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Date: December 30, 1999
Journal Start Time
:
9:59am
Stuck in my head:
*I Try* by Macy Gray AND *Caught Out There* by Kelis
In the cd player:
Macy Gray *On How Life Is*
Song lyric of the moment:
I play it off but i'm dreaming of you
i'll keep my cool but i'm fiendin'
i try to say goodbye and i choke
i try to walk away and i stumble
though i try to hide it, it's clear
my world crumbles when you are not near
-- Macy Gray

Strewn on the couch:
Vinegar Hill (decent book but i'm not attached to it)
On the tube:
Rosie
Random Quote:
i have sentimental attachment to this section...i can't get rid of it
Anxiously Anticipating:
nothing at all
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Tanya's journal
Journal End Time:
10:51am

hello hello hello

i started this whole update last night but it wasn't progressing at all so i said fuck it, and i got off of the internet. it was just one of those days when i REALLY had nothing even remotely interesting to say. so i decided to spare you all from my mundaness (is that even a word??).

today i'm going to Castle Loma. Jan (mother of the children that i babysit for) is taking her kids and two other kids to Castle loma to see the show that they do there, and i said that i hadnt been there in ages, so now i get to go and look after Lil' Laura (aww just made the poor 2 year old sound like some rapstar). yah...so now today i'm off for fun filled adventures at Casa Loma, hopefully i'll make it back in one piece :-) then this evening i'm supposed to be seeing The Needfire at the Alex. it was totally random. apparently my father has tickets and asked me if i wanted to go. so i said sure why not. i wonder if Sarah really is in that show. i have ZERO interest in Needfire other than the Sarah factor. i'm not big on the Celtes. it's so funny that i'm seeing a show about Celtes, becuase NAdeen is OBSESSED with celtes and in history last year we learned that the Romans destrityed the Celtes, so Johanna and i decided that WE were romans and that we would pilage and rape Nadeen's women. okay maybe you had to be there...but it IS funny.

i'm quite the journal whore all of a sudden again. i have been reading soooo many over the past few days. when i make my new site i'm going to have this GIANT list of all the journals that i read. there are so many. i probably have about 17 or 18 that i check regularly. not to mention the random journals that i read every once in a while. wow. i didn't realize that iread so many journals. that's a lot of lives that i'm intruding on. but it's all good.

i'm sooooo hungry. it's already 10:21am and i haven't eaten anything. i'm getting ready to have me some perogies. i love perogies and sour cream. yumm. so fattening i'm sure, but Tonya does not concern herself with fat and calories. honestly, i just eat whatever i want whenever i want. i it two dinners everynight + tons of snacks. i've eaten mcdonald's every single day of the winter break so far i think. i know it's very gross of me. but i'm a happy camper so what can i say.

speaking of food. tomorrow at 1pm at marche if you want to come. e-mail me and say if you are coming so i have an idea of how many are going ad who will be there.

i'm loving this Macy Gray cd. she has a very cool voice and her lyrics rock. i think that everyone should invest in some Macy Gray. i'm not sure if she's popular in Canada, but i think that she is becoming famous in the U.S. coolio, she's on Fiona Apple's label i think, Clean Slate. speaking of Fiona Apple i have to get her new cd. i was obsessed with her...it must have been 3 or 4 years ago. we are needed the new Fiona Apple vibe.

i have sooo much homework to do it isn't even close to being funny. i have an economics ISU to get done. i have to analyze 20 articles. well actually i lie. 12 articles, 6 charts, and 2 cartoons. it is going to be easy but time consuming. then i have a bio lab to finish, but i'm already half done. i also have to rewrite my english essay that was pure shit. well not pure shit....maybe just diluted shit. i can't believe how fast thebreak has gone. my plan was to do some economics before babysitting because Jan had initially told me that she would need me around 2. but now she is saying 12:30 and that is SUCH a huge difference. so forget about doing work now. but it gives me more time for dinner because i'm going to the Indian Rice Factory. I LOVE Indian food. actually i haven't met a type of food that i really don't like. food is a good thing.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATT LAUER

sorry. i used to love that boy/man off. he cohosts the Today Show with Katie and his b-day is today. he's on vacation though, so he wasn't on tv this morning. i've had a lot of obsessions over the years. one day i should sit down and list them. maybe i'm obsessed with being obsessed. who knows.

ahh perogies are almost done. perogies are done and i jus finished eating a whole plate full. now i'm content. i think the potato is quite possibly the best vegetable. it is so damn versatile. you can eat potatoes all day long. for breakfast you can have hash browns or even latkes. lunch you whip up some french fries. and then possibilities at dinner are endless...au gratin, mashed, baked.. i could go on forever..but i won't.

okay i'm off now to begin my day.
cioa ciao
tonya


Date: December 28, 1999
Journal Start Time
:
9:10pm
Stuck in my head:
Girlfriend/Boyfriend by Blackstreet feat. Janet Jackson AND Turn The Lights Down Low by Bob Marley feat. Lauryn Hill
In the cd player:
Much Dance 2000
Song lyric of the moment:
Boom boom boom boom/ i want you in my room/ let's spend the night together/ from now until forever/ boom boom boom boom/ i want a double boom/ let's spend the night together/ together in my room
-- The Venga Boys (boom boom boom boom)

Strewn on the couch:
Vinegar Hill (enjoyable so far)
On the tube:
something about kids in jail
Random Quote:
i have sentimental attachment to this section...i can't get rid of it
Anxiously Anticipating:
new years i suppose...
Link Me Baby One More Time:
CDnow just because you can hear TONS of sound clips
Journal End Time:
9:42pm

Yo yo yo :-)

for some reason it feels like i haven't updated in forever...but it was only yesterday morning. i think i'm losing my mind.

i would like to announce that i'm the proud owner of the second Austin Powers video..you know, *the spy who shagged me*. i'm absolutely obsessed with that movie. i'm very excited to watch it again. i got soooo into the whole Powers vibe this summer that i ended up acquiring BOTH cds from the movie. talk about buying into publicity. i'm such a whore. i have to see this *American Pie* movie that everyone used to talk about. i want to rent it, but everyone says that i shouldn't watch it with my mom. anyone wanna kidnap me and let me watch American Pie with you?

oy fucking vey. as soon as i become obsessed with Jenny Lopez aka Homegirl #1 shit hits the fan. her and puffy (her boyfriend) managed to get themselves arrested while at this club in NYC. apparently gunshots were fired and puffy pulled out a gun or something sketchy like that' i don't really know the story so i won't say anything really. but i DO know that Homegirl #1 is NOT being charged...so it's all good. however i did order her cd from Columbia House yesterday. i ordered her and Deborah Cox. from BMG i'm ordering the best of En Vogue, Mariah Carey's number one hits, Faith Evans and the first BSB cd. i learned that the first BSB does not exist in the U.S. you know the cd that here is called Backstreet's Back...well in the U.S. its' just called Backstreet boys. it's all very strange. it's because the didn't get famous there until recently. and that is my music lesson for the day.

i'm soooo in the mood to download MP3s today. there are so many songs i'd like to have. you know that song by Kelis "caught out there" i'm obsessed with it. the hook is dangerous. "i hate you so much right now." i'm loving that vibe soooo much. and she's only 19. junior girl power. my other jam of the moment is definitely the new Lauryn Hill/ Bob Marley thang. it's from the Best Man soundtrack and it's just rocking my little old world. i've been the BIGGEST BET whore the past few days. i'm obsessed with the show Hits on the Street or whatever it's called. they play such fun music. i've even been watching Much More Music. i don't want to hear any snickers because that station rocks. another good show is Blind Date. it's on at 5:30 on CityTv. it is SO much fun i think everyone should watch it.

and that is all from the entertainment desk.

sorry i lie..one more thang. Britney Spears has a new video. she's back on the ballad thing. it's a cute video..whatever. it's britney looking all cute and youthful and innocent. her clothes are kickass in that video though and her hair loooks nice.

last night i went babysitting at 6pm. i didn't leave until 12:30am. no one said i'd be there that late. at like 11:30pm the mom calls and was like i just realized how late it is, we'll be home soon. not that i minded or anuything. the children were long asleep and the house was full of chocolate and cashews so i was a happy girl. i watched the most tv i have watched in a very long time. OMG i'm re-obsessed with Matt Damon. for a while i was IN LOVE with that boy..then i kind of forgot about him.t hen last night he was on Letterman and the flame was rekindled. he looked soooooooooooooo sexy it was not even funny. and he told the cutest story about Ben Affleck talking to Bill Clinton about privatizing Amtrak...oy i was pissing my pants just because it is such a *me* story. but we don't have to get into details about that. bottom line is that i'm in love with Matt Damon and i must go see The Talented Mr. Ripley eventhough i don't know what it's about. i alwayd do that...i'll go to see a movie strictly based on who is in it and not care about plot or reviwes. that is how i ended up seeing Three Kings starring my Husband aka Georgie. it was a freaking WAR MOVIE. i don't DO war. yet it was one of hte best movies that i've seen all year...very enjoyable.

okay. so i've been readinga bout this whole Y2K business and it does not sound fun. now i'm all paranoid about my computer...i haen't done anything to it. does anyone know what i should be doing to it to make it Y2K ready? okay so i'm doubting the world is going to end (if it does DAMN me for never having seen a penis..) but i'm all freaked about people going CRAZY. like rioting and stuff. i don't want to be on the street New Year's just in case. and for all you saying she is crazy for not going anywhere..do not fear..i NEVER do anything for New Year's i think it is SUCH a non-holiday. so no one bother asking me to do anything at 11:59am cause i'll be at home stuffing my face. but whoever DOES want to come for lunch on new years eve feel free to e-mail me.

apparently i got FrontPage2000 for x-mas but my sister forgot to pack it. GO ME. i'm loving the FrontPage vibe. i'm a microsoft WHORE. i think i overuse the word whore.

OMG i'm having SUCH a looking good day. my hair looks wonderful. i'm wearing these older jeans that are hugging my ass in JUST the right way. i was dancing in front of the mirror today and i stopped and was like "DAMN i'm cute." i wish it wasn't winter so that i could wear summer whore wear. i miss summer and wearing tank tops and having old russian men looking down my shirt. ohhhh memories.

alrighty. i'm off off and away.
tonya :-)

 


Date: December 27, 1999
Journal Start Time
:
9:54m
Stuck in my head:
all things BSB
In the cd player:
Backstreet Boys -- Millennium
Song lyric of the moment:
Strewn on the couch:
Vinegar Hill (enjoyable so far)
On the tube:
soon to be Rosie O.
Random Quote:
i have sentimental attachment to this section...i can't get rid of it
Anxiously Anticipating:
nothing realy
Link Me Baby One More Time:
my two favourite stores...GAP and Indigo
Journal End Time:
11:03am

well last night was the night of bizarro dreams. first of all i had a dream that siona was back from her holidays in B.C. so i was in the elevator and she got on and i didn't realize that it was her so i just said hi casually. then SHE was like fine be a bitch, i thought you were obsessed with me. then i told her that i'd pretend to be obsessed with her if that is what her heart desird,. she was also A LOT skinier than normal. at some point in that dream i ended up driving her car (siona has a car?) and i had to paralel park. it was amsuing. then i had a dream involving GAC that i can't remember.

so i had a nice x-mas. i got jazz shoes, flared khaki cargo-ish pants from GAP, a pea coat from J. Crew, 3 books about amerian universities, bracelets, $50, 120$, and 75$ to the GAP. i was a happy girl. so we rented Notting Hill and watched that. i LOVE that movie sooo much. it is just WAY too cute. and it has Julia AND Hugh (Roberts and Grant) which just raises the cuteness factor. then we had a kick ass dinner. i LOVE roasted chicken so much. i must have eaten like ten pounds of food :-)

what else happened? laura and i randomly called Emery from Boca Raton, FL. it was much fun to talk to her since we hadn't spoken to her since July after the whole Boston fiasco. she got into NYU for next year to study music technology, which is like producing and stuff. very coolio for her. she is on pure crack. i love that girl.

this entry is just pure shit. i apologize.

yesterday was boxing day and i did very well for myself. i spent over 260$ so it wasn't too bad. i bought another pair of GAP cords, a hot pink profleece zip up thing, a v-neck sweater in yellow (brings the total up to 3), and the black sweater with snowflakes on it. oh yah i also got the pink comfy pyjamas. i also bought 3 cds for myself because if you bought three at sunrise then you got one free. so i got Backstreet Boys, Macy Gray, and MuchDance 2000 for myself and i bought my mom Brian McKnight. i'm obsesed with Much Dance. no one understands my obsession at all. it's pure trashy music but its my soundtrack and what Kiss92 plays all the time. it has Eminem, Jay-z, 702, Britney,Jennifer Lopez, Lauryn Hill, Blackstreet, Puff Daddy, Len, Will Smith, TLC, Whitney Houston, Joee, Ricky Martin, Vengaboys, Boomtang Boys, Prozzak. it is quite the musical feast for the ears. so don't laugh you dirty hobags. Elvira and i started shopping at 9am at Bay and Bloor. we spent over and hour at the GAP there and then we headed down to eaton centre. eaton centre was an absolute ZOO. it was ridiculous. but fun. we met up with my mom and some point and bought my sister another gift so it was all good.

where my girls at? from the front back well if you feelin that put one hand up can you repeat? that tryin to take my man see i don't need that.

i'm loving the new Jenny Lopez video for feelin' so good. i think i'm going to go log on to columbia house and order On The 6 right about now. i'm obsessed with Jenny Lopez i've decided. who was i obsessed with before? i haven't' had a female obsession in a while. like there are the eternel obsessions like Meg Ryan and Madonna..but no frivilous of the moment obsessions. so Jenny Lopez it is. i also have to order some stuff from BMG. i'm still tryin' to narrow it down. but i know i'm for sure getting Deborah Cox.

i think i had more to say. but now it escapes me. today my mom and i are going shopping at the GAP :-) the hat and scarves aer on sale so i want one to wear with my pea coat. i'm thinking of getting purple. i would have bought it yesterday but my mom told elvira not to let me buy anything else. so i couldn't :-(
i'm off
tonya


Date: December 24, 1999
Journal Start Time
:
6:49pm
Stuck in my head:
Back that thang up by JUVENILE
In the cd player:
Chantal Kreviazuk
Song lyric of the moment:
oh God...if you're out there won't you hear me. i know we've never talked before. and oh God the man i love is leaving. won't you take him when he comes to your door.
-- Hold On by Sarah McLachlan

Strewn on the couch:
Vinegar Hill (enjoyable so far)
On the tube:
CityPulse
Random Quote:
i have sentimental attachment to this section...i can't get rid of it
Anxiously Anticipating:
Boxing Day Rampage
Link Me Baby One More Time:
my two favourite stores...GAP and Indigo
Journal End Time:
7:08pm

hello boys and girls

welcome back. i didn't realize that i hadn't updated in soooo long. it never feels as long as it really is. but for me it was quelle shock to return and realize that my last update was on december 20th. so let me fill you in on the wonder that is my life.

exams of course are finished. i NEVER know how i do on French exams so we won't talk about that. Biology was soooo easy. too bad i didn't study. had i studied i could SO see myself getting 100% on it...but i didn't study. i just felt SOOOOO yuki. i had a gross cold and i was beyond exhausted. but i know that i didn't fail it because i had enough memory in me to do okay on the exam. then yesterday i went to school to talk to Ms. Misko (staff sponsor for GAC) about fleece jackets. i kept on asking her if there was anything i could do like distribute to teachers...and she said no. so after elvira's exams elvira stopped by and Misko put her to work. very strange.

today has been quite the uneventful day. i've basically just sat around doing nothing...which was surprisingly enough okay by me. i did however get some x-mas presents which is always good. Jan stopped by with Christine and Laura and they gave me presents..75$ for the GAP and earrings. i'm very happy about the GAPness. that will definitely be used towards by Boxing Day Rampage. then the father stopped by and gave me 120$ which is also very good. my sister called and told me to take 50$ out of her account...so for boxing day i so far have 245$ that isn't even really mine. score for me :-)

oy vey this is x-mas from hell. okay so yah i'm not going to NYC OR D.C. BUT now my sister is stuck in D.C. because they overbooked her flight and she can't get another one to Toronto. oy vey is alli'm saying about that one. she is not very happy at all. she has NO food in her fridge at all except for ketchup and all the food places are closed. it will be a strange x-mas had by all.

i also spoke to elvira today and we plotted our B.D.R. (boxing day rampage). we are meeting at Yonge and Bloor at 9am the going to the bank and going to MegaGap at Bay and Bloor then we are heading doing to Eaton Centre. i have NO clue how much i will be spending at all...but i'm prepared for the worst. my new obsession is the Crazy Sweater from Gap. you know the stripey one with ALL the colours. i saw it on Traci Melchor from CityPulse and it looked SOOOO cool so now i want it. if i don't get it then i'll get the crazy scarf because it is equally cute.

how did the holidays approach so fast? christmas is TOMORROW and the millennium will be here in 7 days. how fucked is that?? i cannot even comprehend the speed at which time is flying. the past 2 years have flown by..but at the same time it feels like its standing still. i still have 1.5 years before i go off to school. that is sooooooo long. anyhoo...how is everyone spending new years? i for one will be ate home eating lots of food and becoming obese. i haven't danced in ages yet i've been eating like a horse. actually ... i've been eating like several horses. i swear i eat 5 good-seized meals a day. anyone want to get together with me on New Years Eve to watch me eat?? i'm joking...but seriously is there any of you out there that maybe want to have New Years Eve lunch or brunch or something? i wanna see people before the Millennium (and not for the kinky reasons that Lisa Cow is probably imagining). e-mail me if you want to work something out.

i'm playing around with the idea of making a new website...maybe something dedicated to Julia Santana or Tricia Young...or maybe a Maggie Benjamin website. i think i'd really like to put my creative endeavours towards something of that sort...any ideas people?? okay...you guys all know i'm joking right? i would like to make a new webpage...maybe a personal page..but who knows. i gor FrontPage2000 free from Tripod and i'd like to fool around with it a bit. so we shall see what happens with that...i'll keep you posted.

i almost started to do Tae Bo today but then my mom came home and i stopped. i did however do the Linda Garneau crunch exercise...she makes you do about a gazillion and one crunches...it ends up beingn kind of painful. i was looking at my stomach today and it is starting to look good. i'm going to start doing crunches everyday. OMG I FOUND MY STRAPLESS BRA. (insert screams of joy HERE). i have been wearing it all day. i'm so happy to have it back. my mom found it for me. it has been missing for soooo long. we've been bonding today :-) it has been very enjoyable...its doing a very good job supporting what needs to be supported...however i do need to adust it every so often. i shouldn't wear it regularly because people would think that i was fondling myself all the time and we don't want that :-)

okay i'm off... i'll update tomorrow..no worries.

tonya :-)


Date: December 20, 1999
Journal Start Time
:
10:41pm
Stuck in my head:
On My Own from Les Miz
In the cd player:
Les Miz
Song lyric of the moment:
and remember/ the truth that once was spoken/ to love another person/ is to see the face of God -- from the Les Miz finale
Strewn on the couch:
some bio books that haven't been touched :-)
On the tube:
Frasier
Random Quote:
i have sentimental attachment to this section...i can't get rid of it
Anxiously Anticipating:
boxing day GAP rampage, end of exam hell
Link Me Baby One More Time:
none today
Journal End Time:
11:06pm

only two more exams and then exam hell is over...fineto. i'm shitting bullets. tomorrow is french. yuck. wednesday is bio. yuck. but then it will be the holidays and everything will be all good...well except for that economics ISU and the rewrite for my crappy english essay...but that is another story. as we speak i'm looking for criticism on Albert Camus' L'Etranger...we read it in french now i just want to hear what other people have to say about it...i have read the book, i'm not cheating.

what was my day like today you all might be wondering...well let me tell you :-) this morning i woke up and heading over to Elvira's house to do some studying with her and Kristin for our OAC english exam. it was fun stuff. as soon as i got there we got all involved in food and made tea and ordered a pizza. but we did get studying done so it's all good. i've decided that i don't like kristin. well it isn't a new revelation or anything. i went to Winona with her (grades 7&8) and found her annoying. then in grade 10 she transferred to jarvis and i gave her a chance and became friends with her. but more and more everyday i'm realizing how frustrated i am with her. i would really rather not be friends with her. i know that sounds harsh but it's soooo true. and you can't just stop being friends with someone...well i guess you can but it is muy difficult. i would like to start distancing myself from her, but the problem is that elvira is friends with her and that would get in the way and la la la. she is kind of a bitch...but not a bitchy bitch.. more of a snide bitch. and she is WAY too pushy. it is very frustrating. i think my distancing myself from her is already starting to work because she has this whole issue involving guidance that she refuses to tell me about. but today she was soooooo rude about it. the guidance councellor stopped her in the halls today to talk about it before our exam. after our exam the three of us were walking down the hall and she was like OMG elvira i have to tell you what happened. so then she starts whispering about it...so i was just like you know something i'm just going to go home now so you all can talk. i was SOOOOO rude about it. i don't even care but there is me and my main ploy to distance myself. i wonder if she reads this....that could be interesting.

OMG I WANT SEA MONKEYS. if someone were to go to science city and surprise me with sea monkeys i would have to marry you. well maybe not marry you...but i'd perform a favour of your choice. i'm obsessed with them. i have never in my life seen these creatures...but i'm amazed by them. i wonder if there is a website...found one. i'm in need of sea monkeys. my own little family of little things. oh i will obtain sea monkeys and you will witness the change in me.

ally mcbeal was soooooo sad today. i felt soooooooo bad for elaine. basically what happened was that she found a baby in a manger and decided to keep it. la la la she went to court and after a rough time the judge awarded her custody. then at the end the mother who abandoned the kid came back and apparently she was all depressed and abandoned her baby. so elaine gave the kid back because she realized it would be best for him, and for her to keep him would be selfish. oy it was so heartwrenching. it wasn't really...i had the urge to say heartwrenching. the FUNNIEST was sexy ally. how must of a good job did she do witht he x-mas carol?? i was very proud of little miss ally. she didn't radiate sex (she is too thin to radiate anything) but she did a good job.

tonight i went to Christine's holiday concert. it was very cute. little kids are SOOOO tone deaf. i was trying so hard not to laugh my ass off. they sang poppin' corn, dobbin dobbin and day-o. it was quite the musical feast for the ears.

danny gave me journal props and told me to continue on my tangents. i'm glad someone out there appreciates them :-)

with that,
i'm out...
Tonya


Date: December 19, 1999
Journal Start Time
:
8:42pm
Stuck in my head:
My Love is Your Love by the divine miss H.
In the cd player:
Whitney Houston
Song lyric of the moment:
loving him is wonderful/ something like a miracle/ rest assured i feel the same you do -- Mary J. Blige
Strewn on the couch:
The Outsider by Albert Camus and Mad Shadows by Marie Clair Blais
On the tube:
Touched by an Angel
Random Quote:
this section will disappear unless i'm provided with quotes
Anxiously Anticipating:
boxing day GAP rampage, end of exam hell
Link Me Baby One More Time:
my hairdresser
Journal End Time:
9:12pm

hello guys and dolls

this is my journal entry so that i can avoid studying for exams. i have OAC english tomorrow and i spent a large part of my day re-reading The Wars by Timothy Findley. i don't like that book. it's well written and all that jazz but i totally don't feel the war vibe at all. war disturbs me beyond belief. i find it so hard to believe that people my age were being sent off to foreign countries to fight for something that they didn't necessarily believed in. i could go on and on about this...remind me to one day.

i love having an x-mas tree. it makes the whole apartment smell so woodsy. woodsy is a good thing. and it's just so pretty. it's just flashing lights all over and stuff...it's my attempt at a classy tree. did i talk about this yesterday? bear with me. its all silver, gold and clear. i love my tree.

i took an insanity test today and it turns out that i'm 67.2727% insane. beware.

i just realized that i'm not taking any dance classes this week. i have a feeling that Randolph is closed for half of this week. and i'm babysitting over the first half of the week...so dancing is not a possibility at all. that kind of sucks because i hate having to go to class all schleppy and un-flexible. but we shall see.

i haven't been outside all day. that scares me. i've been holed up reading. now i'm avoiding biology and french studying. i'm terrible. i hate feeling guilty about not doing things that i should be doing. it's just such a stupid feeling. i'm conscious of what i need to be doing, but at the same time i just don't. bio exams always scare me, mainly because i'm not a bio chic. bio is one of those classes that i have to actually work at doing well...and believe me it ain't fun.

i got the new IM today. it has been providing me with endless amusement. it makes the silliest faces. and it even has stock reports. i know when i'm on the internet the first thing i'm concerned about is how the NASDAQ is doing. i'm even more concerned abotu the DOW Jones industrial average. now IM provides me with these numbers constantly.

i'm soooooo hungry. we have no food in our house for some reason. i had chicken for dinner and it was yummy yummy in my tummy. a little too much salt..but still decent. McDonald's has been making THE best Big Macs all of a sudden. maybe it's because i hadn't had them in awhile. in any event they are to die for. i'm such a Big Mac whore. i've had 2 in the past 3 days. and the day taht i didn't have them i had Hash Brows for breakfast. i feel like such trash eating a mcdonald's breakfast. it just seems sooooo wrong. but McD's hash browns are sooooo scrumptious. they have that crispness to them and they are warm and potatoey on the inside. geez...let me take a moment. that is another way to my heart...McD's hash browns...and one of those wee little containers of apple juice. i need to make a list of ways to get to my heart. there are so many little stupid things that just make me so overjoyed that it's ridiculous. i think i talked about this two days ago so i don't need to repeat anything.

why isn't my phone ringing? i know i have friends out there...somewhere. people call me so that i can avoid studying. but i';m terrible i don't really call people. i don't do it to be bitchy but phone calls are usually one of the last things on my mind. so if i dont' call you it's not because i don't love you.

i got my first Rebekah Jude Allen Org Not Posted today. boy was it thrilling. i used to be obsessed with RJA. well not obsessed obsessed...i just used to read her journal ALL THE TIME. OMG everyone remember Cybermelli? now that was one journal that used to thrill me all the time. ohhh those NYLQs :-)

what else can i talk about...well my sister is getting married. that is quite the random news isn't it. i could bore you with details how she denied that she was going out with anyone and all that jazz...but i won't because i'm bored of that whole scene.

i wish we had french fries.

ciao ciao
tonya


Date: December 18, 1999
Journal Start Time
:
11:56pm
Stuck in my head:
the new ODB song (hey dirt-ay, baby i got your money...)
In the cd player:
BSB
Song lyric of the moment:
You been sucking his dick, Tasting my clit. Just the side chick, on the side bitch. i'm the prize bitch, keep it silent, don't make me violent. -- Missy Elliot
Strewn on the couch:
re-reading The Wars for my OAC english exam
On the tube:
SNL
Random Quote:
i need to get rid of this section
Anxiously Anticipating:
boxing day GAP rampage
Link Me Baby One More Time:
my hairdresser
Journal End Time:
12:46am

howdy partners

well it is pretty darn late...well not really, just queen wimp. i have been so tired lately it is not even close to being funny. i've taken mid-afternoon naps two days in a row. that is soooo uncharacteristic of me. but having a nap is soooo nice. except that i feel disoriented when i wake up. it's just a little kick of energy in the middle of the day. i recommend the nap.

today my mom and i went on a holy quest for a tree. she wanted to go to Sun SUn fruit Market on Northcliffe to get one because they were pretty and cheap. then somehow we ended up at the Galleria looking for a tree. then we went to McDonald's and ended BACK where we started from. so we got a tree from Sun Sun (they have THE best bananas). so we came home and did the tree. it was nice. my tree is very pretty. it is classy. i decided i wanted it with white lights and only gold and silver decorations. i should take a picture and scan it so you can all see and admire my decorative skills.

i need to see what i said in my last update. i have no idea where i left off in my life.

i went to GAP today (quelle surprise...like i wasn't there yesterday). Elvira and i are going shopping on boxing day and i'm buying the entire store out. i'm making a list of what i want from there. but of course my list will be too big and i'll put items on it that i don't want at all just so that i can cross them off and feel noble because it makes me feel like i've made a decision. okay here is what i want: the ProFleece zip-up in pink, the ProFleece cardigan in red, puffy j acket in silver (not like i'm not getting a peacoat), another one of those v-neck sweaters, another ProFleece v-neck, the grey and red turtleneck, the button up shirt with ruffles, PYJAMAS....they have THE best pyjamas..they are all fleecy or flannely and sooooo comfy looking. so that is what is on my list. we'll see how much of that i end up getting :-) i'm such a GAP whore. i can't help it. now i'm trying to convert people to Gapdom. i've successfully converted Max i think. just have to introduce people to ProFleece and then they realize that it is pure sex and they love the GAP forever. Lara can sympathsize (sp?) with me.

i'm frustrated and i'm not sure why. nothing out of the ordinary has happened to frustrate me...well other than exams. maybe that is why i'm so tired...i'm over frustrated. i really need to floss. flossy is fun. then you have a REALLY good brush and it makes life so clean feeling.

today Nadeen had a b-day dinner. we went to The Host, which is this kick ass indian restaurant. nadeen is obsessed with my oddities. for instance, i REFUSE to use the soap in our school washrooms. it smells TERRIBLE and dries out my hands. i don't even think it's real soap. so i told nadeen that soap is for people who piss and get shit all over their hands when they wipe themselves. somehow half my school now knows that. oy vey is all i'm saying about that. there is another oddity but i can't remember. oh yeha...she's obsessed with telling EVERYONE that i'm a perv. first of all i'm not a perv. secondly, it is no one's business if i am. i'm not offended by it any way, shape, or form...but i just think it's funny that she is so obsessed with me. oy vey... kristin, johanna and nadeen are (secretly) getting me penis gummies for x-mas. yes you heard me right. when they went the Condom Shack (one just opend up by our school) they were all sold out of them, so they contemplated getting me a penis lollipop. how scandolous is that? a penis lollipop. i suppose it would be good practice for the BIG night. haha. not like there is EVER going to be a big night. i just need to suck it up and except the fact i'm never seeing a penis. ROTFLMAO. re-read the last sentence. suck it up. hahahaha. sorry now i'm just going on a tangent and feeling sorry for myself and my lack of...well ya know...so we'll stop this wallowing right now :-) maybe i am a perv...

i can't belive x-mas is here. only one week. it crept up and bit me in the ass. hehe now how is that for imagery?

OMG i'm SOOOO in the mood to go to a full house website. that show is da bomb. it is so warm and fuzzy. i like little michelle and little stephanie. when stephanie got to be old and started hanging around with Gia the show just became silly. the stupidest things make me happy.

journals suck. no. journals don't. I suck. i'm not i don't have enough inhibition to really say what is on my mind. i'm not thinking of anything in particular...but just everything in general. i mean i could speak my mind...but i'm sure i'd alienate a lot of people. i think too much about a lot of stuff. and read to much into certain things. hehe now i probably have people thinking. stop thinking. i'm babbling. it's teh spices. they are getting to my head and eating away at my brain.

i wish i were a really good dancer. totally not for any deep personal reasons. i want to dance and have people look at me and say "wow, that girl can dance". kind of in the same way i want to write a book. just so that i can say that i've written a book. but seriously, being a good dancer is SUCH an admirable quality. i'm captivated by people who are amazing dancers. they don't even have to be techincally amazing...they just have to have that spark. i wish i had the time and money to work at being an incredible dancer. i wish i were in Jazz3. i don't mean be in jazz3 like that red-headed chic Katherine who goes to Jazz3 and pre-jazz but sucks ass. i want to be one of those GOOD people. in saying all this...i'm not a BAD dancer. i definitely don't have that spark. can you develop the spark? i think it goes back to my whole shyness and non-revealing quality. i'm a very internal person. i keep myself distant enough from people so that they don't ever *really* know me. that sounds so dark. but i don't like acting at all, and i don't like the acting side to dancing. i'm just fucked in the head. i'm tired of mediocrecy. i don't want to settle. this tangent was initially supposed to be the start of a story about my class with linda garneau yesterday (that max was SUPPOSED to come to but didn't...). but for some reason i don't feel like talking about it. you can insert your own story. linda rocks. cute stuff. fun combo. tina turner. la la la. more meaningless dribble.

do i sound bitter? i hope i don't sound bitter. i tell my mom constantly that i'm bitter. she worries about my bitterness. i think it all stems back to my disappointment in humanity. but we won't talk about that because i'm getting over that and realizing that that is what makes life interesting. so shhhhh.

i was looking at jennifer lopez in people magazine today and she is very hot. and that is all ihave to say about that/.

i need to add a song lyric of the moment on my top bar. i have a new one. it is muy dirty and yuki. i'm putting it up now. the first part is raunch. it's from this Missy song where she realizes her and this girl have been sleeping withs ame guy. pure ghetto fun. where the heck is the ODB song. i'm obsessed with it. the hook is so much fun to sing: hey dirt-ay, baby i got your money, don't you worry, i said hey, baby i got your money. Kelis sings the hook. she is SOOO scary. her song is bizarre. you know the one where she is screaming: i hate you so much right now. freaky stuff.

okay press is amking me stop typing cause she wants to read this so i must be off.
cioa ciao
tonya :-)


Date: December 16, 1999
Journal Start Time
:
9:13pm
Stuck in my head:
What a girl wants...
In the cd player:
Missy
Strewn on the couch:
NOTHING but soon i'll start reading Vinegar Hill
On the tube:
soon to be ER
Random Quote:
i need to find me some quotes
Anxiously Anticipating:
the end of exams and x-mas
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Randolph's site has new additions
Journal End Time:
9:37pm

oy. my mom is listening to fucking EZ-rock. i'm not an EZ rock type of gal but it sure is making me happy. they just played wind beneath my wings by bette midler :-) ROTFLMAO ROTFLMAO. my mom just walked in and was like wow gavin hope rocks. apparently EZ rock played 2 of his songs back to back. hey laura...i want to write you the ultimate love song :-)

wow i failed a math exam today...that was fun. it wasn't even my fault. the teacher who wrote it, Ms. Toth is absolutely evil and put stuff that wasn't ANYWHERE in the textbook. it was not very fun at all. the multiple choice was incredibly hard. but we won't talk about that. i kicked ass on my geographie exam though :-) on one page the teacher forgot to get rid of some of the answers so i got that stuff right. my geographie teacher isn't the sharpest tool in the shed. so we are very happy at geographie...we are looking at an exam mark in the 90s i think. i have media tomorrow at 9am and i have to read 4 articles. i haven't EVER read these articles. oy vey is all i'm saying about that.

i love me some Monsieur Felix and Mr. Norton cookies. now that is some good food. they are best when left in the fridge for a day. i bought some yesterday to celebrate the beginning of exams. i like ANY flavour :-) so any of you out there that want to surprise me and want to win my heart over give me those cookies. i'm actually very easy to please...i like pretty things and typically romantic things...like chocolate and lace...is lace a typically romantic thing? do i even LIKE lace? i think i'm totally talking out of my ass crack right about now. what else do i like....butterflies and flowers and...wow i'm going on a tangent..i'll stop now.

today Nadeen and i were studying for geographie and out of no where she was like "how do you feel about your boobs?" it was THE most random thing. but of course without hestiation i told her my sentiments (enjoyable but could be smaller for fashion reasons...certain styles fit better on smaller boobs...not drastically smaller..but just a wee bit). apparently her and Marcela were talking about my breasts one day and marcela was curious. do we see something wrong with THAT picture. i would like to say that i NEVER sit around with my girlfriends and discover other friends of ours' breasts. i was very amused by that.

what else happened in my day. i babysat. whatever no biggie. lara and lindsay that would be why i didn't call you back. i JUST got that message 20 minutes ago. i apologize.

last night i had the kookiest IM night. mary from grand rapids was on pure cheap crack. she was making me laugh so very hard. i was crying. the topic matter was scandolous as usual so i was muy amused.

hehe i ran into Jennifer Podemski today. i think Jennifer Podemski has a dollar store fetish because i have seen her come out of the same dollar store on yonge street about 3 times. i so often run into that girl. i don't talk to her (why would i?) but it amuses me that i always see her.

wow i sure love to do some babbling don't i?

cow's computer blew up on her. i find that funny. that must have been pretty damn scary.

i should go dancing tomorrow, but my motivation is very low. i will probably go to jazz1 anyhow. maybe sarah or linda will be teaching. that would make me kind of happy. everyone come dancing tomorrow...it will be fun fun fun :-)

i should be studying...i went to lorilee's site and she linked us to this degrassi site and it is soooooo addictive. if i weren't lazy i would link you guys up.

okay i should be off...
tonya :-)


Date: December 15, 1999
Journal Start Time
:
9:36am
Stuck in my head:
What a girl wants...
In the cd player:
Lauryn Hill
Strewn on the couch:
NOTHING but soon i'll start reading Vinegar Hill
On the tube:
i don't know...
Random Quote:
i need to find me some quotes
Anxiously Anticipating:
nothing but starting and finishing exams
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Randolph's site has new additions
Journal End Time:
10:02am

well guys and girls how have we all been? it has been a while. i don't know what exactly is wrong with me. i'm in a bizarro mood. i have a cold. well barely a cold really. my voice is completely gone...but i'm not oozing or anything. but i'm still in a bizaroo mood. i need some *excitement*. i think that is what my problem is. excitement. everything in my life has been very consistent recently. no surprises. no interesting stories. can someone please provide me with *some* excitement?

i'm obsessed with that new Christina Aguliera song "what a girl wants". i want to see the lyrics to that song and see if they are scandolous. ack this is a terrible song...i feel like a retard for liking it...here are the lyrics feel free to not read them... i feel like some sort of teenybopper whore :-):

What a girl wants, what a girl needs
Whatever makes me happy and sets you free...
What a girl wants, what a girl needs
Whatever keeps me in your arms
I wanna thank you for giving me time to breathe

Like a rock, you waited so patiently,
while I got it together
While I figured it out I only looked,
but I never touched
'Cause in my heart was a picture of us
Holding hands, making plans
And lucky for me, you understand

What a girl wants, what a girl needs
Whatever makes me happy and sets you free...
And I'm thanking you for knowing exactly
What a girl wants, what a girl needs
Whatever keeps me in your arms
And I'm thanking you for being there for me

A weaker man might have walked away
But you had faith strong enough to move
Over and understand while I got it together
While I figured it out
They say, "If you love something, let it go
If it comes back, it's yours; that's how you know."
It's for keeps, yeah, it's for sure
And you're ready and willing to give me more

What a girl wants, what a girl needs
Whatever makes me happy and sets you free
And I'm thanking you for knowing exactly
What a girl wants, what a girl needs
Whatever keeps me in your arms
And I'm thanking you for being there for me

Somebody sensitive and tough
Somebody there when the going gets rough
Every night he'll be giving his love
To just one girl, one girl, one
Somebody cool but real tender too
Somebody, baby, just like you
Can keep me hanging around with
The one who always knew
And I'm thanking you
For being there for me

What a girl wants, what a girl needs
Whatever makes me happy and sets you free...
And I'm thanking you for knowing exactly
What a girl wants, what a girl needs
Whatever keeps me in your arms
And I'm thanking you for being there for me

What a girl wants, what a girl needs
Whatever makes me happy and sets you free
And I'm thanking you for knowing exactly
What a girl wants, what a girl needs
Whatever keeps me in your arms
And I'm thanking you for being there for me

And I'm thanking you for knowing exactly...
And I'm thanking you for being there for me...

exams start today (not exciting). i have economics today at 2pm. oy. i studied with elivra (stop drooling max) yesterday. we were sooooo unfocused it wasn't even funny. we got thru the entire course but it took us longer than it should have and we did it in less detail than we should have. i'm so fucked for tomorrow's exams...math and geographie. i have no motivation to study because i feel so absolutely yuki. i hate exams...but once they are over life is sooo sweet. i'm frustrating myself. i shoud stop.

i had a silly dance class yesterday. first of all i got to Randolph soooo early because i was coming from Elvira's house and she lives very close. so i sat around and studied for a bit. then lea came and i discovered that she would be spending the holidays in Atlanta with her family. lea is not actually from Atlanta but her family moved there 8 or 9 years ago. ryan was there and we forced lea into letting us do our chainer exercise to the Chipmunks x-mas cd. does anyone know who the singer David Michael Anthony is??? the name sounds sooo familiar but i don't know who he is. apparently he is SIONA'S boyfriend. okay we are doing an internet search as i speak...OMG he really is famous. well relatively famous...he grew up in Liverpool and moved here when he was little...actually just click here for more info AND sound files. this is amusing. a few months ago siona brought him to class but i didn't think he was that hot or anything...maybe he is just one of those average looking singers. hey this guy also used to be a dance teacher and he's 28 yearsold. aww he wants to move back to england and play his music there. this is thrilling me guys...this is excitement. well nto the kind of excitement i wanted...but a substitute for now.

okay now that that's over...let's find something else to talk about.

how crazy is it that the year is almost over? it feels like just yesterday that it was January and we were all trapped in our houses because of the snow. but now only 16 more days and it's the year 2000.

i'm putting this entry out of it's misery.
tonya


Date: December 12, 1999
Journal Start Time
:
9:06am
Stuck in my head:
Almost Doesn't Count by Brandy
In the cd player:
Brandy
Strewn on the couch:
NOTHING but soon i'll start reading Vinegar Hill
On the tube:
Today Show
Random Quote:
there was many a quote on friday night...
Anxiously Anticipating:
nothing but starting and finishing exams
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Randolph's site has new additions
Journal End Time:
10:02am

it has been a very long time since i've updated n'est pas? but don't worry you guys haven't missed anything at all. my life has been pretty boring of a sudden. maybe i'll spew random thoughts to amuse you, the journal reader :-)

well the Randolph party was on Friday. it was fun stuff. they had really good DJs playing music. i was sick as a dog. i currently have a cold and on friday i was all achy and yuki. Sou-Jin (asian receptionist formerly known as Soon-Yi) had a camera and a videocamera and was walking around taking pictures of everyone and videotaping everyone. it was all very amusing, the teachers all did some dances that rocked. siona and her Jackson Dance Network (the dance company that she started) did these AMAZING dances to Ricky Martin and the Insect combo. it's pure craziness to see dance teachers actually dance. and i don't mean the kind of toned down dancing that they do in class..i mean full out booty shakin dancing. Lea and Kat danced in Siona's thing as well...Lea was too cute because she kept on screwy up ..not big screwing up but i just notice too much detail. Linda Garneau and some other people did a dance to California Love by Tupac. it was very cool..some kick ass choreography in it. everytime i look at linda i always think that she should be a hockey player. Jen Cohen (musical theatre teacher) and this other chic did their own version of Hot Honey Rag from Chicago..too cute. Lea is so very sweet..she gave out Christmas cards. and on the inside she wrote a very very sweet message...so go lea :-) hmmm what else...both Lea and Siona are going away for a while (3 weeks i think) so that sucks a lot... but max and i suggested that Siona recommend Sarah (Shields) to take over some of her classes, for some reason that made Siona very happy. but now i'm thinking that Sarah won't be able to because The Needfire opens on December 28th :-(

what else happened this week? OY i know. i lose ONE jazz shoe on monday night. then on friday afternoon i lost my long black skirt from the GAP. i'm soooo bitter. now i have to ask for Jazz shoes for x-mas because i don't want to have to spend my own money on jazz shoes again. they aren't expensive or anything, but they arent something that i expected to have to buy more than once a year. and we won't even get started about my skirt....

GAP has SUCH nice stuff right now. i've convinced Max to buy his winter wardrobe from their. max next time i see you (tuesday) you better be wearing the warmest jacket, the yellow scarf, and a hat of your choice :-) fuckity fuck i hope i'm not babysitting on tuesday. if i am it better not be at 7. if it is i think i will have to be "sick". it will be the last class before lea goes away. i haven't taken her class in 2 weeks :-( anyway back to GAP. i discovered these BEAUTIFUL pants there...they are Khaki coloured but they are this funky ass fabric..it feels kind of like suede but it isn't...and they are cargo pants...i'm in love. then i discovered that they have a ProFleece zip up hooded shirt. it's the best of both worlds...a zip up hooded shirt AND ProFleece. i'm obsessed with ProFleece...my ProFleece pullover is AMAZING..i swear it's sex in a shirt..it feels so good (not that i need to clarify for my faithful readers..but tonya doesn't have sex so that comparison is strictly based on ideas spoonfed to me by the media). you watch and see i will own more ProFleece. everyone go out and buy ProFleece now. wow all this talk about ProFleece is making me want to wear it today.

BSB tickets went on sale yesterday and sold out in 2 hours. i personally didn't get through but i'm not sure if Jan did. Jan (mother of the children that i babysit for) gave me her credit card number and told me to try via internet. i'm babysitting today so i'll see what the verdict is. i want to see those bloody BSBs.

during friday's dance class siona made us go across the floor one by one. oy vey. i was having such a retardo day because i was all achy and sick feeling, plus i was frustrated over the loss of my skrit PLUS we were doing these weird ass turns that i don't remember ever having done. but it was all good i was being all cute about being retarded. i LOVE going across the floor one by one you get to fix SO much that's wrong. then we did jeters across the floor and that was coolio. siona did a very hip-hoppy type of combo. it was so NOT her usual style but fun nonetheless (wow is that one word?? or is it a colloquillism).

I'm in the BIGGEST Brandy right now it's not even funny. i go thru random music phases. like right now i think i'm in a total girly music phase..i've been listening to Chantal, Sarah, Brandy and Destiny's Child. but i can feel ghetto vibes taking over very soon. yesterday i saw the new Missy video for Hotboys and Nas, Eve and Lil' Mo were all in it...and frankly that made me happy...that is a sign of me being taken over by ghettodom. actually i have an urge to take out brandy and put in some missy..but i'm waiting for Have you Ever? to come on. oy it feels like 2/3 of all songs are about love. it's all very weird if you ask me. i could talk more about this...but i won't.

tomorrow we are allowed to come late for first period. i will FOR SURE be taking advantage of that. i don't have a spare so i take full advantage of times where i'm allowed to be completely lazy.

wow everyone and their dogs are in buffalo this weekend. it's very funny because there is NO ONE on my buddy list. hopefully everyone is having an amazing time. and sorry Laura for hanging up on you because i was waiting for teh KFC delivery guy to come. and as soon as you called, the doorbell rang and i had to put on shorts and grab money and go upstairs and i dind't want to leave you on hold. why didn't you call back?? :-(

wow now i'm just starting to babble. Lauren's Journal was very interesting today. read it. it raises some interesting questions, concerns, and observations.

okay now Missy is in the CD player so now i'm a happy girl. Brandy was getting to wistful for me. has anyone else noticed that all of Mariah Carey's songs sound the same? they either all sound like Fantasy or like Vision of Love. it's quite funny. you can even sing them to Fantasy and it will fit in properly. i won't diss though just because Fantasy used to be THE song back in the day. i would like to say i'm disappointed that M.C. is artist of the decade according to Billboard. it totally should have gone to Madonna or Janet Jackson. at least we've seen them grow (and i'm not talking horizontally as in M.C.s case) their styles have evolved and they rock all the way around. so we are slightly bitter about that.

wow, i have not been updating regularly. i apologize very much. i guess i'm just busy..but i'm not really that busy when it comes down to it. i'm just being lazy. but then again there are soooo many people that don't even bother to update anymore...it makes me sad. well not really. it just makes the internet less amusing :-)

i've decided that the whole millennium goal thing ain't going to happen. you see, it's already dec. 12...19 days until the millennium. and frankly i'm not in a better position to get the goal accomplished then i was a few months ago. having said that i haven't been actively trying to "achieve" my goal ...so it's a lack of effort on my part. damn i really hope the world doesn't end any time soon.

i should stop writing because now this entry is just turning into a big joke. i need some inspiration. maybe thats what it is. i wonder if i'm babysitting tomorrow...if i'm not then i'd like to go dancing..get my last dose of siona before she goes away :-)

okay i'm leaving..i apologize for the random boredom.
tonya


Date: December 7, 1999
Journal Start Time
:
8:43am
Stuck in my head:
That Thing...
In the cd player:
Lauryn Hill
Strewn on the couch:
'Tis by Frank McCourt (think Angela's Ashes)
On the tube:
Today Show
Random Quote:
"I hate these things... in ten minutes i'll be in the corner drunk"
-- Christine Bandelow last night :-)

Anxiously Anticipating:
RANDOLPH X-MAS PARTY
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Have a happy gappy x-mas
Journal End Time:
9:59am

oy oy oy it has been a crazy past few days. i don't even know where to start. i think i'll start with the thing that i'm still the most hyper over...the talenthouse christmas party.

okay, so last week max invited me to come to the TalentHouse x-mas party and i said sure why not because i'm in SUCH a christmas mood this year. so after dance yesterday we headed on down. so we get there and are putting away our coats and max is like "charles azulay right behind you." so of course i look and burst out laughing just because i'm retarded like that and it's charles azulay of west side story...and endless situations in The Game. so whatever we dont' talk to him cause...its charles azulay. so fast forward a bit...we eat lots of fun hors d'oeuvre that were AMAZING. i had the best strawerry tart in the WORLD. it was incredible. somehow max and i had this whole talk about breasts and breast implants. we were talking about Britney Spears and her "growth spurt" and that lead to how gross i think boob jobs are. right as we were talking about it this girl in a tube top walks bye with these HUGE perfectly suspended breats. they could not have been real. first of all she was wearing a tube top which meant htt she couldn't be wearing a strappy bra. strapless one's don't support as well as a regular bra. and she wasn't wearing any weird corset or anything because you couldn't see any straps or anything thru her top. she was defying the laws of gravity with those babies. somehow the talk turned over to christine and themyth of her and perfect breasts...not that i particularly NOTICE these things but they've never stood out...oy bad pun. but they arent all that...

so la la la max and i decide that we have to PEE so he goes intot he men's and i go into the women's (as can be expected). so i go in do my pee and i come out and i'm washing my hands...then this woman comes out of a stall maybe 2 doors down. so i'm washing my hands and i'm looking at this chic thinking damn she looks familiar. so do the world's biggest double take when i realize that it's none other than (drumroll please) CHRISTINE BANDELOW in a BATHROOM. anyhoo.. i'm like Christine? and she says hi... and then i'm like i used to see you in Rent back in the day..and she was like I KNOW. (oy i'm using the word LIKE way too much excuse the valley girlness of the situation). so then we're chatting in the bathroom and stuff as i put on lipgloss and she touches up her lipstick and all that jazz. she's been having fun choreographing rent. she just came back from Spain but she had a better time in Mexico City. Apparently she's joining the Benny Tour once again to be a swing. i didn't ask her when though...so the whole time i'm trying to keep a straight face because as i've previously stated i'm just retarded like that. then she asked me if i'm with the agency and of course i was like no, but i'm here with Max and he is. and she said she remembered max. so we walk out of the bathroom and max comes out and i'm like and there's max now. so lalala we talk for a bit and she introduces us to her boy who was quite the stud. that was when she made the comment that is now the quote of the day. so anyhoo..max and i go outside for air and so that i can call lisa and laugh at her :-) but lisa was sleeping so that didn't happen. oh yah...her boobs are too little to be perfect :-)

then we go inside and take a seat at a booth when who shows up...Lee and Sarah. Sarah Shields. Sarah Shields sister of Cary. Sarah Shields sister of CAry the stud and lead dancer in Needfire. say what? oh yah... Lee is her hot hot hot times a billion boyfriend and friend of cary. so we talk to lee for a while and then somehow the talks turns to cary who was supposed to be arriving shortly because he drove in from Buffalo for the party. Lee was going on and on about how much of a good singer has turned into becuase he was rooming with MArk Leroy Jackson when he was with the Angel Tour and now cary can REALLY sing. Lee and Sarah will be in Buffalo on saturday. oh yah...so sarah is the lead dancer in Needfire that will be at the Alex this year...so that is very good for her and apparently it's her first BIG break. then sarah comes over and looks at max and i and was all like "hey you two have both taken my dance class." so that's that story.

then a little while later we're sitting and i see this woman in a headwrap walking around. so of course i'm think is that Divine Earth Essence? is that Divine Earth Essence? it was hard to tell because i only have memories of fat pregnant Divine...and this was non-pregnant Divine so it through me off. after a while we finally concluded that it was her. we did say hi to her but she was slightly frosty but a nice frosty so we didn't talk to her for long.

before we left we decided to do a tour of downstairs then go back upstairs and say goodbye to Ms. Bandelow. so we're walking around downstairs and i see this man that has this made up drag queen look happening. so max and i do a triple take...no a quadruple take and realize that it's Thom Allison. I never realized that Thom was so hot until yesterday. he has THE most incredible eyes in the world and i love the proportions of his face. he is quite the stud. and he was very very sweet. oh wait...thom has a very very sexy voice. he was sweet and joking around and mentioned some industrial that he was/is working on. but overall quite enjoyable. then it was off to upstairs to say bye to Christine, Lee and Sarah. then we were off off and away.

did i mention that i had an ENTIRE essay to write for the next day? to say the least it didn't get done at all. okay now it's time to talk about the rest of my day/life and all the freakiness of it all.

i had THE most amazing dance class yesterday. i worked the hardest that i've worked in a very long time. siona added sooooo much on to the ricky martin combo and it was Jazz1 so we were learning it at a faster pace. i don't sweat but i was pouring buckets yesterday. it was a good workout. and of course she made us do it in groups of 4 instead of groups of 6 or 7. it wasn't a problemo though..i had buckets and buckets of fun fun fun. after class i had to wait until 8 for max to come pick me up. so i hung out in studio B for 40 minutes. i was kept amused by various people...siona, ryan. julian, anne and phi. Siona had this huge bag of funky disco whore clothes that she might be wearing to shake her groove thang on friday at the party. she had the coolest chain mail type paints with silver woven in them..i was laughing very hard. i need to get funkersized for the x-mas party. i really want to repair the silver pants... :-) then ryan and i sat around and talked about b-way, and x-mas and various pieces of Chicago and Chita related gossip. mondays are the best night at randolph i've decided. i'm thinking i should dump retardo sunday and do monday...but the problem is that i dance on tuesday as well...but i think i can live. as i was leaving i ended up having a discussion with Soon Yi (who may not be soon yi) about skirts. she loved my skirt and i loved hers. she was wearing one of those black poofy ones and she said it was only 48$ at Jacob. i was quite impressed.

i don't really remember what happened at school that day. we watched part of the video of our drama night and got back marks. right now my OAC drama mark is at a 92% i think. i need to recalculate because if it really is i need to have a spaz attack. i really need to have a good report card. last year my report card was slightly depressing (first B ever). I find if very funny that last year in math i think i ended up with a 74% and right now i'm getting 89%...that's a good thing :-) i know i'm obsessed with marks..but when it comes down to it you have to be if you want to move on. espcially with American Universities...there is so much competition to get in so you have to do extra well and work extra hard. i found out that i had an essay to write for the next day...i had absolutely NO CLUE. i didn't write it and i'll do that toay and maybe start organizing study notes and stuff for exams.

i have to go x-mas presents for my mom and my sister. my sister is getting 2 cookbooks and some picture frames for her new apartment. my mom may either get a coffee maker or a turtle neck. we'll see... OMG i'm not going away for x-mas it loooks like. there aren't any cheap flights to D.C. and since no one REALLY wants to go in the first plce we will just stay here unless we get a cheaper flight. but that means that i get a CHRISTMAS TREE> i haven't had one since i was really little because we go away every year.

i have been very freaked out for hte past 24 hours. sometimes i get a thought in my head that i can't shake so i kind of get haunted about it. laura, remember when we saw Three Kings and there was that ad for hotmail that said that your mohter could be reading your e-mail right now? that freaked me out for weeks. i'm still trying to figure out how to set a password to get into outlook. not that she would...but just in case :-) right now i'm totally questioning the validity of the internet and what people are capable of. like how do any of you know that this me, tonya writing this? i could be george johnson from alabama for all you know (well not really..becase most of you actually know me and have met me). but seriously...when you think about it for a second about what people can do with the internet to violate you and your thoughts and stuff...its REALLY disturbing.

oy had to get that out :-)

i could keep on typing forever because i don't' really have nathing to be doing besides essay stuff and a ton of studying. i have no more tests this week which is good. i had a bio one that went okay...so we'll see.

okay i should be off now.

tata
tonya :-)


Date: December 5, 1999
Journal Start Time
: 9:41am
Stuck in my head:
Maybe This Time
In the cd player:
Lauryn Hill
Strewn on the couch:
'Tis by Frank McCourt (think Angela's Ashes)
On the tube:
nothing
Random Quote:
no quotage today
Anxiously Anticipating:
dancing today? x-mas parties on monday and friday
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Ricky's Journal
Journal End Time:
9:59am

Oy these stupid people. if they want me to babysit is it THAT hard to make a decision so that i can move on with my life? Jan was supposed to have called me yesterday telling me if she needed me to come in today and take care of Laura. of course she didn't call. so this morning i call and the father doesn't know if they are taking Christine to the movies. so i told him that they need to call me before 10:45am so that i can figure out if i'm going dancing or not. augh things like that make me very very irritated.

HAHA i just read Ricky's journal and under craving he put "other than tonya..." ohhhh scandolous. to say the least i was extremely amused and laughing my ass off for no more than 3 minutes. Ricky's journal has potential i'm enjoying it very muchly right about now so everyone go and read it. wow i hope he doesnt mind me spreading the word...but i guess we'll know soon enough. i love how everyone is having journals all of a sudden. i love reading about people's lives. reading journals is one of th few things that i do online besides research for school.

yesterday was quite the day. at noon ihad to go to school and do some set painting for the school play. it was fun fun. my drama teacher brought her two children who are ADORABLE. i think her son has a crush on me :-) okay sure he's like 7 but still.., he kept on insisting that i come in the car with them and he even offered me his paint brush. i love children,

then i came home and pretended to do some work and it was off to Fairview with Laura to get Elvira an x-mas present (picture frame) and search for a present for someone else that ended up pretty damn fruitless. hehe fruitless is a funny word. i think i'll use it everyday. fruitless fruitless. then it was off to Cow and Max's play. it was a night of much merriment and mirth. they did a funny thing happened on the way to the forum. lisa was a wonderful whore and max and rina directed. it was fun fun stuff. i saw rina and jason whom i've haven't seen in forever and a half which is crazy crazy crazy.

can someone please tell me if i'm going away for the holidays. i have NO clue. you'd think that we would have decided by now...but of course we haven't. my uncle's fiancee will be in NYC so we can't stay with him. the alternative is to go to D.C. and stay with my sister andtake a day trip to NYC. in my opinion i day trip to NYC is like a teaser. who wants to be in NYC for day .... i would NEVER want to leave. so i don't know if i really want to go away. there are certain things that i would like to do in NYC BUT i don't like D.C. so who knows...

i'm in THE silliest mood. everything had been cracking me up way too much. last night i was exhausted then i got a burst of energy and was all giggly..now i'm still giggly so watch out :-)

i can't believe how fast this year has gone by. do you all realize that there are only 26 days until the millennium? now that i think is absolutely ridiculous. i should put a countdown...but i won't.

okay i'm off.
tonya

 


Date: December 2, 1999
Journal Start Time
: 10:58pm
Stuck in my head:
paint chips in me head
In the cd player:
TLC
Strewn on the couch:
'Tis by Frank McCourt (think Angela's Ashes)
On the tube:
ER
Random Quote:
no quotage today
Anxiously Anticipating:
SATURDAY and various x-mas (woohoo)
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Laura's Journal
Journal End Time:
12:05am

 

What is this?? a new layout? is tonya being semi-creative. does a new month bring out the craziness in me? i need feedback about this. the sidebar is no longer a sidebar but a top bar...i think the side bar was taking up a lot of file space..so we are experimenting with this.

it has been a very interesting few days...many new developpments. i'm going on a school trip to NYC. yes you heard me right NYC babeeeee. i'm mucho excited. the trip is in April for 4 nights and 3 days. we're basically going ALL OVER the city and seeing everything. it's all stuff that i've already seen so it's not anything new...but it will still be soooo much fun. Elvira, Kristin, Nadeen and Johanna are all coming so it's going to be pure craziness which makes me happy. the trip is being run out of the Art department and the teacher gonig said that the students are really interested seeing a little musical called....RENT. how crazy is that?? i have mixed feelings about that...seeing RENT would be fun and possibly cheap...but i've seen it before. NYC has sooooo many plays that i could be seeing. on the otherhand it would be fun to see Maggie and stuff...I would like to see Annie Get Your Gun, but only if Bernadette is in it. so yes that is the recent excitement.

today was the day on crack. Kristin, Johanna and I decided to go to the museum to see this exhibit on volcanoes. so we are in this one part of the museum where you get to sit inside a "volcano" and we all agreed that it would be a great place to get it on. so basically we spent the rest of our time at the ROM rating which places and exhibits would be the best place to do some horizontal mamba. Johanna wants to publish our findings and start a series of articles on the best public places to do it in the city. at one point we wanted to find the bee exhibit in the museum so we had to ask the "Ask Me" guy. as we were talking to him we randomly got into this discussion about how couples do get it on in various tunnels and stuff in the museum. how kinky is that?? i was laughing hysterically.

after the museum fiasco was my OAC drama night. it went very very well i'm pleased with the results. Nadeen fucked up one of her lines so i had to save her..but otherwise it was good good. we have a lot of talent in my class which is always good to watch. you don't realize how talented everyone is until you have something like OAC drama night to really highlight everyone. every scene except for mine involved sex or relationships. one of the funniest was this scene where this one chick tells her best friend that she wants to have lesbian sex with her. i was on the floor laughing sooooooo hard. oy. funny story...not funny but random. after my scene i REALLY wanted to take my underclothes off...well not really i was wearing a hospital gown, shorts, tanktop and of course under wear and bra. so i'm in the side room and EVERYONE was there and i was too lazy to go to the bathroom and change so i thought it would be a brilliant idea to just chnage into my clothes there. so of course i didn't think to announce that i would be chaning in front of everyone...the story ends with me in my underwear infront of my drama class...but not for long so don't you all worry.

i'm beyond tired. this has been a very long week. i'm not quite sure what is. i haven't done any homework all week which is absolutely blasphemous. i have tests coming out the wazoo and exams are rapidly approaching. i got 89% on my math test which has made me fucking ecstatic. i didn't think i'd do that well on the test because i guessed on the ENTIRE first page of a 4 page test. but its all under control which made me happy. i think that my math average is arond 89%. we have a test and a quiz this week so if i do really well i can boost that up even more. i'm turning into SUCH a math whore this year it's not even funny.

here is a question...what the fuck constitutes as a date? elvira and i were semi having this discussion. the other day we had a barbecue at school and this guy wanted a pop for free and was like i'll take you to the movies..my treat. E interpreted this as being asked on a date (she didn't go), me on the other hand totally just thought it was nothing. so today E and i are walking thru the halls when this b-ball player, Jamie from my french class (who i NEVER talk to) stops me and was inviting me to watch him play basketball after school (had to go to the ROM so i didn't go) . E interprets THIS as a date. i think that she is just obsessed with boys and wants one so bad that she thinks that EVERYTHING is a date. or maybe she just reads too much into things. or perhaps i'm just an idiot and read way to little into things. but seriously what is a date?

I ran into Julian after OAC drama night. we had a nice little chat on the corner of CHurch and Wellesley. he was on his way to work and i'm sure you all care sooooooo much. MAX, julian told me to tell you to audition to be on this cruise this monday. oh wait...how did your play go max and cow? they are doing A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to the Forum...i'm sure it was fun fun fun.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAURA

on that happy note (laura turning the big 1-8) i must be off off and away to sleep land.

tata
tonya :-)