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Date: February 5, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
3:21pm
Stuck in my head:
S Club 7
In the cd player:
Mariah Carey
Song lyric of the moment:
Billy Ray was the preachers son
and when his daddy would visit he'd come along
something something they started talking
that's when billy would take me walking
thru the backyard we'd go walking
then he'd look into my eyes
lord knows to my surprise
the only one could ever reach me
was the son of a preacher man
the only boy that could ever teach me
was the son of a preacher man
yes he was, he was ohhhhhh yes he was
- son of a preacher man by Dusty Springfield
Book :
The Book of Ruth(yeah i'm really reading that)
On the tube:
the proactin informercial
Random Quote:
"TOOOOONNNNNYYYYYAAAA do you still have ISUs coming out of your ass?"
-- quinn yelling at me from down the hall

Anxiously Anticipating:
i'm REALLY excited about finishing my scarf
Link Me Baby One More Time:
no link
Journal End Time:
3:39pm

i am having SUCH a good clothes week it is not even funny. i'm all sexed up. lol. i had to say that. it's such a funny expression..all sexed up. no, but really i've been looking good. i resurected my dark dark bootleg jeans and i've been wearing my platformy shoes, and 3/4 length shirts...i've been quite the style maven. and yesterday i wore my dragon shirt from le chateau (that i've never worn to school) and everyone was muy muy impressed. and i haven't been doing the sweater with a shirt underneath thing in a while so everyone thinks that i look so skinny now...it's actually pretty funny. i've been wearing wee little shirts...and i don't know why i'm writing all this...it's part of me losing my mind.

today i went shopping with my mom to buy more ubertrendy wear to make me all sexed up. lol. i had to use that again..sorry. so i had to buy jeans. i wanted dark dark flared ones (which GAP doesn't make) so i had to go to "other" stores. i ended up buying Mavi's which look sooooooo good on me (if i do say so myself). i also bought the cutest little sweater from Jacob...it's really furry and tight and 3/4 length. i'm in love :-) then i went to South Pacific and bought 2 black 3/4 length shirts and black fun joggingish pants. its part of the "new and improved dancing tonya". yes you heard me right. i'm wearing my outfit right now and it's looking classy. i'm in such a whorey clothes mood. i need to find my tank top and dance in that. every once in a while i get these urges to change my look...so bear with me. anyhoo everyone come watch me dance in my new clothes. OMG i feel like Bette midler. you know how she sings that song "i look good"? well that is running thru my head right now.

i'm going to my semi. yes i know, i caved in. but not without pissing EVERYONE at school off. it was amusing. kristin and i are talking but not really talking. we walked to the ref together and didn't say a single word. i was amused. but last night i talked to miss elvira for 2 hours and it was fun. then today from the mall i called her from the jacob changing room and was like harassing her. i kept on telling her random stuff..that i was at the mall and buying a shirt and finally she was like OMG are you coming to the semi? yah so i am. gonna get some action. i'm joking. ther is no action to be had at school functions. and i'll take pictures of lil' ole me all sexed up. rotfl. i crack myself up. i have got to stop.

wow this is a really egotistical update. i hope you all don't mind.

oh yah...so that night i ended up going to bed at 3:30am. it was fun fun fun. then i woke up at 7am. i was wired. but grumpy by the last period of the day. in the middle of the night i got this HORRIBLE muscle spasm in my leg. i thought i was dying. it was awful.

ain't no party like an S-Club party.

oh you just wait and see, i will be in S Club. i'm SUCH a loser. those guys are just so fun. i even know their names. theres Bradley, Jon, Hannah, Rachel, Jo...and some other guy. i know i know i'm cool. you all want to be me. mwah ha ha.

i spent 4.5 hours at the hair salon the other day. yah, that made me happy. i LOVE wasting that much of my time. i mean what would i have done with those 4.5 hours. yah so i was a bit pissy thursday night. and kelly martin ROCKS because her character is SUCH a Gap girl. go kelly go kelly.

hey i have voice messages. laura called and so did max. hello jellos. fucking hell. i should call back but i have to go babysitting in like 15 minutes. grrrrr. damn me and my fast paced life.

i would like to say HEY to aislinn and tall guy who sent me comments in my comment box. that it what it is there for. comments. so send them my way. and why did i stop getting propositions? i think i'm feeling slightly hurt. haha wait until you all see the new revamped and sexed up (that term will never stop amusing me) tonya. mwah ha ha.

mwah ha ha. mwah ha ha. Mwah ha ha. MWah ha ha. MWAh ha ha. MWAH ha ha. MWAH Ha ha. MWAH HA ha. MWAH HA Ha. MWAH HA HA.

that was to piss off laura :-)

okay i'm going guys and dolls.
ciao
tonya -- all sexed up (hehe)


Date: February 3, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
1:53am
Stuck in my head:
all things macy gray
In the cd player:
macy gray
Song lyric of the moment:
Billy Ray was the preachers son
and when his daddy would visit he'd come along
something something they started talking
that's when billy would take me walking
thru the backyard we'd go walking
then he'd look into my eyes
lord knows to my surprise
the only one could ever reach me
was the son of a preacher man
the only boy that could ever teach me
was the son of a preacher man
yes he was, he was ohhhhhh yes he was
- son of a preacher man by Dusty Springfield
Book :
The Book of Ruth(yeah i'm really reading that)
On the tube:
most likely some sort of infomercial
Random Quote:
"TOOOOONNNNNYYYYYAAAA do you still have ISUs coming out of your ass?"
-- quinn yelling at me from down the hall

Anxiously Anticipating:
i'm REALLY excited about finishing my scarf
Link Me Baby One More Time:
no link
Journal End Time:
2:16am

why am i updating at 1:53am you all might be wondering. well it is because i'm the biggest retard on the face of this planet. well maybe not THE biggest one..but definitely in the top ten. i have the rough draft of my stupid english ISU due tomorrow that i didn't start until 9pm. i have it mostly done now but it sucks my ass crack...it is the most HORRIBLE piece of writing to ever come out of my computer, and frankly that frustrates me. my ideas are just not flowing at all so it is just one big heap of shit. yes a HEAP of shit. argh. then i have this freaking french timeline to get done and a play review. i can get an extension on the review, no problem..but the timeline has to get done. seeing as it is almost 2am now and that i would have to wake up at 7am to go to school i'm thinking that i might as well just SKIP sleeping. we'll see how tonya runs on zero sleep. i'll probably get overtired...i'm dangerous when i'm over tired because i get REALLY giddy and frisky. mwah ha ha. so yes i am the queen retard.

i'm obsessed with tallguy. i would like to marry this tallguy. i get comments in my comment box from tallguy. he is rocking my world. thank you sooooo much :-) he also likes GAP and Chantal Kreviazuk so he is tops in my book. hehe tops is such a funny word no matter what context you use it in.

why is it so fucking cold? why are my pinky fingers SIGNIFICANTLY colder than my other fingers? all my other fingers are nice and toasty, but my pinkies feel like they came out of a fricking ice box.

i always mean to tell this story about my ultimate retardation. i'm a bath girl. i do NOT shower. i like being in a tub full of water and having bubbles. it is sooo much more relaxing. but recently i have started showering to wash my hair. so one day i go into this magical shower and i'm showering and i have this weird sensation on the lower part of my body (get your minds out of the gutter). turns out i went into the shower with my underwear on. so here i am standing in my shower wearing underwear..i wasn't sure what the heck to do. and let me tell you, wet underwear is NOT fun to wear at all. i felt like the biggest moron. eventually i couldn'ttake the weirdness of the situation and took off the underwear and hung them up to dry. and yah....that story was a lot funnier INSIDE my head.

i danced on tuesday. yay randolph.

why am i writing a fucking journal enry when i should be writing an ISU? is it because i'm the queen of retards? i think so.

i should archive, but i'm not going to. do you wonder why? well it's my journal and i can do whatever i want with it. mwah ha ha ha.

i got an e-mail from leesa kwong. she made me one happy chica.

why is my life sooooo uninteresting?? i go to school, have play rehearsal, go to randolph, babysit and then come home and do homework. why oh why are things this way. did i already tell y'all about my realization that i no longer do things for myself? i will see one of these days and enlighten the masses.

my sister got inspired and is gong to try to be on Millionaire. Regis' plea for "black folk" the other night inspired her so i have her the number and now we have to see if she qualifies. if she gets on i get to be her "friend" to phone. how thrilling would that be??? i'm good at general knowledge shit like the stuff that they have on that show. it's from all my years of being OBSESSED with magazines. i would rather be her guest to NYC but such is life.

i'm going to the bloody hairdresser tomorrow. there goes some valuable time sucked out of my life. i'm in desperate need of a touch up because i'm all roots right about now. haha i bet none of you understand what i'm talking about. i love people who pretend to understand the woes of black hair. that is kristin for you. she thinks she knows it all because she went to oakwood for a year. well she doesn't so mwah ha ha ha. that is my new thing mwah ha ha ha. hehe evil laugh.

can you pay my automobills?

this is one jacked up and disjointed journal entry. i apologize. it's too damn late for me to be coherent. and i would like to say that i sure do love me some jennpease and i'm very sad that she doesn't get to be on millionaire. i almost bought the millionaire computer game but my mom called me a freak so i didn't buy it. i am however knitting a loverly scarf. am i dancing on friday? i will have to see pee pee.

i wish i had a television in my room...then i could be watching mad about you. oh how i love those Buchmans.

this guy in my group from drama got banned from our school library for the month of february because they got him looking at porn on the internet. haha but they didn't catch him PRINTING the porn. i thought that that was the funniest story ever.

it is time for me to go now.
ciao ciao
tonya -- the horseless wonder


Date: January 31, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
10:58pm
Stuck in my head:
my head is POUNDING
In the cd player:
Chantal Kreviazuk (when was the last time i listened to that??)
Song lyric of the moment:
Billy Ray was the preachers son
and when his daddy would visit he'd come along
something something they started talking
that's when billy would take me walking
thru the backyard we'd go walking
then he'd look into my eyes
lord knows to my surprise
the only one could ever reach me
was the son of a preacher man
the only boy that could ever teach me
was the son of a preacher man
yes he was, he was ohhhhhh yes he was
- son of a preacher man by Dusty Springfield
Book :
The Book of Ruth(yeah i'm really reading that)
On the tube:
probably the news
Random Quote:
no quotage
Anxiously Anticipating:
i'm REALLY excited about finishing my scarf
Link Me Baby One More Time:
no link
Journal End Time:
11:46pm

hello journal readers,

i'm delirious. i'm overwhelmed. i'm exhausted. i'm hungry. i have too much to do ALL the time. everythign started out being all about me....but it just isn't ending up that way. i'm a slave to the school play, i babysit too much and i join clubs just for the heck of it. gee, i hope i'm not depressed. i've never been depressed before. no i'm not depressed we have the situation all under control. i randomly went on a tangent today with siona about myself. we are dancing to this really cool mellow music and i asked the divine miss jackson what the heck it was. that led into a discussion about mellowness and taking it easy. yes so we are loving miss jackson right about now.

damn i wish i was your lover. i'm joking. i was actually going to say damn i love me some squash...but then that song popped into my head and that was the end of that. i'm eating dinner. yes i realize it's 11pm and i'm eating dinner...but that is what my life has come to. but i'm cool. under control.

i got a lot of response about my last entry. wow people love themselves some period talk. wouldn't it be funny if i had a countdown to my period. actually that would be a little gross. unless some crazy out there is planning on finding me and making passionate love to me...then at least they'll know when not to....because sex and periods don't sound like they'd mix too well. OMG i have sex stories. but they are for the next paragraph. i had something else to say about periods..but damn me i forgot. mine is going very well for all of you that would like to know...it's in the end stages so i'll be back to normal and functioning properly very soon. i'm joking. i'm just joshing with you. i'm losing my mind dammit.

can someone please tell me why everyone is having sex??? no i'm really puzzled. i went to school today and like a gazillion...no no .. a gazillion and one people had done it. this is pure insanity. i swear everyone is getting really kinked up all of a sudden. not that i mind..i'm just commenting. then i was thinking...maybe it's not all of a sudden maybe it's part of <<gasp>> growing up. and ya know people who have had sex DO look different then people who haven't so mwah ha ha. i dont know what it is...but now it is my new guessing game...now one will escape unguessed. but i'm glad i'm one of those trustworthy people because i have stories about people coming out of my ass and locked away in my head for safe keeping. which is fine because we all know how I feel about sex. no sex for me no no no. i'm thinking of becoming catholic so i can become a nun. you think i'm kidding? i'm not. i'll be one of those chics from Sister Act...preferably Whoopi's character cause she rocked. if you wanna be somebody. if you wanna go somewhere. you better wake up and pay attention. those last few lines are dedicated to nat cause she is a sisterhead:)

oy we have a semi coming up on feb. 10. am i going? i do not know. it would mean that i'd have to socialize with school people OUTSIDE of school. now that is just blasphamous. not only outside of school, but also at night. now that is just weirdness. elvira is trying to make me go, so is kristin. elvira i can deal with...but yah...the other one. i hate school people. well not EVERYONE. just some. our semi is at Plastique so it should be interesting. i've never been to a semi. anyone want to come? i'm joking. well not really joking. i'm just joshing with you:)

i saw Songs For A New World on saturday night. i took my mom, i knew she'd appreciate it. she said that thom sounded amazing and that he doesn't look so gay anymore. the show ROCKED. i'm obsessed with Sharron Matthews. she is the person of the moment. she is HILARIOUS. all her songs rock. the quilt song loses me...but the rest is amazing. i'vebeen singing the murray song all day. thom fucked up his steam train song royally. as in let's just skip a verse. then he was doing diva-ish stuff instead, but he caught up at the chorus. it was cute. not bad. it was cute and entertaining. afterward while i was peeing you could hear him and sharron freaking out in the dressing room about it. apparently he just blacked and couldnt' remember the words. yes. i'm loving me some Songs. i wish i could sing. i use my throat too much. i discovered that today.

RANDOMNESS. jennpease has me on her away message. now this is insanity. i feel honoured. i never talk to jennpease. i love jennpease. had fun with her in boston...eventhough she is old (just kidding). and we read eachother's journals. but wow. on her away message this is interesting. and yes i do read people's away messages. i'm slightly sick i realize that and have accepted the fact.

my scarf is looking beautiful. i wish i had someone to give it to. i'll just keep it for myself. i'm so good at knitting. i'm a knitting machine. go me. go me. go go go me. i should be doing homework. not just any homework. homework that should have been done last week. i'm slipping :-)

i need to got the hairdresser. my roots are a mess. maybe i should go on thursday.

i went dancing today. we are doing a lyrical jazz combo. i don't think i like lyrical jazz too much. it's pretty and stuff...but it is SO demanding. with the regular boom boom combos i have them done in a second. but with lyrical i have to challenge myself soooo much more and lose myself in the whole thing...and on a day like today i totally wasn't wanting that. i just need to find the motivation behind it then i'm cool. i was hoping for innocent ricky martin crap, but i got lyrical instead. but c'est la vie. did i mentin that i love me some siona jackson? maybe i looked stressed out or something cause i kept on getting random massages by the one and only. i'm taking lea's clas tomorrow. joy.

i think this is the end of an entry.
ciao
tonya


Date: January 28, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
10:34pm
Stuck in my head:
What A Girl Wants
In the cd player:
TLC - Fanmail
Song lyric of the moment:
i ain't never been a silly ho
waiting for your call
like the other girls want you
i ain't never been no one to mess
in someone else's mess
that's not a thing for me to do
i ain't never been a chicken head
wake up in your bed
after every club or two
i ain't be the one in miniskirt
always wanna flirt
with every player on the team

--TLC "silly ho"
Book :
The Book of Ruth
On the tube:
probably the news
Random Quote:
no quotage
Anxiously Anticipating:
buying fish...yah cause THAT is excitement
Link Me Baby One More Time:
no link
Journal End Time:
11:08pm

i'm in a weirdo bizarro mood. i think it's the cold...it's getting to me. yes i have a cold and i'm NOT happy about that. i have been having many sick ordeals over the past few days, so i'm not the happiest camper.

okay so last time i wrote it was after my cracked up tuesday dance class. oy that was one silly class. damn babysitting, i have to miss lea's class this tuesday :-( i suppose i'll go to siona's jazz1 on monday instead or something...who knows. maybe i'll even do a double header and FINALLY take musical theatre...oy i sound too ambitious. did i mention that that day in lea's class there were 8 boys. yes i was in heaven.

hehe the silly ho song is on. let me take a moment.

okay so i've basically been faking sick since monday. i know i'm awful. well not faking sick to EVERYONE just select people at various times. i've been acting sick to my drama teacher all week. so i got out of rehearsal on tuesday. then on wednesday i got pity from her in class because she said i looked messed up. then on thursday i really did get sick. oy fucking vey. i had cramps. i have not had cramps since i went to see the pervy female ancient gyno lady who told me that i should be a model as i stood in her office in my bra and underwear....but i digress. the lady gave me my miracle drug, anaprox. so whatever. i woke up at like 3am and couldn't go back to sleep cause of cramps. so finally at around 4:30 i got myself to throw up, then i took anotehr pill and threw up at like 7 or something. it was a very yuki day. and i've added another food to my "foods NOT to throw up" list...TACOS. so yuki to throw up it isn't even funny. and all the spices burn your throat on the way up. just like throwing up food from Green Mango...now THAT is painful. oy the memories make me sick. i was telling some sort of story till i got thrown on my tangent...let me see..oh yes i faked sick then i got sick and i'm going to try to not fake sick again...but it will be hard. i have this whole trust system in my school with my teachers so if i say i'm sick i dont' have to sign out i can just go and still be marked present..so it makes life soooooo much easier. i love screwing the system.

speaking of screwing the system...i heard thru the grapevine that the gym teacher that the ENTIRE female population of my school is lusting over is a perv. it shouldn't be a surprise..he IS a 23 year old male. he told some of his guy students that his girlfriend is a "chic with big jugs." okay so i wasn't disgusted by that comment...i thought it was funny. at least he's being honest, right? but this one girl, we'll call her Tina was muy disapointed because she has "little jugs" which she thinks explains why he doesn't talk to her that much. now elvira thinks that she understands why he's been talking to ME so much lately. mwah ha ha. not that i'm complaining or anything. are my conquests of lusting kink after the hot gym teacher disgusting? i feel like alicia silverstone in one of her weirdo teenage movies or something. on another note...he struck up a conversation with me in the upper gym. i got out of some class early and wanted to get in the GAC office to hang out and he was up there with his gym class. so he opened the door for me <<swoon>>. okay now you all knwo i'm joking when i talk like that right? i'm not a sicko really..i just get bored and i have an imagination. i did not really go <<swoon>>.

i worry about people who don't konw me that read this. everyone must think i'm sort of intellectual sex obsessed perv or something. i'm really not like this in person at all. i'm little and innocent. heck i'm freaking sandra dee... look at me i'm sandra dee/ lousy with virginity/ won't go to bed 'til i'm legally wed/ i can't, i'm sandra dee. sorry for the random Grease in there...i need to watch that again. okay..but for all the people that read this that i don't know..i'm really NOT psycho.

leesa kwong if you read this e-mail me...you need to come visit Jarvis and see the hot gym teacher. he's a caucasian Mr. Yee..but with more of a movie star quality. except that he is missing his two front teeth from a hockey incident..but he wears dentures so the situation is all under control.

oy i'm so frustrated. would you like to know why? well it's my journal, and frankly you are going to learn why no matter what. okay if you are a boy you might not want to read this...it's about periods and stuff..but not in anyway graphic..it's mainly about pads. heck it might be interesting for you guys. one day you will be married and you might need to know this kind of thing. and why don't guys like to hear about periods? i've never had a guy ask about periods in my life. i wonder why not? can someone explain that to me. i mean i dont' mind hearing about...sperm. i mean it's not a regular topic of discussion, but if it comes up then i wont' change the topic. hehe comes up. i make myself laugh sometimes. so the point is...embrace the period. i had a story didn't i? okay so we all know that Always Maxi Pads have the regular version and the ultra thin ones. the regular ones frankly feel like DIAPERS. but i used to be obsessed with them. the regular length with wings...i would refuse to use anything else. but one day in the mail i got a few free samples of the long thin ones with wings..and my life was changed forever. now i've been trying to spread the gospel about the thin ones but NO ONE believes me. they are SOOOOO much more comfortable and lack the diaper-like quality. they are rather enjoyable. AND they provide the same amount of protection. see tHAT is where no one believes me...they are specially crafted to absorb the same amount that the regular ones do. so i ask...no, i PLEAD with you..try the thin ones...it makes life better. then there is the whole tampon situation...now tampons are a great invention. but i only wear them when i dance because i'm afraid of toxic shock...eventhough that is some crazy myth cause you have to have had it in for a LONG time to actually get it.

okay that is enough period talk. i told you i'm in a weird mood. i can always tell when my period is coming..the shift in hormones. but we don't have to get into that.

congratulations to everyone i know that has finished high school and that is officially i "grown up" now. that includes..Laura, Lara, and Renee. so you go girls.

oy fucking vey. i had computer trauma the other day. on wednesday i was mucking with my comp and deleting AOL by hand becuase the uninstall wasn't working. in the process i seriously fucked something up. so the next day while iw as sick and barfy, i spent an hour on the phone with tech support at microsoft. in the end i had to delete my internet explorer v5. so now my outlook express with all my personal e-mails and stuffis GONE. oy vey. i didnt have anything particularly special but still..it was my own stuff. but such is life.

i'm bored. i need a plan. so far my weekend consists of going to Kensington with my mom to buy fish on saturday mornign and then going to wal-mart to buy knitting supplies becuae i'm feeling like a 60 year old grandmother and i want to knit a scarf. anyone want to have an orgy instead? haha a knitting orgy. i have to reteach myself how to knit. maybe i'll buy me a knitting book. i'm so weird.

i've been quite the mp3 whore the past few days. i need a cd burner. i wish i were rich. not too rich. i don't need 12 bathrooms. just money for university and for a cd burner. and maybe a male stripper. haha that last one was a joke. if i want to see a male stripper i could stop off at Fantasy after school and check them out. i'm joking. i'm a bowl full of yuks.

rent was on rosie today. danielle lee greaves was on. oh danielle. oh rent. i've realized that i have no attachment to it anymore. not in an "i hate it" way, not in an "i'm over it" way, not in an "i don't understand how i could have ever liked it" way...i'm just bored with it. not even the whole "politics" of it interests me. rent is going to d.c. very soon...and i could very well go and "visit my sister" but the desire isn't there anymore. but at the same time i say that i did tape the rosie thing so that i could watch it tonight...it's a sentimental thing...an expensive sentimental thing...but that is a whole other story.

i have had an overwhelming urge to smoke. i won't cause i think smoking is absolutely retarded. but i have to watch A LOT of play rehearsals and i get sooo bored. and ther is this one scene where nadeen has to light a cigarette and then she goes offstage and i always think to myself i could easily go back there and smoke. it's pretty disgusting. like it's an urge but not really an urge. the thought of smoking makes me sick but something about that scene. it's probably stress and boredom. but i digress.

wow that was some randomness at its best.

if you made it through this whole entry i congratulate you :-)

actually one more thing. i'm obsessed with S Club 7. isn't that sad? i don't watch the show...but i downloaded the mp3 and that is a sign of addiction. i want to be in S Club 7. the music is so crappy and fun. you just sit and sing along. i'm also obsessed with the sone "What A Girl Wants." and now i've seen the video so that makes me doubly obsessed. the video is so full of sas (the attitude, not the person). i want to be a music video ho and shake my ass in various videos. i'm obsessed with something else but i can't remember. and on that note...
night night,
tonya


Date: January 26, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
3:37pm
Stuck in my head:
What A Girl Wants by Christina Aguliera
In the cd player:
Jennifer Lopez
Song lyric of the moment:
say my name say my name
when no one is around you
say baby i love
you been running game
say my name, say my name
you actin kind of shady and callin me baby
why the sudden change?

Destiny's Child
Book :
The Book of Ruth
On the tube:
Rosie
Random Quote:
"But the bio people are smarter than ALL of us"
-- me trying to explain to max why i want to be a bio nerd

Anxiously Anticipating:
nothing :-(
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Kim's Journal
Journal End Time:
4:22pm

i need to make a bigger effort to update regularly. i always go away and come back and cannot remember what has been happening with me. or maybe i'm just losing my mind...who knows. okay let me see what happened last time i updated...

i had THE most fucked up dream the other night. not just fucked up, but sick and twisted. i shouldn't even write it...but i will :-)
so we all know that i'm in love with the new young gym teacher at my school, Mr. Murray. well not in love with..but i (and others) think he is EXTREMELY hot. so anyway...i n my dream i was in the hall looking at the honour roll list and i hear someone calling my name. and guess who it was...yuperoo mr. murray. so he comes up and we start talking and he's like i have a weird question for you..do you want to hook up? so i'm like isn't that illegal and aren't there regulations against this sort of thing. and he's like probably...but i don't mind. oh wait...btw, he's only 23, is that not craziness. so we end up "hooking up". and we decide to go to Yorkdale and hang out for a while. so we're sitting outside Club Monaco and Mr. Reed walks up (also hot, but older...elvira is obsessed with him). anyhoo...mr. reed walks up and is winking at me and stuff, and of course i'm thinking this is all very weird. so the next day in school i see mr. reed and he's totally being weird and flirty and phsyical towards me. and i go to tell elvira that her teacher crush is being dirty and she told me to direct his sexual energy towards her. i don't remember what happened in the middle of the dream but in the end mr. reed & elvira and me and mr. murray all went to mcdonald's. how fucked was that?

okay what else has been up...i had the craziest dance class in the history of dance classes. it's like lea smoked the crack pipe and passed it around the class. there were over 20 people stuffed into studio C whcih is TINY. plus it was all the regulars plus other people...me, max, geri, mark, julian, ryan, maryanne, and the new hot opera singer guy named chad who kept on bumping into me (what can i say, we are both klutzes). i can't even pinpoint what was crazy about the class..everyone was just wired. much fun was had by all. rachael was actually social. max and i have this joke because they are both very social people, but around each other they are SOOOOO frosty it is not even funny. but yesterday they were actually talking. ryan was going on and on about barbra and her lifetime achievement award and julian was bitter and sick of hearing about it and thru a fit (joking around though) and i gave julian a hug and next thing i knew i was up in the air. it was sooo fun. he was picking me up and spinning me around it was pure craziness. lea was in a sex crazed mood. and now i'm distracted because i just watched some of rosie and made an english muffin and i have no where to go wtih my story.

i'm so conflicted right now. there are soooo many things that i want to write and spaz about but i can't because it would just be unethical. basically there is a situation that looked like it was close to being remedied, but things took a weird turn and so everything is kind of back where we started from. wow that sounds like code...if you know me you probably know what is going on.

i got my report card yesterday. i'm doing better in my OAC classes then i am in my grade 12 courses...well except for french. but in reality i think that OAC classes are easier. there is a lot less day-to-day work and less tests and stuff to mess you up. but i'm very happy with my marks so im putting them up for my own satisfaction because i actually worked hard and studied this term instead of just winging it like i normally do. so here it goes: OAC Drama - 92%, OAC Economics - 89%, OAC English - 87%, OAC French - 83%, OAC Biology - 88%, Gr. 12 Geographie - 85%, Gr. 12 Media - 79%, Gr. 12 Math - 73%. the math mark is my eyesore. i used to have 89 or something but then i got 60 on the exam..and it's a 50/50 split...so you do the math. yes i am marks obsessed...but c'est la vie.

okay i have to go and meet my mom at Dufferin Mall...i know i lead a thrilling life.

ciao ciao
tonya:-)


Date: January 23, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
9:59am
Stuck in my head:
What A Girl Wants by Christina Aguliera
In the cd player:
Destiny's Child
Song lyric of the moment:
say my name say my name
when no one is around you
say baby i love
you been running game
say my name, say my name
you actin kind of shady and callin me baby
why the sudden change?

Destiny's Child
Book :
The Book of Ruth
On the tube:
Meet The Press
Random Quote:
"But the bio people are smarter than ALL of us"
-- me trying to explain to max why i want to be a bio nerd

Anxiously Anticipating:
nothing :-(
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Kim's Journal
Journal End Time:
10:47am

well it has been a long time since we've last met. i could say that my life has been particularly interesting but not really :-) i'm going to join the Biology Club at school. i get to become a bio-nerd. i figure that i'm doing well enough in bio that it would be a cool experience, and i'd learn alot. the Bio Club is in preparation for the Bio contest. not that i want to do ANYTHING bio related in life...but it would be interesting.

OY VEY. i had the WEIRDEST dream. i can't remember all the details. i was driving with laura and we were being chased by this guy in a mask but he had startling blue eyes. so he would keep on flashing these signs with weird messages at us from his car window, or he'd page us. finally laura and i got smart and tried to get away from him. so we lost him and got on the highway, but he had managed to program the highway sign to say what he wanted it to. then laura and i got freaked out and called Danielle and she told us that it was her boyfriend steven that was chasing us. how weird is that?

i got another proposition. and this one was A LOT more on target than the previous one...ya know the FEMALE from MICHIGAN. yes but i was propositioned so ha. heck i would have taken had it not been so extreme...but hey, if it were modified i'd go for it.

in other news...the kid that i babysit for has started lying. but i don't feel like typing out the incident...so we'll just skip that.

okay i'm trying to figure out what i've missed talking about. OMG i need a bath. i really want to be in water right now. as soon as i update i'm taking a bath. NOT a shower cause tonya doesn't do showers unless she's washing her hair. so it will be a bath... a bubble bath. there's imagery for you:-)

i had a random day yesterday. yesterday was supposed to be my stay at home and do homework day...but i did not even OPEN a book. first i went to loblaws. then i came home and called max who coherced me into going out to lunch. so we went to Licks at Yonge & Eglinton and much fun was had. the music was this horrid mix of cheesy songs from the 50s and 60s...but enjoyable. then i got home and talked to laura for a while. then lisa called and she cohereced me into seeing Songs For A New World with her, max, and rina. so i said yes and i went to see the 10:30pm show. it was INCREDIBLE. i'm in love with it. i want to take my sister to see it next weekend. it was just .. WHOA. i'm in love :-) before the show max made us go to this sketchy dinner at queen and parliament. lots of sketch :)

okay i'm really needing to take my bath now so i'm going to be off. i'm dancing tomorrow at 5:30 and also on tuesday at 5:30 come join me.

ciao caio
tonya :-)


Date: January 20, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
8:27am
Stuck in my head:
What A Girl Wants by Christina Aguliera
In the cd player:
Mary J. Blige -- Mary
Song lyric of the moment:
oh booby booby
my chest was supposed to grow
but something wasn't right yah
-- part of the kiss92 spoof oh Hit Me Baby One More time...
but all about britney and her boobs

Book :
i'm still book-less
On the tube:
Today show
Random Quote:
"but Sou-jin i go to RANDOLPH not this new place...but it will always be randolph in my heart"
me to Sou-jin yesterday

Anxiously Anticipating:
i'm not sure...
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Kim's Journal
Journal End Time:
8:39am

hello guys and dolls :-)

well yesterday was an interesting day. well not really..i lie. but i DO have a story. anyhoo... i'm always saying that i find it VERY strange that i never run into Siona during the day, because she lives about 3 or 4 blocks away from my school. so yesterday after school we were supposed to have play rehearsal but that got cancelled. so i had no one to walk with after school :-( but then i was like, i should go to McD's and take advantage of their cheap hamburgesr (oh they will be seeing A LOT of me). so it took me like ten minutes to decided wheter or not to go to the one by college or the one by bloor. so i finally decided to go to bloor. so i walk into the fine eatery and i hear someone kind of call out...come to think of it i have NO clue what they said. but i turned my head and they waved..so i was like ummm whatever. i wasn't wearing my glasses :-( but then i realized that it was siona and i felt like an ass :-) so i'm talking to siona and i realize that she's sitting with someone and it was LEA. yup so that was that..and it was interesting and they were not eating like healthy little dancers. for some reason i always assumed that siona was a vegetarian..but she is not.

and wasn't that story just thrilling for everyone? if you all didn't know, lea and siona are my dance teachers at randolph. OMG OMG OMG. RANDOLPH ISN"T RANDOLPH ANYMORE. wait, did i write about this yesterday?? ooopsy daisy, i did. but i'm still in shock so it got a second mention. it has NOTHING to do with me being senial at all.

i got response to my request for a proposition. it was from a female from michigan. is anyone sensing a problem there :-) okay, so maybe i didn't make myself clear...there are certain requirements: must be a boy..and i guess canadian, cause michigan is far away. i was very amused by the proposition however, it was quite possibly the highlight of my day.

does anyone want a cell phone? it runs on Cantel AT&T service..it's some model of nokia. i'm looking thru my drawer and discovered it. it used to be my sister's but when she moved she gave it to me, not realizing that i already had a cell phone. i'll sell it for a bargain basement price. so anyone in the market for a cell phone e-mail me.

i'm staying home from school today. last night was just the night from hell. so i start my homework at like 9..no problem. but then our fuse kept on blowing so we had no light. so it's like 10:30pm and we had to go on a holy quest for fuses..so i got NO work done. so i was eh, i'll stay home today. this morning my mom was tyring to wake me upbut i kept on saying that i wasn't going anywhere...so i *think* she knows that i'm here...but c'est la vie.

okay i should really get off and do some homework.
so long, farewell,
tonya


Date: January 19, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
8:11am
Stuck in my head:
Fantasy by Mariah Carey
In the cd player:
Mariah
Song lyric of the moment:
last year, valentine's day
you would have sworn they say
babe i love you, love you, baby i, swear
held you when you were sick,
even...
the whole time i think to myself,this isn't fair
what is this i see?
you don't come home to me
when you don't come home to me
can't deal, can't bear
you keep telling me lies, and to your surprise
i found her red coat and you're...
caught out there

-- Kelis (the i hate you so much right now song)
Book :
I NEED A BOOK
On the tube:
Today show
Random Quote:
"but Sou-jin i go to RANDOLPH not this new place...but it will always be randolph in my hear"
me to Sou-jin yesterday

Anxiously Anticipating:
nothing at all
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Kim's Journal
Journal End Time:
8:39am

is it gross that it is 8:11am and i'm making pasta for my breakfast? i have this new revived pasta obsession. i was watching tv and the guy did all this really simple stuff with pasta. so now i like eating it with a bit of olive oil, garlic, basil, oregano and parmesan. i made myself some on monday night at like 12am. i know im a yuki girl but i love my food.

oy vey..the big shocker of yesterday. Randolph is no longer Randolph. now they've changed the program to the National Dance of Canada. first of all that name does not make ANY sense. a national dance would be the polka or the hocky pokey. not a dance school. and secondly i go to randolph not this new place. i was very saddened by that. but i told Sou-jin that in my heart it will forever be randolph. so that was saddening. class was fun, lea remembered her music which is always good. rachael was there and boy did she have stories to tell me. she was telling me all the kinky things that the people we went to junior school with (that she goes to highschool with) are doing. i was SHOCKED. apparently everyone in the world had a kinkiness spurt over the past 6 months. everyone is having sex or about to be having sex. one of our friends is engaging in kinky things with fruit. and our other two friends are randomly fooling around for the heck of it and now they are going to start casual sex. i told rachael she was giving me a heart attack. people are having showers with each other and experimenting with lesbianism. i was amused to say the least. oy all the random kinkiness that i've found out over the past week and a bit is enough to fill...not a thimble..maybe several buckets. but the whole situation is amusing. geez, i need someone to fool around with. if you aren't a psycho feel free to proposition me in the comment box.

okay everyone go read kim's journal from january 16 and send her advice.

i'm dropping media in school. i'm getting a crappy mark that i don't feel like having to work towarsd bringing up this term. i'm getting a 79%, which isn't horried, but we have an ISP that i DO NOT want to do so i was like fuck it. so i made an appointment with guidance so i'm going to drop it. plus it's a grade 12 class and i'm taking writers craft next year anyway. so it's all under control.

i'm randomly REALLY excited for Lion King. i do not know what is happening to me. maybe it's because there are no shows that i want to see until then. i want to see Lion King and Mamma Mia. i love me some ABBA so Mamma Mia is just thrilling my little heart. i already have tickets for Lion King and they are good so i'm a happy chica.

it feels like i'm typing this entry on speed. my fingers are moving so fast and i don't even know what i'm typing.

i got a whole bunch of CDs on monday from BMG. i got Mariah Carey *#1s*, the best of en vogue, the first BSB cd, and the Faith Evans CD. i've ben amusing myself with new music ever since. i'm a music whore. i'm always listening to music. i wonder wht it is about music that people love it so much. i don't think i've ever met anyone that doesn't like music. it just has some special quality that makes everyone love it.

what is up with the snow? i know it's winter and all that...but we had gone soooo long without snow that i assumed we wouldn't be getting ANY. but i look out my window and i see snow. i don't like snow. it's cold. i wish we didn't have to wear jackets.

okay time to get dressed for school :-)
ciao ciao
tonya


Date: January 16, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
7:14pm
Stuck in my head:
Food, Glorious Food; what a girl wants
In the cd player:
Backstreet Boys
Song lyric of the moment:
last year, valentine's day
you would have sworn they say
babe i love you, love you, baby i, swear
held you when you were sick,
even...
the whole time i think to myself,this isn't fair
what is this i see?
you don't come home to me
when you don't come home to me
can't deal, can't bear
you keep telling me lies, and to your surprise
i found her red coat and you're...
caught out there

-- Kelis (the i hate you so much right now song)
Book :
I NEED A BOOK
On the tube:
Dateline NBC
Random Quote:
"hey baby my place is right over there, why don't you come on over"
-- random guy on the street today to me (yah i know i'm a sex kitten)
"I really think you should help her out. I mean if it was your goal for the millenium to see breasts, I'd show you mine."
-- i really should withhold names on this one just in case..but i think we can all guess what this is relating to

Anxiously Anticipating:
the NYC meeting on tuesday
Link Me Baby One More Time:
napster
Journal End Time:
7:54m

wow, two updates in two days... i think that is a recent record for me n'est pas? i'm just here, avoiding work and bumping to some music. i think that bumping will be my new word. i will no longer listen to music, i will bump to music. does that sound raunchy? hopefully not.

sooo yesterday after rehearsal it was off to Oliver with Nat, Laura and Nadeen (a school friend). the play was soooooo cute. all these wee little children doning SUCH cute things. i'm obsessed with the music from that show. i almost bought the recording today, but i contained myself and didn't. Sonia Swaby aka Nancy ROCKS. she sang the hell out of her song. i'm loving her. there are Ollieheads. there were these girls dressed in costume. nat and laura were checking them out so i found out their ages for them (between 14 and 18). but laura and nat didn't make any moves on them :-) mark rovet was there in the first box above the orchestra and wearing an Oliver t-shirt. and that's all about that. it was closing night so all the poor little kids were bawling, it was so sad. then the lead guy, Russ something made this whole speech. it was very amsuing. i was a tired girl when i got home.

so today i went randolphing. as i was walking down yonge st. with the crazy ass winds i see this puffy yellow coat ahead of me by about a block. then with MUCh squinting i saw long flowing blond hair. low and behold it was lea. so lea being on her way to randolph could only mean that siona was not teaching. that was cool with me because i'm not feeling siona's new combo. so much fun was had in class because it was lea and she amuses me. she pushed me to work harder so i was doing multiple chaine turns instead of doing singles. the new lea combo is to Janet Jackson's "i get so lonely". but lea forgot her cd :-( BUT katarina aka max's former infatuation junkie, saved the day by letting lea use one of her cds and by helping her rechoreograph some bits. so big up to kat :-) lea felt very very bad after that, which sucks beause lea is already too apologetic about everything to begin with. but as i said, it was fun had by all.

i'm obsessed with that S Club 7 song. it's SOO cheesy and innocent. it's like the happy people's anthem. we should all embrace S Club :-) i'm loving the video for christina aguliera's *what a girl wants*. lots of fun dancing. i enjoy ms. aguliera. unlike that jessica simpson whore (hahah laura).

did i mention i'm avoiding doing homework right now. well that, and i'm waiting for the A&E biography on oprah. love me some oprah.

there was something that i REALLY wanted to talk about...but fuck me i can't remember. poor dev and hedwig closing...that is not fun at all. i wanted to see hedwig and meet gwenyth paltrow. now THAT girl has style. love me some gwennie. i also love me some clooney...but we won't go there tonight.

i need to download napster...i'm in need of MP3s. but now i'm off because this has to get up before oprah is on.
tata
tonya


Date: January 15, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
5:24pm
Stuck in my head:
Shake Your Bon-bon
In the cd player:
Macy Gray soon to be followed by Deborah Cox
Song lyric of the moment:
Superlove is somethin that they say is very rare
in the dark, in your world it's everywhere
and i feel like an x x rated movie star
it's the way you love me down
it's the way you love me down
everytime we kiss you bring out the woman in me
everytime you holler oy my name you set me free
i am a sex-o-matic venus freak when i'm with you
and i will stop it only when you tell me to

-- Macy Gray
Book :
I NEED A BOOK
On the tube:
CNN
Random Quote:
"hey baby my place is right over there, why don't you come on over"
-- random guy on the street today to me (yah i know i'm a sex kitten)
"I really think you should help her out. I mean if it was your goal for the millenium to see breasts, I'd show you mine."
-- i really should withhold names on this one just in case..but i think we can all guess what this is relating to

Anxiously Anticipating:
oliver i suppose...but nothing really
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Laura's Journal
Journal End Time:
5:50pm

wow it has been a while n'est pas? i'm so exhausted it is not even funny. it has been a looooooong week and a very long day. i was up at 6am to go line up for Oliver. the plan was to meet nadeen at 8:30 but then i realized that it was the last day...so i trucked myself down earlier. i got there at around 7:30. i hate rushing. well not really...it's just that i had play rehearsal after and that wasn't fun. la la la. had play rehearsal today no interesting stories.

EWWWW okay here is my story of the day. i was on the dufferin bus yesterday coming from school. so whatever, i'm sitting there, then i look across the aisle and i think to myself wow that guy has a hamster down his pants. but then i realized that it was his HAND. yes, random 40 year old man was MASTURBATING on the dufferin bus during rush hour. so of course i'm sitting there absolutely in SHOCK because frankly it was grosss. i mean there were soooo many people on the bus, and here was this guy jerking off. wow i've never used the expression jerking off...it sounds really akward, i always just say masturbating...not that that word comes up often...but whatever. ANYWAy back to my story...so the guy looked really relaxed and he'd take his hand out, wait a few seconds and then go back down and go at himself. he was doing this for a good solid 10 minutes. needless to say he "got the job done" and had an erection from masturbating on the duffering bus. can i get a collective OY?

wasn't that charming...on another note. someone whose name will not be revealed...but if you really want to know just ask, told me that i'm sexually frustrated and was trying to convince of it while i was walking thru the bay. she also made me say it out loud :-( it was actually pretty funny. we were walking thru the men's clothing area in The Bay and i was like "awww i want a boy to dress up". yah so that led to my sexual frustration conversation. she thinks i have "unsettled issues" and that i need to go out and have me a day (or night) of Kink...i laughed realy hard and that for a loooooong time. it was muy amusing. she's obsessed with telling me about her sex life...well not really her sex life...more like her "fooling life". but she totally doesn't seem like the type of person to get all hot and heavy into a relationship..but low and behold..she is. what is even more weird is that she gets very graphic about the whole thing. for example, some how we were talking about penises and whether or not circumsized or uncircumsized is better. she has't seen one that has been, so she wasn't a good person to talk to. however, i did learn that her boy is un- and it is enjoyable to play with becaus you have that extra flap to amuse yourself with. now THAT was just too many details. if i ever meet this guy all i will be able to think about is that story.

okay let's change the topic. i'm not failing french. i'm sooooo proud of myself. i honestly thought that i had a low to mid-70 average, but it turns out that i have an 83. i was a happy girl. i mean it isn't an amazing mark, but it's A LOT higher than i had expected. i did a happy dance at that news.

oy this has been SUCH a weird week for me. i babysat 24 hours this week, starting on sunday (she counted the time i was at the movies with christine as babysitting). plus this was the week of shocking revelations. i just kept on finding shocking things, being witness to shocking things and just a lot of weirdness happened every single day. i think i'll need therapy to recover from this week.

tonight i see oliver. i don't even know what it is about. i think it's about some poor children or something. i like going to shows and not knowing anything..it makes me pay more attention. but usually with musicals i've heard the music so it loses part of it. oh well...

AHHHHHHHH david letterman had a double bypass today. after he interviewed hilary clinton he was feeling yuki and went to the hospital and apparently he had clogged arteries. so today he had double bypass surgery. how weird is that? i used to be in LOVE with that man. i must have been in grade 7 or something...obsessed to the max. OMG my mom just said it was a QUINTEPLE BYPASS. how freaky is that. he was not a healthy guy. he isn't even all that old...in his EARLY 50s. oy oy oy.

i am a sex-o-matic venus freak when i'm with you.

i'm totally loving that song off. everyone needs macy gray. gotta love me some macy gray.

i'm going dancing tomorrow. and also on tuesday. i love me some tuesday dance classes. i'm so excited, i'm in such a dancy mood. hopefully i won't suck tomorrow. ROTFLMAO i just thought of something very very funny. i wil calm myself now.

looking for some hot stuff bay-bee this evening. i need some hot stuff bay-bee come on.

okay i best be on my way. tata
ciao bellas,
Tonya :-)


Date: January 12, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
9:57pm
Stuck in my head:
Goodbye by Spice Girls
In the cd player:
mostly likely jennifer lopez
Song lyric of the moment:
and i would be the one
to hold you down
,
kiss you so hard,
i'd take your breath away
and after i'd wipe away the tears,
just close your eyes dear
-- Sarah McLachlan

Book :
Nothing
On the tube:
good question...
Random Quote:
"hey baby my place is right over there, why don't you come on over"
-- random guy on the street today to me (yah i know i'm a sex kitten)
"I really think you should help her out. I mean if it was your goal for the millenium to see breasts, I'd show you mine."
-- i really should withhold names on this one just in case..but i thnk we can all gues what this is relating to

Anxiously Anticipating:
possibly saturday, but i'm not sure yet
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Laura's Journal
Journal End Time:
10:27pm

hey boom chicas :-)

welcome back to my world. it doesn't even feel like mine any more. i'm one busy girl. tonight i have 6 english ISU journals to write. it will be one filled evening. then in the morning i have a GAC meeting at 8:10. maybe i'll skip it. we shall see.

wow that was one boring paragraph.

man if you guys ever read my uneditted journal you would all pee. basically what i do is write my journal with EVERYTHING that is on my mind..good or bad or weird, and then it gets editted down to what you see here. i do it so that i can at least get out what i'm thinking without offended/amusing the masses. oy one of these days i can just see the uneditted version going up...now THAT would be funny funny funny.

i've gotten all of my exams back except for media. my stupid media teacher hasn't given us ANY of our work back since we got her as a teacher. as a result, none of us have ANY clue how the hell we are doing in that class. that is THE most frustrating feeling. i was pleasently surprised by my french exam 88%... i haven't done that well in french in a looooooooong time. things are looking up.

a school chum and i had an interesting conversation about boys. the first part i can't write about because it was absolutely scandolous...oy the things you learn about people before play rehearsal...but then we had the infamous discussing about boys and girls being able to or not being able to *just* be friends and how different highschool is from when you are little. i remember what i was little most of my friends were boys up until grade 6. but by 8th grade a had a few friends that were boys, and now i can probably count my guy friends on one hand. we came up with a theory that the reason your average girl tends to have fewer guy friends in highschool is because of the whole sexual tension thing. in grade school everyone is just running around playing cops and robbers without any worries, but by highschool everyone...well not everyone..butmost people are concerned about who likes who that friendship gets in the way a lot of the time. i'm from the school of people that think that guys and girls CAN be friends...i mean life would be pretty sad (and kinky) if we couldn't. and who cares about a little sexual tension...it makes life interesting. example. the other day in play rehearsal, josh (male lead) stole my cell phone and was playing keep away. so i was climbing all over him trying to get it back and then we started joking about lap dances and stuff. it was amusing. yes, so that is my idea today that isn't really developped. and it's my contribution to the "ring o' guys" journals that have been happening. i've noticed that many a journla these days have been talking a lot about guys...nothing wrong with that at all just an observation. i LIKE hearing about everyones guy woes and relationships it amuses me...well espcially since i have nothing going on in my neck of the woods. so i say if you need to write about boys write about them and enjoy it.

augh on another note...liars piss me off to no end. it honestly frustrates me and aggravates me when people lie. and i know sooo many people that lie constantly it is not even funny. and you can't just go up to a liar and be like geez you are one big liar...you just have to sit and accept because liars will deny they are lying. one big oy. so today i'm babysitting and i go downstairs to grab the cordless to bring upstairs. when i get up i'm like christine please go brush your teeth. then she tries to convince me that she already did, eventhough i know that she didn't because i didn't hear the water. so of course i go into the bathroom and check her toothbrush and she FULLY didn't brush her teeth. so basically after some ruckus she ended up brushing her goddamn teeth. and that is my story.

haha jan and jerry asked me ifi could pick up the kids next tuesday and i said NO. i'm so proud of myself, eventhough it puts them in a HUGE bind. i need to go dancing and see lea and have afun easy class. yesterday as i was walking up yonge i saw Ryan going to randolph and i was wishing i was going because i think that ryan is one of THE most amusing people i know at the moment. but haha next tuesday will be for me.

there was SOOOOo much that i wanted to write. now i cannot remember. i think i'm losing my mind. ricky is gone to NYU i think...Bye Ricky. so weird that he is gone....we could all fully lose touch with him if he doesn't get the internet back. it's so weird having internet friends.

i really should be doing english right now. i'm being a lazy ass. i have a lot of e-mails that i could answer, maybe i'll do that. oh there are so many things i wish i could be doing right now.... oh well i should not dream of what is meant to be.

before i go, today i was babysitting laura and she was chasing me around forl ike 10 minutes trying to stick her head in my crotch or up my bum. it was hilarious. of course i'm sure she continued to do it becuas ei was laughing hysterically, but that isn't the point. she should not be sticking her head anywhere like that. then someone taught her the word "nipple". so she was going around lifting up her shirt going "like my niples? can i see your nipples tana?" the child is two and she is a maniac. it's not even ME teaching her this stuff. but she is hilarious. and NO i did not show her anything...she is my baby and isn't allowed to know about anything sexual. now i'm gone.
Goodnight,
tonya


Date: January 11, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
7:27am
Stuck in my head:
Genie in a bottle (first song i heard today)
In the cd player:
Jennifer Lopez
Song lyric of the moment:
When I opened up my eyes today
Felt the sun shining on my face
it becamse so clear to me that everything is going my way
i feel there is no limit to what i can see
got rid of fears taht were holding me
my endless possibilities
has the whole world opened up for me
that's what i'm feelin' so good
-- Jennifer Lopez

Book :
Breath, Eyes, Memory by Edwidge Danticat
On the tube:
Today Show
Random Quote:
so many from saturday night...
Anxiously Anticipating:
eh nothing really i just want it to be the weekend
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Laura's Journal
Journal End Time:
7:51am

okay, the feeble attempt to update my journal starts...NOW.

so i haven't updated this thing in ages it seems...not for any particular reason or anything. i keep on starting entries but they never make it up. i put one up on sunday morning but it disappeared...so that didn't make me happy. but here i am, updating. i was going to update last night and it would have been such a good entry, but then i was tired so i didn't. so now you are all stuck with this entry :-)

alright. how sad was party of five last night??? and how does claudia now look 20? geez. poor doggy salinger that they had to kill because he was sick. and even poorer claudia who seemed to be having serious issues about telling owen that the dog died, i suppose that it had something to do with the whole death of her parents thing. but it was sad. at the end when claudia was sprinkling the ashses and she burst into tears...oy vey is all we are saying about that.

ally mcbeal was also enjoyable. but stupid me kept on falling asleep and had to have my mom explain what happened at the end of it for me. i love me some ally. even more, i love me some ling. she just rocks the world supreme. and what the heck was up with Billy and his posse of chicks? now that was just bizarre. okay and that is all about ally.

i FINALLY went dancing last night. i had to go to pre-jazz because i'm too out of it to do jazz1 or musical theatre. i recognized NO ONE in the class hardly...it was very strange. all these randolphsites keep on disappearing. however, i did see ryan and we had a good chat because he went to NYC for new years....more specifically he went to TIMES SQUARE for new years. how crazy is that?? he had an AMAZING time though and saw good shows...so go ryan. siona was back and looked exactly the same. chica needs to do something with her hair because now she is doing this bandana thing and it is not very flattering. class was fun i guess...we spent soooo long working on pirouettes, which i need because i'm going thru a phase where i think mine are awful. the new combo had us "shaking our bon bon." yes another ricky martin combo. i'm wondering if siona is having a ricky fetish. i'm SO over ricky martin it isn't even funny (haha when was i under ricky martin...is there a line like that from some movie or something?). so after class i spoke to siona for a while. lucky bitch was in B.C. for her entire break. on my way up yonge after class i saw this yellow puffy jacket coming down the street that was reminiscent of lea. turns out it was lea. so we stopped and talked for awhile which was nice because i haven't seen lea in forever. we were both SO out of it it was funny. we just kept on saying the stupidest things and talking really slowly. at one point she asked me if i came from jen's (cohen) class and i literally had to stop and think of what i was just doing. it didn't help that for a moment i thought she meant jen aubry. yah so tonya was sleepy. HEY gavin hope was at hiphop. i went in and put my jacket down and i turn around and hey ho it's gavin hope.

back in school and i hate it. i got 60% on my math exam. my mark going into my exam was 89%...now my average is 75%. i'm NOT a happy camper. but i've been doing a lot better on my exams than i had thought. 93% in geographie, 90% in english (haha so now my english mark is 87% i'm SO beyond happy about that right now) and 86% in biology. i'm surprising myself. but today i get back economics, french and media...so i'm sure i won't be TOO happy anymore. i wish i didn't care about marks. oy. so on saturday i ditched kristin and a bunch of people because a.) didn't want to see kristin b.) i love lara more and it was her b-day. so now kristin is having a fit over me not calling her back and blah blah blah. it is all very amusing and i willget into it another day.

i need to go an get dressed because i only have 30 mins. but i will continue my ramblings another day. there was soooo much i wanted to say, but not enough time.
ciao
tonya :-)


Date: January 6, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
11:22pm
Stuck in my head:
Feelin' So Good by Jenny Lopez
In the cd player:
Jennifer Lopez
Song lyric of the moment:
When I opened up my eyes today
Felt the sun shining on my face
it becamse so clear to me that everything is going my way
i feel there is no limit to what i can see
got rid of fears taht were holding me
my endless possibilities
has the whole world opened up for me
that's what i'm feelin' so good
-- Jennifer Lopez

Book :
nothing at the moment
On the tube:
Mad About You
Random Quote:
"I don't mind sleeping with Nadeen at all"
"i keep on doing all these weird thinggs...but i just can't seem to remember with who"
-- me sticking my foot in my mouth

Anxiously Anticipating:
nothing at the moment...i suppose school and getting back my absolutely dreadful exam marks back
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Laura's Journal
Journal End Time:
12:04am

oy vey. my mom and i just figured out that my uncle's wedding is the day after we have Lion King tickets in May. that isn't a good thing. it would be alright if he were getting married in... toronto or new york...but he's getting married in jamaica. for all of you that started reading my journal recently i don't like jamaica and do NOT want to go back because i was completely and totally tramautized by the whole experience. so this whole Lion King thing is a reason for me to stay here...but as for my mom we'll see. we still have to make sure eh's getting married on May 30th...but we think that that is weird because it's a tuesday. if he is getting married on a tuesday then he is SO dry. so that is my story of the day.

i'm obsessed with all things Latino. today is my latino day. i've been listening to Jennifer Lopez ALL day. i'm loving her new song "Feelin' So Good". it features Big Pun and Fat Joe....this doesn't actually excite me, but it's more the fact that they are latino that is thrilling me. man i want to marry me a latino guy. hey is that racist? i hope not. i want a spanish hombre. spanish is such a gorgeous language...the language of love...or is that french? adding anything latin automatically hypes up anything (well except for when laura adds her rock beats). the exception to my latino rule is Antonio Banderas. he is the eyesore of all things latino (espcially in EVITA). see everyone has their little cultural obsessions... amber, mary, brandi, and lynda are obsessed with canada. kim is obsessed with america and frat boys...and i have my latinos. maybe i could be an honorary latino. i used to have latino friends when i was little. all my playmates in my building were latino up until i was ilke 7 or 8. when i was little i used to take spanish classes because i loved the language. i even have those learn tospeak spanish tapes. now if george clooney were latino life would be sooooo good. i remember during the summer i was obsessed with this Puffy song..only because their was this chic on it (maybe angie martinez) and she rapped in spanish. oh and just listen to the names... lopez, martinez, rodriguez, cruz... beautiful. and i love how latino people say the name of the country. the best is if you find someone from puerto rico... they don't say it like porto rico they say pwayrto rico. or chile is chili its schilay. okay i'll stop with my latino vibes...is saying latino politically correct? i apologize if i'm offending the masses...but that is what the box is for.

okay let's talk about my life. wednesday i spent the day with laura. the plan was to get her a student card but that didn't work out because of my silly mom. but we did go to eaton centre...but really the GAP. we went to 2 GAPs and like only 2 other stores in the WHOLE entire mall. i found out that eaton centre has over 300 stores. that is craziness. then we trucked down to the concourse to eat... i had a double big mac combo. i'm loving the mcdonald's vibe. i have been eating so much shit this whole break and i havent' been dancing at all or exercising. i'm not one to be concerned about weight AT ALL or exercising...but damn our society for making us think that we HAVE to exercise and be skinny. but that is a whole other journal entry. anyhoo...we went to Queen where i bought flowers for Sarah aka Sister Cary. so we visited her after the Needfire matinee and had some fun talking to her. Laura concluded that she reminds her of siona because they both have buck teeth and look like mice. i TOTALLY say wtf? to that comment. they DO NOT look like rodents. sarah was very surprised to get flowers and felt very undeserving. she was very cute and got pissed at laura :-) okay not really...but she got chad the doorman for us which was very nice of her. we also managed to bring up the subject of her brother without busting out laughing. i was very proud. the evening concluded with some fun had in thornhill by watching Evita (well really half of it...we got sidetracked) and me ignoring Rah-key (as laura says but his name is Rocky and he is a dog). i speak dog. i would bark for him in a certain way then he'd get mad at me and try to step to me...very funny.

that brings us to today. i met elvira to give her some stuff for her homework. but then we decided to go to GAP. needless to say i FINALLY broke my no spending thing..i have like ZERO will power for this whole ordeal. anyhoo...i got over $20 worth of price adjustments from my boxing day purchases so i bought 3 new shirts and it cost less than $30. i was very happy. i wore one of them today under my orange sweater and damn me i looked fine.

my tummy feels yuki. this has been happening all week. at night my tummy starts to feel yuki. what is up with that shit? OMG today i rediscovered the joys of Food Processing. i made potato pancakes by shredding the potatoes and onions in the F.P. and they turned out magnificently. i was mucho impressed. now i'm a food processing whore. i'm finding the stupidest reasons to use the F.P. i'm a maniac and i'm out of control.

it feels like i'm never gonig back to Randolph. i couldn't go today i can't go tomorrow or sunday and i can't go tuesday. that means that next week will be the week of random dance classes. i'll most definitely go to Siona's jazz1 on monday night and *hopefully* on friday night as well. i miss lea :-( i miss randolph. i miss my little sou-jin and abbas. and julian and the blond figure skating chic aka anne. awwww i'm in withdrawl. i haven't been dancing since the week after the x-mas party i think. how sick is that. wow...that is almost a month i think. this is just wrong. but it isn't entirely my fault because i had exams, then the school was closed on friday and sunday for two weeks. well the point of this is that i have to go back and dance.

today in the mail i got my first IndigoCircle reward voucher. i was very thrilled. and in february i should be getting some more. from August until the end of November i spent about 296$ at indigo. but not really .... i thnk that one book i bought was on taht double points day or someting. but still that is a lot of money on books.

there is always soo much that i want to say in my journal but i can't, and it frustrates me. there is this whole issue that is absolutely CONSUMING me and i want to spaz about it here sooooo much...but i can't because i fear for my life :-) hehe you all think i'm joking too... but we won't get into that right here. then there are all the little things that i'd like to say...oh but that is the price that you pay to become an internet legend. haha. i'm totally talking out of my ass crack...don't listen to me.

OMG kristin told me the oddest thing the other day. she said that a guy has an erection every 5 minutes. not necessarily a big one or anything....just a litte stirring or something. how CRAZY is that??? i was shocked and surprised. that means that when i'm in class for an hour that any given boy has had about 12 erections. this amuses me too much. oy.

okay i'm gone...
tonya


Date: January 4, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
10:51pm
Stuck in my head:
In the cd player:
EVITA but soon to be Shania Twain cause she's on the radio and i miss her
Song lyric of the moment:
Ain't nothin' better
we beat the odds together
i'm glad we didn't listen

look at what we would be missin'
-- Shania Twain
Book :
Vinegar Hill (decent book but i'm not attached to it)
On the tube:
soon to be CityPulse
Random Quote:
no quotage
Anxiously Anticipating:
wednesday
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Laura's Journal
Journal End Time:
12:21am

i would just like to profess my love for Robin Williams. i just watched Mrs. Doubtfire for about the gazillionth time. i love that movie. it is just way too cute. and robin williams just floats my little boat. i saw Bicentennial Man yesterday and it rocked. well not rocked rocked...but it kept me entertained and didn't leave me confused at the end ... like other movies coughmagnoliacough. it was a cute movie. sad ending...but typically sad, not disturbing sad. recommended if there is nothing else you want to see and you need to see a cute heartwarming movie. the best part about the entire movie is that it's all about a man robot. and basically over time he acquires all these human characteristics. so all of you faithful readers are familiar with my whole "i want a robot" thing...so this provides some hope.

kristin is weird. i went out with her today and she talked to laura and the phone and we've decided that she is definitely weird. we met at dufferin station and then went to lunch. and i got a talking with her and decided she is an odd chica. she kept on wanting to know stuff about me and was totally prying. and she is obsessed with coming over and i'm not allowed to have people over. anyhoo...then i started asking her stuff and she won't tell me anything because she said that anything serious she has ever told me i have laughed, and that for thepast year and a half she has been keeping secrets from me. first of all she NEVER tells me anything. so now the question of the day is whether or not i still have to be friends with her. i write about this girl too much. we will just stop with this now. i lie, i also found out that people sit around with kristin and wonder about me...very interesting.

what else has been happening...this no spending thing is NOT working. i was in GAP the other day and REALLY wanted to buy another sex in my shirt fleece, but since i'm not allowed to spend..no shirt for me. then today i had THE biggest urge to buy ballet shoes. but i couldn't. i have really been wanting to take a ballet class recently, and ballet shoes would be a huge motivator.

laura the bubblehead says hi too all journal readers out in cyberland.

Rosie O'Donnell adopted another baby. a little boy. i his name is either Blake Christopher or Christopher Blake...or maybe something that just sounds like that. so now she has 3 little kids. and they are very little. parker must be about 4 years old and Chelsea is probably 2.5. that is crazy...rosie is going to be a busy girl. i love that woman. mark my words, i will be friends with rosie. you just wait and see. rosie and i will be homies. don't laugh...it will happen. rosie is just so cute....did we all see her barbra interview? i don't even like barbra and i still watched it just because i love me some rosie o.

oh today is jenifer aubry's birthday. happy birthday to her.

oh and lauren i did not see Any Given Sunday. it's a football movie, and this chica doesn't do football. the penis factor doesn't cover the fact that it's a football movie. but i may just watch it one day...we shall see. and the talented mr. ripley wasn't playing at SilverCity:-(

this entry is just becoming tedious...i won't talk anymore.
tonya


Date:
January 2, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
11:38am
Stuck in my head:
Hallelujah It's Raining Men
In the cd player:
Chantal Kreviazuk (go out and buy this CD now)
Song lyric of the moment:
Baby before you
Well i was bad news
in letting me love you
i think i can get through
oh baby before you
i was so scared
i was a train wreck waiting to happen
on the way to no where
and now i think it's kind of funny that you say you love
you tell me that i'm crazy then you smile

-- Chantal Kreviazuk (before you)

Strewn on the couch:
Vinegar Hill (decent book but i'm not attached to it)
On the tube:
most likely some informercial
Random Quote:
no quotage
Anxiously Anticipating:
wednesday
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Tanya's journal(thank you soooo much)
Journal End Time:
11:27am

i'm in SUCH a weird mood it isn't even funny. ookay so on New Years Eve i found out that Traci Melchor was leaving CityPulse. i LOVE that girl. apparently she's movie to L.A. she had the funnest clothes and coolest hair and it changed constantly. i swear my evenings would revolve around catching her entertainment report so that i could laugh at whatever she was wearing. she's the one that rekindled, or started my love for Crazy Sweater and Scarf from GAP. but now she is leaving and Tonya is NOT a happy camper. then last night i'm on the phone with laura and my mom was like guess who died and i was like who? apparently Colin Vaughan from CityPulse had a heart attack on New Years Eve and died on New Years Day. he was the kick ass Political Specialist at City. he was soooooo good. he'd always go the press conferences and embarass Mike Harris and make him look like an even bigger asshole than he already is. he was another one of the reasons to watch City. oy so tonya is not the happiest camper. it's so weird when people just die like that. i swear i watched that guy on the news at some point last week and he was fine...joking around and having fun...and now he's dead. oy vey.

so now i'm going through this whole thing about maybe i DO want to do journalism. i kind of got over that a few months ago and decided that i would like to do marketing...but now i'm like journalism is just so damn cool. so now i'm all conflicted. i'm thinking of maybe getting in contact with some peeps at City and maybe getting one last look at the whole "biz" and seeing if i'm still interested in the whole scene. i hate being conflited. but i am and there is nothing ican do about it.

OMG i've discovered another one of my biggest fears..it's a weird on folks so watch out. marrying a guy who molests our children. now THAT freaks me out to no end. imagine living in a house and thinking that everything is all cool and then one day finding out that he molested the children. i swear it makes me beyond sick. and then the worst is that it would be sprung out of the blue and you'd still be in love but you can't love him because he's a dirty dirty dirty man and you have to have loyalty to the kids. augh. freaks the hell out of me. this all stems for two reasons...there was a story line like that in something i saw the other day then as a result a had a dream about that. my dream was that i was married...hot guy, nice apartment. and then my 8 year old daughter says that he's been touching her and stuff. so i have a fit and pack an over night bag and tell him we're having a girls night out and we go and check in at the Ritz in NYC. but before that we go over to Rosie O's apartment and she leaves Parker and Chelsea at home and she comes with us to the Ritz for comfort. i know how fucking random is THAT dream. oy i need to lighten this entry up. it's pure dark thoughts.

i want to bash in my radio. it feels like everytime that i turn it on that freaking song Blue is on it. it's not even a real song. it's a fake song. it's terrible. it's a terrible fake song. the radio disapoints me often. but c'est la vie. i'm enjoying the handy dandy message box at the top. i love that people actually do send me comments. i know that when i read journals i always have something to say about the entry, even if it's just a little something something. e-mailing is always a pain so i never bother to comment. with this handy dandy comment box it's a quick and easy opportunity to comment on what you think, what disturbs you or what you find amusing. so i say use the handy dandy and enjoy it.

i find it hilarious that so many people discuss me and my penis. well not MY penis...but you know the whole "situation". it feels like i'm always finding out that some is having or has had a conversation about the whole thing. if i think about it long and hard enough than it disturbs me, but usually i just find it WAY too amusing. poor random people who read my journal. people that i actually know that read this know how i am and that i'm not really 100% psychotic...but people who just stumble on this must think that i'm an absolute nut bar...which of course i'm not... i'm just a partial nut bar. OMG OMG i feel like eating an Almond Joy Bar sooooooooo badly. i haven't had one of those in years. ahhhhh chocolate and coconut and almonds. i want me an Almond Joy.

sorry i'm just having a craving that is all.

i actually started doing some homework yesterday. i analysed about 3 or 4 articles for my economics ISU. so the goal is to have everything analysed by monday night. i think that's a reasonable goal. and then i'll spend tuesday typing them up and editing. and that will be all done. i also have to read a book for english, re-write my essay and do a bio lab. it's all under control though. i'm cool calm and collected :-)

how is Before You by Chantal Kreviazuk not the best song of the moment? i'm loving this vibe soooo much. everyone go out and buy it right about now. i heard that GAP got a new line in. i'm muy excited to see it. but of course i've put myself on a spending freeze until i have all of my money to go to NYC. i know that's painful. so no spending money until everything is under control..no cds, clothes, and anything i don't need. i'm still allowed to pay for my internet, cell phone and Randolph but that is all. i still need like 323$ not including what i still have to put into the bank. but my mom randomly is giving me 100$. i didn't even ask for any money and i told her that she doesn't have to give me anything because the trip was my decision and stuff..but she is being very berry nice. i find it funny that i make 100$ every week. you'd think i'm rich but i'm not at all. i have sooo many monthly expenses. but it's all good because i'm a pretty happy camper most of the time.

i'm supposed to be seeing a movie with my mom today. i'm not sure wht though. i want to see the Talented Mr. Ripley for the Matt Damon factor. i should find out what it's about first though. i'll go to the NOW magazine website..they always help me. shit my mom is on the phone so i can't get on the net :-( that just means i'll have to type more for you all :-)

i'm obsessed with being married. that always happens after i watch Mad About You. when i used to watch that show like 3 times a day i was a complete NUT. but i watched it last night for the first time in weeks and it was just one collective awww. i love the Buchmans. so cute. but the idea of marriage amuses me. i should eventually come to terms that i'm NOT marrying George Clooney. it's a sad realization but it's true. he's 21 years older than me. he's lived through soooo many presidents. but how fucking hilarious if i DO marry him. like if i called you all up somewhre down the road like maybe 15 years from now and i'm like guess who I'm marrying. that thought amuses the shit out of. the shit is in a pile on the floor waiting to be mopped away. my georgie needs a new movie to come out. i enjoyed Three Kings eventhough it was a war movie...OMG i need to own a copy of Out of Sight. i swear if someone were to buy that for me they would be permitted to use me and abuse me. come on it's Jenny Lopez aka Homegirl #1 and George...cinematic heaven :-) oh yeah i was talking about marriage. Elvira is like me..obsessed. like we have the whole thing planned out already. it's going to be beautfiul and i'm inviting everyone so get your suits and dresses out ladies and gentlemen.

i don't understand why the New Year is so important and everyone has this idea that you can just start over because the year changed. for some reason that whole idea just pisses me off. why can't you change in like April or something. actually i'm not giong on this tangent it would take too much energy. plus it wouldl get me on my whole humanity sucks speech then i'll just get frustrated and i'd go eat cookies. so we'll just prevent all of that. i need to call Randolph and see if Lea will be back on Tuesday. not because i won't go to class if siona and lea aren't there..but because i feel really icky all over and if i go to someone else's class the ickyness will just continue to develop..but lea and siona's classes can get the ickyness out. and the fact that Sarah won't even be teaching at Randolph doesnt' make me any happier. damn randolph. they have clsoed on my regular dancing days for the past two weeks. i normally go tuesday, friday and sunday. but they've been closed the past two friday and sundays. i haven't been dancing in a very long time. i have a feeling that everyone comes back this week so it's under control.

i'm off
tonya :-)


Date: January 1, 2000
Journal Start Time
:
9:92am
Stuck in my head:
Back at One by Brian McKnight
In the cd player:
Brian McKnight (it's my mom's)
Song lyric of the moment:
Say Farewell to the dark of night
I see the coming of the sun
i feel like a little child
whose life has just begun

--Brian McKnight
Strewn on the couch:
Vinegar Hill (decent book but i'm not attached to it)
On the tube:
some cheesy teen show
Random Quote:
so many lines from last night but someone (coughmaxcough) are supposed to remind me
Anxiously Anticipating:
wednesday
Link Me Baby One More Time:
Tanya's journal(thank you soooo much)
Journal End Time:
11:27am

hello lady and germs,

welcome to the new millennium. well not really the millennium, the fake millennium seeing as there was no year zero. but somehow, celebrating the year 2001 as the millennium just doesn't seem as interesting. well i got a lovely millennium present...a penis. yes folks this journal writer is no longer penis free. i had an incredibly enlightening and fufilling experience with one..the details of which are just too personal to describe in such a public place.

okay so how many of you could smell the bullshit through your computer? no penis was seen. i have entered the "millennium" penis-less. but how funny would it have been if i did see one like right before. now THAT wouldhave been a triumphant tale of woe...but it didn't happen so all my faithful journal readers will have to deal.

okay so what has been happening since i last updated? i have to go check. i saw Needfire. it doesn't have a story at all. it's pure dancing and singing and they PRETEND to have a story to tie all the dancing and shit together..it so doesn't work. they just need to call Needfire a dance show and get rid of the fake story. it was very entertaining, maybe even worth seeing. but if you aren't into irish/scottish dancing then don't see it. cary's sister sarah was in it as a principal dancer. she was so adorable, she was the only person in the show who wasn't a big time highland dancer, she's pure classical ballet. so everyone would be kicking up their legs doing some highland thang, and then sarah would come runing through doing some crazy ballet movie. it was hilarious. i was pissing my pants. i'm not saying that she was bad or anything...and your average theatre goer probably wouldn't even notice...but since i'm marrying/sleeping with her brother, i had my eye on her when she was on. oy vey. i'm not REALLY marrying/sleeping with cary shields. the last thing i need is some benny tour fan in florida inquiring about THAT.

okay the cd has been changed to much dance 2000 so now i can type faster becasuse the momentum of the music keeps me going. Eminem is on...he makes me laugh. i ordered his cd from Columbia and i've never ever listened to it. i'm not a real hard core rap fan or anythign...i just listen to what ever Kiss92 tells me to listen.

yesterday i got together with lara, laura, nat and max and we went to marche. fun was had by all. we were in marche for sooo long. we ate relatively quickly, but we sat around talking about the randomest stuff for soooo long. as i said earlier it was fun had by all. i had a mushroom pizza, bruschetta, half an order of rosti and a fruit flan. i was a happy girl. oh yah..i had THE biggest lollipop. it was rectangular and very thick it was so hard to talk with it in my mouth.

afterwards max, lara and i went to Paramount to go see Magnolia. oy vey. that movie is pure bizarreness. if you thought American beauty was odd wait until you see this. it's 3 hours long and all 3 hours seem worth it. i don't even know what to say about it. i knew nothing about it going in. TOM CRUISE IS IN IT. he was so fucking hilarious. he was this motivational speaker type person for men. and his slogan was "respect the cock and tame the cunt." ookay maybe those weren't the exact words but that was the gist of it. fucking hilaroius. he was just such a vile and dirty person i couldn't stop laughing. but yay tom cruise. ohhhh and there is even a scene with tom cruise in his underwear...muy enjoyable. and i don't even mean boxers, we're talking white briefs. gotta love tom cruise. i don't know what else to say about this movie other than that you will be so confused about the frogs. and if you do understand then PLEASE e-mail me.

here is the synopsis of the movie from yahoo:
On one random day in the San Fernando Valley, a dying father, a young wife, a male caretaker, a famous lost son, a police officer in love, a boy genius, an ex-boy genius, a game show host and an estranged daughter will each become part of a dazzling multiplicity of plots, but one story. Through a collusion of coincidence, chance, human action, shared media, past history and divine intervention they will weave and warp through each other's lives on a day that builds to an unforgettable climax. Some will seek forgiveness, others escape. Some will mend frayed bonds, others will be exposed.
i'm still mulling over this movie. go see it.

ok what else do i have to talk about? oh yah lara kidnapped me. she had e-mailed me earlier in the week saying that she was going to kidnap me AND SHE DID. i got in her car and i was trapped. so we tried renting american pie. OH WAIT at this point we had lindsay with us who had just come in from NYC. so anyhoo no American Pie for us but we did have quiche. we sat around and chilled and had much fun eventhough lindsay's feet were climbing up the table.

i got home around 11:30 and was in bed by 12:07am. i was exhausted. i could barely keep my eyes open.

okay i'm ending this journal. i think i'm putting up one of those little messaging things at the top. so enjoy and send me messages.

ciao
tonya