hi. she ROCKS. she is way way too sweet...even to the bad people. and her quizzes are ALWAYS too long for the amount of time she gives. her quizzes are really tests..somet imes they have like 40 marks on them its ridculous. but she's a very good teacher.

jesse l. martin is on law and order. i have SUCH OBC issues. i've never met or seen any OBC except for Byron who is eternally in RENT..but i always think that i know them. well not know them know them but if i'm watching Ally and Jesse is on i'll be like i know him. not to make people think i actually do know him its just that he was in Rent and stuff. i have to stop cause Jesse is becoming a big star and frankly i don't know jesse :-(

okay lets talk about MEEEEEEE. nothing at all interesting to report.

why you all in my grill? can you pay my bills? let me know if you will. cause a chic like me has got to live.

i just wrote this wonderful paragraph about how i don't hate school friends anymore..but now its vanished mysteriously. i'm confused.

indigo still hasn't called. i tried them today but the guy that i need to talk to wasn't there so now i havbe to call tomorrow during lunch. i guess since they haven't already called it probably means that i didnt' get it...but they said that they'd call either way. so we'll have to see.

i hate being dull in my journal but i just can't help my dullness. i think i need to spice it up a bit..but how oh how can i?

i'm off:-)

tonya

 

 

Time: 10:23pm

Stuck in my head: my new philosophy from YAGMCB

In the cd player: missy elliot

On KISS92: good question...

Strewn on the couch: The Shipping News (will i ever finish it??)

On the tube:Law and Order with Jesse

Random Quote: hehe

Anxiously Anticipating:
i'm really in he mood for siona's maxwell combo...meeting joely fisher and believe it or not...SCHOOL

Craving:hehe thought of WAY too many things to say to that... on a g-rated note (oy i'm SO joking) smarties

Random Discovery: no discovery here have a nice day

Link Me Baby One More Time: randolph now has a website

Days until my birthday (september 13):357

Mail me for my birthday:

Tonya Facey
365 Westmount Ave. #1B
Toronto, ON
M6E 3N3

Days until Laura's Birthday (dec. 3): 72

September 21, 1999

oy i really need to stop beating myself up about not updating. i always feel sooo bad when i don't. but now i'm here and ready to update my brains out. actually i'm doing economics homework AND updating at the same time...now that is skillful isn't it? i know you all have got to love me.

oy wanna know what is bothering me...Rachael (the best friend who isn't really). so now she has decided to come dancing with me 2 times i week...part effort to rekindle the friendship part exercise effort. so whatever no big deal, figured it would be nice to see her everyonce in awhile. so today Rachael is like "i hate your rent thing". so i'm all like "umm okay do i *look* like i care?" so then she starts going on and saying its a cult and all this stuff about how all of my friends are crazy and la la la. so i'm thinking i could a.)ignore her and be like okay miss know it all glad to listen but i disagree OR b.) tell her what i think of her (not totally favourable) and we can both be pissy. me being so damn nice chose a.). i think she was in SUCH a mood to piss me off cause she kept on bringing it up. the funniest was when she was like do you call cary on the phone..so of course i was like no. then she was like do you go out for coffee with him... and i'm like what the fuck we aren't friends or anything. and she was like EXACTLY, why do you care about these people if you aren't friends. i was just like oy vey you just *don't* understand. if i had taken my bitch pills our friendship would be totally over. i mean its one thing to diss the whole rent thing...hell i mean we all (i think) realize that the whole thing is/was crazy...but its another thing to start dissing the people that i have become INCREDIBLY close to within the last...year and a half(?). my theory is that she is slightly bitter over the fact that we barely spoke during grades 10 or 11 because i had/have other friends and she isn't liking that vibe. in saying that its not that she doesn't have a lot of friends...au contraire she is miss sociable..but its different. so one big OY VEY goes out to Rachael who is also the recipient of the *you dont have a fucking clue* award.

augh so now that *that* is off my chest....i went dancing today...first time in a week. lea changed in our changeroom and we overheard her having this discussion with sarah (more on her later) about how much she HATEs subbing in for hiphop cause the students give her attitude for not being Sean. on the way in Lea whipped my ass with her sweatshirt...odd much? siona called me the birthday girl eventho my b-day was a week and a day ago...but still good. are we *sure* siona knows my name? class was good...we're doing a lauryn hill combo which makes life *veru* sweet. oh yeah...so we all remember sarah right... she subbed into my siona class one day and i thought taht she was sooo cool. WELL it turns out that she is (drumroll please) the sister of (another drumroll) Cary *ever fuckable* Shields. how freaky is that. max told me...but that is a whole other story. i was laughing so hard when i found out..i mean here i have this dance teacher one day on a day i didn't even want to go who ends up KICKING ASS and now i find out that her bro is cary. oy the life i lead.

ummmmm o go to school for most of the day and that is usually fun stuff. i'm the new co-editor of the News section of the Jarvis Jargon (our award winning school paper). i've also rejoined the string ensemble and the orchstra. the music we play is SUCH a joke it isn't even funny. plus i'm on GAC..can we say tonya is rekindling her interests in school in order to make her University application look *that* much better?

i'm reobsessed with Jennpease's journal. she added all this cool stuff. and you can take a quiz to see how much you know about her..sadly enough i got 72 i think. i'm an online jennpease stalker...go me :-) tallguy recommended a book for my ISU...Joy Luck Club by Amy Tan. i was actually thinking of reading that..so i will probably end up doing that one as well. i'm so excited for my english ISU...i think i'm a freak. i'm obsessed with doing schoolwork,its pretty sick actually.

oy tamara got FIRED from the NYC cast. now THAT is harsh. but it makese sense. when i saw her in july of this year she was AWFUL. her voice sounded like shit...she was annoying to listen to. but poor tamara having to be KICKED out of the cast. got to feel for her..its not her fault she sounds terrible. well actually it might be but i'm in no position to comment now am i?

tonight i can go to bed a wee bit later because we have a late start every wednesday. instead of starting at 9 we start at 9:55...it makes SUCH a difference. damn all you Thornlea people who have a PD day today..i thkn that that is just blasphemous (sp?).

for all of you who e-mail and i don't answer its not because i don't love you...its more that i'm wrapped up in my little world and i don't feel like letting you in :-) I"M JOKING. i haven't been online all taht much so answering e-mail isn't always a priority mainly because i've been doing a lot of research on the net. so bare with my humble soul.

my palm pilot ROCKS its keeping me so damn organized. and i'm already an organized person so imagine the wonders its doing. i swear having a palm pilot makes you want ot be a better person.

i need a mini-holiday. OMG speaking of mini...did anyone watch Springer last ngiht? he had all these midgets..it was HILARIOUS. he even had a mini-jerry and a mini-steve. i have NEVER laughed so hard. what was even funnier was that my economics teacher Gotsis started talking about it then we had a whole discussion on Ally McBeal and what should become of Greg (yummmm jesse l. martin) and ally.

i invented a new saying today *McCrack Burger*. for example if someone was acting crazy i would say *what did you have for lunch today, a mccrack burger?*. that basically means "guy something had to be in your food cause you are CRAZY". hehe i enjoy that McCrack Burger. OMG and its worse when you have a McCrack Burger and fries cause then you are just feasting...wrose still is a McCrack Burger combo ...cause then you have all the crack ass stuff in there. today i was talking about crack with someone and i was SO worried he thought i was talking about real crack. oy oy.

i should be off...i'm neglecting my economis work a bit now.

woohoo lion king tickets came int he mail...but lets pretend that they didn't so that i have something to be excited about in around February or March :-)

tata

tonya

Time: 10:52pm

Stuck in my head:everything is everything by ms. hill

In the cd player: nothing

On KISS92: nadda

Strewn on the couch: The Shipping News (will i ever finish it??)

On the tube:zippo

Random Quote: hehe

Anxiously Anticipating:
nailing rachael to a cross (oops that ain't happening), meeting joely fisher and believe it or not...SCHOOL

Craving:ovaltine (my mom is making me some right now)

Random Discovery: sarah my subbing in dance teacher is cary shields' (aka sex god) sister

Link Me Baby One More Time: randolph now has a website

Days until my birthday (september 13):358

Mail me for my birthday:

Tonya Facey
365 Westmount Ave. #1B
Toronto, ON
M6E 3N3

Days until Laura's Birthday (dec. 3): 73

September 19, 1999

oy how much do i suck at updating. i always have the intention of updating but it doesn't always work out that i actually *do* update. i think my bananamute is getting slightly frustrated that i don't update. so this update goes out to hannah out in whitby...the girl with the name that is the same backwards AND forwards...now how is that for excitement??

i would just like to start out by talking about my extreme organizational skills. i have been SUCH a good girl. for my bio lab on the sheeps brain i did all this extra research on the internet to get more info and have a better lab report. and my sister gave me this Palm Pilot..its this kick ass heavy duty computer organizer thing and i've been organizing myself with it all day. i have my month planned out and when i have to get certain things done. like right now i'm researching for my english ISU. laura helped me choose my topic : the immigrant experience. i think i'll look at someone from the caribbean (breath, eyes, memory) from europe (Tis) and from china or japan...i'm not sure what book tho...any suggestions? i'm being so organized its not funny.

oy vey yesterday was SUCH a frustrating day. my sister came to town and rented a car so that we could go to Ikea and get my computer desk for my b-day. so we went up there and bought stuff and realized the desk was WAAAAAAAYYYYYY to heavy so we decided to hae it delivered by tuesday..no biggie. but we took home the drawer and the chair and i spent saturday afternoon + evening putting them together. i thought i was going to have a heartattack. it was so icredibly stressful..all those nuts and bolts and screwdrivers...i'm a crafty and carpentery kind of gal but the ikea stuff was crazy. all you have are diagrams of what you are supposed to do. i honestly almost had a nervous breakdown...my hands were shaking for the whole evening because of puting that together. it really stressed me out.

i saw mickey blue eyes starring Hugh Grant the other night. it was very very cute. i love hugh grant...he is oddly charming..i think its the british accent thang happening. he could read a phone book and i'd be a happy girl. oy now i've gotten myself in a hugh grant mood...i feel like seeing notting hill again. now THAT was a cute movie. i mean julia AND hugh....alll that movie needed was some george clooney but i guess you can't win them all. yeah so Mickey Blue was abot this guy aka hugh who is engaged to marry this chickie aka janeane tripplehorn (i'm not entirley sure) whose father is a huge mob guy. it was actually pretty hilarious. not a thinking movie at all...it was pure physical comedy, which is always good and espcially on a saturday night cause who wants to do a lot of thinking on a saturday night. i hate seeing movies they always put me in that when do i get to be older mood. oy but we won't get into that today.

ummmm today was the Princess of Wales open house. it sucked ass. i bumped into turtle on the way and i met up with lisa cow and laura. there was NOTHING to do at all. you could go in the theatre and sit in the seats (wow i've never done THAT before) they had free food but the lines were MEGA long. there were also backstage tours or someting but you had to go early and get tickets or something like that. so basically we went in and left. but afterwards cow and i went to the concourse park and ate a hotdog and just talked so it was all fun.

right now hannah and i are discussing the sad state of journals. it feels like no one updates anymore or everyone shuts theirs down. i find myself reading the journals of people that id on't even know which isn't that fun at all. but i still enjoy ari and jennpease and a few others of people that i know..but its definitely a dying breed.

OMG jennpease i have been to e-mail you ALL week. thank you mille-dix fois for the book. it is FOR sure on my immediate reading list and the thought was much appreciated.

still no word from indigo :-( i guess i probably didn't get the job. oh well c'est la vie n'est pas? but i guess i'll have to wait and see. the store actually opened on saturday evening but they aren't totally finished building the place which is extremely odd. but as i said we'll have to wait and see. jan offered to pay me a set salary. so for instance i could make like 60$ a week even if i don't actually work taht many hours. that lady is DESPERATE. and she was saying how she's willing to give me more hours and stuff. and she's offering a raise and stuff. i'm very amused. she's bidding against a non-existing job.

okay i'm off off and away.

tonya

Time: 10:27pm

Stuck in my head:Mein Herr from Cabaret

In the cd player: missy elliot

On KISS92: its not right but its okay by whitney

Strewn on the couch: The Shipping News (will i ever finish it??)

On the tube:the news

Random Quote: "will you be making a nala bear?" (cow to me during some random discussion about lion king...the answer is *no* btw)

Anxiously Anticipating:
meeting joely fisher and the return to randolph after my one week hiatus

Craving:ovaltine

Random Discovery: don't get to excited about an open house at the POW

Link Me Baby One More Time: the ever wonderful ms. garel who is going to be NALA in the freaking Lion King

Days until my birthday (september 13):360

Mail me for my birthday:

Tonya Facey
365 Westmount Ave. #1B
Toronto, ON
M6E 3N3

Days until Laura's Birthday (dec. 3): 75

September 16, 1999

oy its becoming increasingly hard to update this bloody journal and that is not a good thing. its just that i get home some nights and i have no zest to update. but i'll make a better effort okay HANNAH. see hannah has been dissing me in her journal for not updating. but here i am updating so yay yay yay.

my life at the moment is SO not interesting. i go to school. i come home. i do homework. i talk to laura. i go on the internet. i sleep. those are my days. i should start infusing my journals with interesting stories just to keep y'all entertained. but i won't cause that is against journal ethics isn't it?

still haven't heard from INdigo :-( damn them i want to work for them. its so funny jan wants me to babysit forever it feels like. she is offering me more money to stay. and she was saying how that christine starts swimming lessons on wednesdays...am i supposed to care? if she can't take care of her kids then i'm assuming she has a problem or needs a full time nanny. i get increasingly frustrated with that family everyday. oy and they gave me my b-day present...a freaking bracelet. whatever happened to the days when i used to get GAP gift certificates? i don't do jewellery unless its a special occasion and even then i don't really do jewellery. but it IS the thought that counts...but sometimes you have to fuck thought and go with practical. the kids were fine..nothing to exciting. i put them all to bed early cause i REALLY wanted to re-watch the season finale of friends cause it wasjust THAT funny. i also took pictures of them that will be scanned soon.

oy that goddamn R. Kelly song is on the radio. it pisses me off SOOOO much. it makes me wish i didn't own a radio. and i'm too lazy to change the station because that involves having to re-set it to Kiss after and that doesn't sound too appealing. so now i'm stuck listening to this song that is no less than 6 minutes.

OMG fido has a new plan 200 minutes for 20$. that is SOOOOO good compared to everyone else. so i'm thinking i'll do that and maybe spend an extra 2$ per month and get voice mail...i'll think i'll do some research on fido's extra services and see what i would like. so i'll change my fido plan fairly soon so its all good.

today i ordered Lion King tickets with miss laura for us and our moms. i'm very excited already. may 29th...that is sooooo far away. so lets pretend that i don't have tickets so it will be a ncie surprise when the day comes. we are sitting 4th row of the Dress Circle which is good...just over to the left. i'm a happy camper. last time i saw lion king we were in the second to last row of the whole theatre in NYC..but it was centre section but still...second to last row is not fun. i thought that i was going to fall out of my seat.

um something else i made a mental note to talk about and now i have NO clue. oy don't we hate when that happens. i may be assistant stage manager for our school play and do some wardrobing responsibilities as well. i don't want to be on stage i don't think...only 4 parts in the show and i'm not in the mood to have to deal with all that..i mean everyone auditioning is friends so it would make it soooooo akward. so no play for me.

this is sooooo uninteresting i have so many e-mails i need to be writing but it isn't happening at all. maybe i'll jut go to bed and have a good night's sleep.

i'm off

tonya :-)

"can i get a what what?"

Time: 9:47pm

Stuck in my head:genie in a bottle

In the cd player: cabaret

On KISS92: unpretty by TLC

Strewn on the couch: The Shipping News (not feeling the vibe yet)

On the tube:Mad ABout You

Random Quote: something about a jewish neighbour that i can't remember at the moment

Anxiously Anticipating:
meeting joely fisher, seeing LAURA and HANNAH who i haven't seen in 130 days

Craving:ovaltine

Random Discovery: if you offer the young ones eggs they will come

Link Me Baby One More Time: the ever wonderful ms. garel who is going to be NALA in the freaking Lion King

Days until my birthday (september 13):363

Mail me for my birthday:

Tonya Facey
365 Westmount Ave. #1B
Toronto, ON
M6E 3N3

Days until Laura's Birthday (dec. 3): 78

September 14, 1999

oy oy oy oy. i haven't updated in about 3 days and its been 3 VERY busy days so there is soooo much stuff to tell and oh so little time. let me see where i left off. okay so we left off on saturday afternoon after my perscription filling. so now we move ontosaturady night. so you all will have to suffer thru the old stuff before the exciting birthday stuff.

saturday night was spent hunting for jenifer aubry...well not really. so all day laura and i had been planing to see jenifer. found out saskia was with jen in the jen mobile. turned out jen got in trouble with the police and couldn't play. long boring story...old news not worth continuing...point is didn't get to see jen play on saturday but i did have ice cream with jess, dani-lee, max , cow, damian, glen and well me. but on sunday i saw her play in yorkville. she rocked. yeah jen. go jen. hurrah for jen. i was with BIG LAURA. big laura, ali and i accidentally stole coffee from second cup...once again long story but NOT our fault.

so as i mentioned before Rachael (the bff) decided that she needs exercise so she decides to come dance. so la la la we dance we have fun. she takes siona's class and does fairly well but stresses over the fact that she can't turn and jump. ummm i discover that my new Randolph obsession (in addition to not instead of lea or siona) takes ballet 3 while i'm in pre-jazz on sunday. so that was exciting because she waved hi when she was looking thru the door. umm siona didn't do a goddamn combo cause its retardo class and she decided that working on chaine turns would be a terrific idea. so we did tht for like 35 minutes ...tonya was not very happy. rach and i had a fun time now she's coming to randolph 2 times a week so now we can actually spend time together which is good.

at some point on the weekend i got a call from Indigo at Yorkdale (not yet open but sooon). the guy wanted me to call him. so i called on monday and we had a chat for like 10 minutes and then he was like can you come in for an interview. so i did that today and it went well. first i talked to Greg for about 20 minutes and then he was like can you come back in 20 minutes and talk to the general manager Miriam. miriam was equally cool...very sweet. so she asked a gazillion questions about me and all that kind of stuff and itwas fun. i *like* interviews i've decided. indigo starts at $7.25/hour which is very nice compared to most retail. at the end miriam said that "i'd be hearing from them very soon". so that was that. then it was off to dance. oy i'm fully getting ahead of myself lets go back a day.

soooooo monday was my birthday as we have ALL been anticipating. i get to school at 8:45am to help elvira and kristin with *math problems*. turned out they decorated my locker and were going to take me to have sushi for lunch. so that was good. sushi was muy yummy. ummmm went to the doctor after school and got more prescriptions for anaprox and a prescription for a cream to but on my mosquito bite scars. so i RUSH home and it turns out i have something at the post office which i thought would be tapes...turns out that JENNPEASE sent me a book. she sent the bean trees which is a book that she loooooves. so merci mille fois ms. jennpease. then i RAN home again to get ready for an evening of fun filled stuff.

la la la i meet laura at st. andrew to go to shopsey's. then for some reason instead of crossing in front of shopsey's we cross in front of the alex...then i hear some one yell my name and i dind't know where the voice came from...turned out it was DANI-SAM. it was thrilling and a half let me tell you. i haven't seen her since before she went away. turns out she got a cabaret ticket and was coming to shopsey's. so la la la shopsey's...freakw was ther ..phil was there but no eddie (sob). so we got a table at the back of the restaurant much to cow's sadness because her *mother* had to call her on the cell phone and she wasn't sure if the signal would be picked up. turn s out the phone could still ring but it was fuzzy. so whatever. everything is good we sitting chilling when (can i get a what what?) lo and behold the phone rings and cow says its her mother wanting to sing me happy birthday so i was like um okay. so la la la take the phone cow's *mother* is singing happy birthday but VERY VERY well...like i've never head jennifer sing that well. so then i hand the phone back to cow and she shoves it back at me like wtf are you doing. and then she told me to go outside and talk. and i'm thinking i don't *really* need to talk to her mother. so i'm talking to *jennifer* and we're just chatting and i'm like ohhhhh dani cohen is here (allexcited) and she's like awww that's so sweet tell her that i say hi. then she was like i'm at a friend's houst out of town and i'm like cool. then the lightbulb goes on and i'm like I KNOW WHO YOU ARE. (well she had asked me a long time ago if i knew who it was and i said yes cause i thought i knew who it was). and she's like you didn't know before? and i'm like i *thought* i did but i guess i was wrong since you aren't lisa's mom. and she was like its SASKIA and i was like I KNOW THAT NOW SILLY how the heck are you?? oh fucking vey is all i can say. i was fully talking to her like she was lisa's mom for a good 3 minutes maybe. so by the time i realized it was sas i was laughing hysterically and feeling like SUCH and idiot but it was all good. we didn't *really* talk that much but it was coolio. so the story behind the whole thing is that laura, press, and lisa cow wrote sas a letter at her agency asking if she'd be willing to do the whole thang...and li li la la so sas was told to call lisa's mom's cell phone at 6:30pm on my birthday. i swear it was honestly 6:30 when she called..yeah sas for being a good girl. so that was the shopsey's fiasco. PLUS the shopsey's waiters sang happy birthday and gave me cake. all good .

CABARET ROCKED. i was VERY pleased with Norbert and Joely. cabaret is so interesting to watch and it makes the cd make SOOOOO much more sense. but i love love loved it. norbert rocked he was very cute as emcee. joely was good. i was surprised that she could sing. she was very cute. cabaret has a lot of talking so i apologize for saying taht Natasha Richardson sucks because she fully could have been AWESOME. so yeah cabaert. i got a picture with norbert but i got tired of waiting for Joely so we left. but cabaret was amazing.

that brings us to today. very tired. not feeling like going into detail. school is goooooooood. dance is good too. lea picked on me soooo much in class it was amusing. she didn't even know it was my b-day and she was picking on me. she yelled at me that i was a sex-ay momma and a diva and that i should work it. lea had various epihphanies today it was HILARIOUS. she thought raise da roof was the same as in tha house..i think you had to be there to get it. so i got various b-day greetings from dance people and a lovely present from max. i got a birthday hug and kiss from both siona AND lea which was good. found out that siona is going away on vacation for a week which means HOLIDAY for me. i'm not going to siona classes sans siona because that is blasphemous. then soon yi the receptionist and i had an argument over whether or not it was really my birthday. it was all good. and i saw abbas my homie. and those were the wonderful randolph adventures.

i'm off because its late and i haven't been at all productive.

ciao

tonya -- the queen of all things

P.S. i had an AWESOME birthday and thank you everyone for EVERYTHING it has been an incredible surprising and shocking day. so thank you about a billion and half times to everyone who has been muy coolio.

Time: 9:16pm

Stuck in my head:my head is too cloudy for songs

In the cd player: bootleg of cabaret in the tape deck

On KISS92: crazy by that spears chic

Strewn on the couch: The Shipping News (not feeling the vibe yet)

On the tube:CNN

Random Quote: "tonya's a sexy momma" (lea yelling at me in class today)

Anxiously Anticipating:
meeting joely fisher, seeing LAURA

Craving:ovaltine

Random Discovery: you're never too young to be a sex-ay momma

Link Me Baby One More Time: the ever wonderful ms. garel who is going to be NALA in the freaking Lion King

Days until my birthday (september 13):365

Mail me for my birthday:

Tonya Facey
365 Westmount Ave. #1B
Toronto, ON
M6E 3N3

Days until Laura's Birthday (dec. 3): 80